Ana frankis dRiuri

Cven bevri saZexve xorci SevukveTeT (cxadia, Sav bazarze), gadavwyviteT Savi dRisTvis Zexvi mogvemaragebina. saintereso sayurebelia:L xorcs jer sakep manqanaSi gaatareben or-samjer, Semdeg Seaneleben, kargad azelen da bolos milakis meSveobiT nawlavebs avseben. Cven ukve mivirTviT sadilad Semwvari Zexvi kombostos mwniliT. magram Sebolili Zexvi rom damzaddes, kargad unda gamoSres. amitom Zexvi WerqveS Zelze gaWimul Tokebze Camokides. yvela, vinc oTaxSi Semodis, WerqveS moqanave Zexvebs xedavs da icinis. marTlac sasaciloa.

oTaxSi saSineli aurzauri iyo. batoni van daani (colis winsafari Semoexvia da ufro sqeli Canda, vidre sinamdvileSi iyo) TavgamodebiT dastrialebda xorcs. gasisxlianebuli xelebi, gaoflianebuli, alewili pirisaxe da dalaquli winsafari namdvili yasbis iers aZlevda. qalbaton van daans, Cveulebriv, yvelafris erTbaSad gakeTeba surs: swavlobs saxelmZRvanelodan holandiurs, urevs wvnians, Tvalyurs adevnebs xorcs da amave dros kvnesis, radgan nekni stkiva. ai, ra xdeba, roca pativmoyvare, xanSi Sesuli (!!) mandilosnebi sqeli ukanalis gasaxdomad yovlad saxifaTo tanvarjiSs mimarTaven. dusels Tvalis anTeba aqvs, mTeli dRe RumelTan zis da Tvalze kompress idebs. fanjarasTan Camomjdar mamas mzis nazi sxivi dahnaTis. albaT, isev revmatizmi stanjavs, radgan moxrili zis da sacodavi saxiT adevnebs Tvals baton van daanis saqmianobas. peteri daarbeninebs oTaxSi katas (katas muSi hqvia). me, deda da margo kartofils vfcqvniT, magram am saqmes meqanikurad vakeTebT da monusxulebiviT SevcqeriT baton van daans.

duselma, rogorc kbilis eqimma, praqtika ganaaxla. moganiWeb siamovnebas da mogiyvebi, rogor Seudga mkurnalobas. deda auTovebda, roca qalbatonma van daanma ganizraxa, pirveli pacienti gamxdariyo. qalbatoni van daani Sua oTaxSi dadgmul skamze dajda, duselma ki saqmianad da mSvidad amoalaga instrumentebi; sadezinfeqciod odekoloni moiTxova, xolo cvilis nacvlad — vazelini.

amis Semdeg qalbaton van daans pirSi Caxeda, ukana kbilebi gausinja. daakakuna, moCxrika. qalbatoni wamdauwum tokavda, TiTqos tkivilisagan suli exuTeboda da yovlad ucnaur bgerebs gamoscemda. xangrZlivi Semowmebis Semdeg — pacients ase egona, Torem sinamdvileSi mxolod ori wuTi Tu gavida — duselma gadawyvita, gamoxruli kbili amoewminda. magram amaze fiqric ki zedmeti iyo! qalbatoni van daani veluriviT iqnevda xelebs da wixlebs isroda, ase rom, duseli iZulebuli Seiqna xeli SeeSva kauWisaTvis, romliTac kbils uwmendda. qalbaton van daans kauWi kbilSi gaeCxira. axla ki aiwyvita eSmakma! kbilSi kauWgaCrili qalbatoni aqeT-iqiT awydeboda da cdilobda rogorme amoeZro, magram kidev ufro Rrmad irWobda kbilSi. doinjSemoyrili duseli sruliad mSvidad idga iqve da am speqtakls uyurebda, danarCenebi vxarxarebdiT. Cveni mxriv, es simdable iyo: albaT, mec gvarianad viRrialebdi.

bolos, saSineli garjis, oxvrisa da kvnesis Semdeg qalbatonma kbilebSi gaCxiruli iaraRi amoiZro da duselma isev ganagrZo muSaoba, TiTqos aq araferiao. muSaobda swrafad. pacients dro aRar rCeboda, raime moemoqmedebina. dusels albaT arasodes ar hyolia amdeni TanaSemwe. me da batoni van daani asistentebi gaxldiT da yvelani erTad uTuod ise gamoviyurebodiT, TiTqos gacocxlebuliyos Suasaukuneebis naxati `Sarlatanebi muSaoben~.

bolos da bolos pacientma moTmineba dakarga da ganacxada, sadils unda mivxedoo. erTi ram cxadia: qalbatoni van daani ase male aRar miakiTxavs kbilis eqims.

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kvira, 13 dekemberi, 1942

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didi kontoris fanjarasTan myudrod movikalaTe da sqel fardebs Soris darCenili WuWrutanidan vuTvalTvaleb, ra xdeba gareT. Tumca bindi Camowva, magram, imisaTvis rom Sen mogwero, sinaTle kmara.

ucnauri sayurebelia, rogor darbian adamianebi quCaSi! ase mgonia, saSinlad eCqarebaT sadRac da lamisaa sakuTar fexebs gamoedon. velosipedebs ise miaqroleben, rom Zneli gasarCevia, vin zis zed, qali Tu kaci.

Cveni raioni tipuri muSaTa ubania. umravlesobas siRaribis daRi azis, bavSvebi ki iseTi WuWyianebi arian, rom mxolod sakeciT Tu Seexebi. namdvili wvintliani quCis bavSvebia, romlebic Znelad gasageb dialeqtze laparakoben.

guSin, roca me da margo tans vibandiT, aseTi azri damebada: ra kargi iqneboda, rom SemeZlos am patara sazogadoebidan ramdenime bavSvis ankesiT daWera, zeviT amoyvana, abazanaSi Casma, dabana, sufTad gamowyoba da saTamaSod quCaSi gaSveba, maSin... — xval iseTive WuWyianebi da Camofxrewilebi irbenen, — Semawyvetina margom.

gareT sxvac bevria saintereso: avtomobilebi, kaparWebi, wvima. mesmis tramvais borblebis RrWiali da aTasgvar ambebs vTxzav. Cveni fiqrebi iseve naklebad icvlebian, rogorc Cven TviTon, mudam erT wreSi trialeben: ebraelebi — saWmeli, saWmeli — politika, xolo politikidan... raki ebraelebi vaxsene, ai ra unda giTxra: guSin, roca WuWrutanaSi vicqirebodi, quCaSi orma ebraelma gaiara. ucnauri grZnoba mqonda, TiTqos me isini gaveci imiT, rom aq vzivar da maT ubedurebas vuyureb.

zustad Cveni saxlis pirdapir sacxovrebeli barJa dgas. barJaze cxovrobs mezRvauri Tavisi ojaxiT. hyavT patara ZaRli, romelsac yefiT vcnobT da romlis kuds mxolod maSin vxedav, roca qimis gaswvriv darbis.

isev dauSva wvimam, adamianTa umravlesobam qolgebs Seafara Tavi. axla mxolod sawvimarebi da aqa-iq kapiuSonebi moCans.

dasanaxi meti arc araferia. me isedac kargad vicnob am qalebs, mwvane da wiTeli makintoSebiT rom Caivlian xolme. gacveTili quslebi, mklavze Camokidebuli gaxexili CanTebi, SeSupebuli, damZimebuli sxeulebi, radgan sxva saWmeli ara aqvT da kartofils eZalebian. zogs sacodavi gamometyveleba aqvs, zogs kmayofili, albaT imisda mixedviT, Tu ra xasiaTzea qmari.

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samSabaTi, 22 dekemberi, 1942

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TavSesaframde sasixarulo ambavma moaRwia: saSobaod yvelas damatebiT 100 gram karaqs dagvirigeben. oficialurad naxevar girvanqas iZlevian, magram es exeba im bednier momakvdavT, romlebic gareT Tavisuflad cxovroben, Cven, ltolvilebs ki rva kacze mxolod oTxi baraTi gvaqvs da 100 gramic gvaxarebs. Cven gvinda am karaqiT rame gamovacxoT. me gamovacxob puris kverebs da or torts. sanam saojaxo saqmes ar movrCebiT, deda arc kiTxvis uflebas gvaZlevs da arc mecadineobisa. neknnatkeni qalbatoni van daani sawolSi wevs, dilidan saRamomde moTqvams da Cvenda uneburad unda movuaroT. waramara kompresebs vadebT, magram mainc sul ukmayofiloa. mirCevnia, fexze idges da sakuTar saqmes TviTon mixedos. erTi ram unda vaRiaro: igi Zalze Sromismoyvarea, xolo roca sulierad da fizikurad kargad grZnobs Tavs, mxiarulic.

is ar kmara, rom mTeli dRe maCumeben `su, su~-o, aqaoda Zalze xmamaRla vlaparakob, axla Cems pativcemul mezobels dasCemda Ramec misisinos. mas rom hkiTxo, Rame sawolSi gadabrunebac ki ar SeiZleba. me Tavi ise miWiravs, TiTqos verafers vamCnev, magram dReidan, rogorc ki momaZaxebs `su, su~-o, mec aseTive sisiniT vupasuxeb. isedac gabrazebuli var masze. kviraobiT uTenia dgeba, sinaTles anTebs da varjiSs iwyebs. ase mgonia, TiTqos varjiSi saaTobiT grZeldeba. amave dros Zalian mouridebelia, waramara ejaxeba skamebs, romelTac sawolis dasagrZeleblad viyeneb, da sabolood mafxizlebs. vdgebi, magram Zili maklia, siamovnebiT daviZinebdi kidev ramdenime xans. xolo roca `siZlierisa da silamazisaken~ mimavali gza iwureba, duseli Cacmas iwyebs. nifxavs dawolis win kauWze kidebs, amitom jer iqiTken midis, Semdeg ki ukan brundeba. ra Tqma unda, aviwydeba halstuxi, romelic magidaze devs. axla isev iqiT-aqeT darbis, Tanac skamebs ejaxeba. mSvidobiT, Cemo kviris tkbilo Zilo!

magram ra azri aqvs sasacilo moxucebze Civils? xandaxan xelebi meqaveba, minda raime oini movuwyo: davuketo kari, amovxraxno naTura, davumalo tansacmeli?! Tavs mxolod imiT vikaveb, rom ar minda sanatreli simSvide davarRvio.

oho, me Wkua memateba! aq yvelaferi gonivrulad unda gaakeTo: enas kbili daaWiro, sxvebs gaugono, zrdilobianad, Tavazianad moeqce, dauTmo da kidev ramdeni ram. Wkua, romelic isedac cota maqvs, albaT, aq Zalian Cqara Semomexarjeba da omis Semdgomi droisaTvis aRaraferi damrCeba.

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oTxSabaTi, 13 ianvari, 1943

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dRes isev sazizRar gunebaze varT, ar SegviZlia mSvidad jdoma da muSaoba. qveyanaze raRac saSineleba trialebs. sabralo xalxs dRe da Rame sadRac mierekebian da, garda zurgCanTisa da cotaodeni fulisa, Tan arafris waRebis uflebas ar aZleven (Semdeg amasac arTmeven).

ojaxebs ancalkeveben, bavSvebs ded-mamas aSoreben. zogjer skolidan dabrunebul bavSvs Sin mSoblebi aRar egebebian, savaWrod gasul qals bina daluquli xvdeba, xolo ojaxi gasaxlebuli.

axla qristianebs Sorisac didi mRelvarebaa. axalgazrdebs, vaJiSvilebs, germaniaSi agzavnian. yvela dadardianebulia!

yovel Rame holandiis gavliT asobiT TviTmfrinavi mifrinavs germaniis qalaqebis dasabombad. ruseTsa da afrikaSi yovel saaTSi aTasobiT adamiani iRupeba! mTeli msoflio gagiJda, yvelgan ngreva da sikvdilia. cxadia, mokavSireebi axla ukeTes mdgomareobaSi arian, magram am ambavs bolo mainc ar uCans.

Cven ra gviWirs, milionobiT adamianze ukeT vcxovrobT. vsxedvarT CvenTvis mSvidad, saimedod, SegviZlia omis Semdgom gegmebzec vifiqroT, gvaxarebs axali tansacmeli da wigni. ukeTesi iqneboda gvefiqra imaze, Tu rogor davzogoT yoveli centi da tyuilubralod ar gadavagdoT, radgan unda gadavarCinoT yvela, visi gadarCenac ki SeiZleba da daxmareba aRmovuCinoT.

Cveni ubnis bavSvebi Txeli bluzebis amara, upaltood, uqudod, uxelTaTmnod datantaleben, fexze xis qoSebi acviaT. kuWi carieli aqvT, stafilos RrRnian, civi binidan svel quCaSi gamorbian (quCaSi qari qris), skolaSi midian da gayinul, nestian klasSi sxedan. holandia iqamde mivida, rom bavSvebi quCaSi gamvlelebs puris natexs sTxoven. SemiZlia saaTobiT vilaparako imaze, Tu ra ubedureba moaqvs oms, magram me es kidev ufro metad maRonebs. Cven isRa dagvrCenia, rom mSvidad da gulmagrad velodoT, rodis miiwureba Savi dRe. elis yvela, ebraeli da qristiani, elian xalxebi da mTeli msoflio da... bevri sikvdils elis!

ana
SabaTi, 30 ianvari, 1943

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lamis gavcofde, magram Tavi unda Sevikavo. minda fexebi vabakuno, viyviro, deda SevanjRrio da ar vici, meti raRa vqna im damcinavi mzeris, boroti sityvebisa da braldebebis gamo, romelTac yoveldRe ise mayrian, rogorc isrebs magrad daWimuli mSvildidan. minda vuyviro dedas, margos, dusels, van daanebs da mamasac ki: Tavi damanebeT, momasveneT! gana ase aucilebelia yovel Rame cremliT dasvelebul baliSze dameZinos dasiebuli TvalebiT da damZimebuli TaviT. nu momekarebiT, minda yvelas gagecaloT, Tumca umjobesia saerTod gavecalo am qveyanas! magram araferi gamomdis. maT warmodgena ara aqvT, rogor warmekveTeba sasoeba, ar esmiT, ra tkivils mayeneben.

maT TanagrZnobasa da ironias sruliad veRar vitan! ise var gamwarebuli, lamis vibRavlo.

sakmarisia, piri gavaRo da maT ukve hgoniaT, TiTqos raRaca zedmeti vTqvi. roca Cumad var, ecinebaT; yoveli Cemi pasuxi ukmexad eCvenebaT, gonivruli azri — cbierebad, Tu daviRale, zarmacs meZaxian, Tu erTi zedmeti kovzi gadmoviRe — egoists. ras ar maweren: mxdalic var, angariSianic, eSmakic da a. S. mTeli dRe mxolod imazea laparaki, Tu ra autaneli arseba var. Tumca me vicini da ise miWiravs Tavi, TiTqos yvelaferi fexebze mkidia, magram sinamdvileSi srulebiT ar aris ase.

RmerTs vTxovdi, iseTi xasiaTi moeca CemTvis, romelic yvelas Cems winaaRmdeg ar aamxedrebda, magram vici, rom amas araferi eSveleba. bunebam aseTi Semqmna. Tumca me vgrZnob, rom cudi ara var. maT odnavadac ki ver warmoudgeniaT, rogor vcdilob vasiamovno yvelas. Cemi Rrma mwuxareba rom davmalo, maTTan erTad vicini. ramdenjer mimixlia dedisaTvis pirSi, roca usamarTlod momqcevia: — CemTvis sul erTia, Tqvi, rac ginda, oRond Tavi damanebe, xom xedav, rom gamousworebeli var-meTqi!

amis Semdeg meubnebian, Tavxedi xaro da meore dRes zed ar miyureben. Semdeg yvelafers iviwyeben da mapatieben. me ki ar SemiZlia erT dRes adamians vesiyvarulebode, velaqucebode, xolo meore dRes mZuldes! umjobesia, avirCio saSualo xazi, Cemi fiqrebi CemTvis Sevinaxo da maT iseve agdebulad moveqce, rogorc me meqcevian. netav ki SemaZlebina!

ana
paraskevi, 5 Tebervali, 1943

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Cxubsa da kinklaobaze didi xania SenTvis araferi momiweria, Tumca am mxriv araferi Secvlila. batoni duseli pirvelad tragikulad aRiqvamda yovelgvar uTanxmoebas, magram bolos SeeCvia amas da cdilobs ar Caerios. margosa da peterSi `axalgazrduli~ araferia, orive wynaria, Tavs Segawyenen. ra Tqma unda, me maTgan gamovirCevi da wamdauwum mesmis: — aiRe magaliTi margosa da peterisagan, isini arasodes ar iqcevian SensaviT! ra saZaglobaa! unda gamogityde, rom arafris gulisTvis ar minda viyo iseTi, rogoric margoa. Cemi azriT, igi Zalze modunebuli da uniaToa. yvelas gavlenis qveS eqceva, yvelas uTmobs. adamians xom unda hqondes sakuTari azri! jobia, gavCumde da es Teoria aravis gavuziaro, Torem damcineben.

sufraze mudam igrZnoba daZabuloba. igi mxolod maSin klebulobs odnav, roca kontoridan stumrebi gvewvevian, romlebic erTi TefSi wvnianis Sesaxvrepad amodian CvenTan.

dRes, sadilze batonma van daanma kvlav aRniSna, rom margo Zalian cotas Wams. — albaT gasuqebis eSinia, — geslianad dasZina man. dedam, romelic mudam TavgamodebiT icavs margos, xmamaRla miaxala: — me veRar vitan Tqvens sulelur SeniSvnebs! qalbatoni van daani WarxaliviT gawiTlda. darcxvenili van daani ki erT wertils miaSterda.

zogjer yvelani bevrs viciniT. amas winaT qalbatonma van daanma Zalian gagvamxiarula. gviambo, rogor arSiyobda axalgazrdobaSi da ra marjved `atyuebda~ mamas. — Tu axalgazrda kaci xelebis faTurs dagiwyebs, marigebdao mama, Sen unda uTxra: `batono Cemo, me wesieri qali gaxlavarT!~ da igi imwamsve mixvdeba, visTan aqvs saqme! — Cven ise vicinodiT, TiTqos Zalze gonebamaxvili xumroba movismineT.

Tumca peteri Zalian wynaria, magram zogjer mainc davciniT da amiT verTobiT. misi susti mxare ucxo sityvebia, romelTa mniSvneloba metwilad ar esmis da zogjer ise uadgilod xmarobs, rom didi sisulele gamodis. erT dRes kontoraSi xalxi iyo da sapirfareSoTi sargebloba ar SeiZleboda, magram peters gauWirda, moisaqmiana da ar Carecxa. Cvens gasafrTxileblad ki karebze qaRaldi miakra da zed waawera `S’il vous plait, — gazebia!~ cxadia mas undoda eTqva `frTxilad, gazebia!~ magram egona franguli ufro zrdilobianad JRers da Cans warmodgena ar hqonda, rom `S’il vous plait~ niSnavs `inebeT, geTayva~.

ana
SabaTi, 27 Tebervali, 1943

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yoveldRe veliT mokavSireTa jarebis gadmosxmas. CerCils filtvebis anTeba hqonda, magram axla ukeTaa. gandim, romelic indoeTis ganTavisuflebisaTvis ibrZvis, es ukve meramdenejer gamoacxada SimSiloba.

qalbatoni van daani gvarwmunebs, rom fatalistia. magram vis acaxcaxebs yvelaze metad srolis dros? ra Tqma unda, mas, petronelas.

henkma mogvitana episkoposis mimarTva mrevlisadmi, romelsac sajarod kiTxuloben yvela eklesiaSi. mimarTva didebuli da aRmafrTovanebelia. `niderlandelebo, gul-xeli nu dagikrefiaT! SeiaraRdiT da ibrZoleT xalxisa, Tavisuflebisa, samSoblosa da sarwmunoebisaTvis. daexmareT erTmaneTs, nurafers daiSurebT erTmaneTisaTvis, nu miecemiT sasowarkveTilebas!..~ ai ras qadagebs episkoposi. moitans ki Svebas amgvari qadageba? CvenTvis, ebraelebisaTvis, cxadia, ara.

rom icode, ra moxda. Cvenma saxlis patronma saxli gayida ise, rom arc batoni koophoisi gaufrTxilebia da arc batoni kraleri. erT diliT moulodnelad gamocxadda saxlis dasaTvaliereblad arqiteqtorTan erTad. madloba RmerTs, batoni koophoisi kontoraSi iyo. mosulebs yvelaferi aCvena, garda saxlis ukana mxarisa. TiTqosda Sida karis gasaRebi saxlSi darCa. maT araferi ukiTxavT. imedi maqvs, rom saxlis ukana mxaris sanaxavad aRar movlen. CvenTvis es saSineleba iqneboda.

mamam axali kartoTeka gvaCuqa sufTa baraTebiT. amgvarad, me da margos wignebis katalogi gveqneba. Cven viwerT yovel wigns, romelic wavikiTxeT da aRvniSnavT ara marto avtoris gvarsa da wignis saTaurs, aramed Cvens SeniSvnebsac. ucxo sityvebisa da gamoTqmebisaTvis calke rveuli SeviZine.

am bolo dros me da deda ukeT vewyobiT erTmaneTs, magram namdvili ndoba Cvens Soris arasodes ar iqneba. margo sul ufro xSirad miwyreba, mama ki gulCaTxrobili gaxda, etyoba, raRac awuxebs. miuxedavad amisa, igi mainc yvelaze ukeTesia.

CvenTan SemoiRes karaqisa da margarinis ganawilebis axali wesi. TiToeuls TefSze udeben mTeli dRis ulufas, Cemi azriT, van daanebi sindisierad ar anawileben, magram Cems mSoblebs mobezrdaT yoveldRe maTTan kinklaoba da arafers ar amboben. me ki mgonia, aseT xalxs samagiero aseve unda gadauxado!

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oTxSabaTi, 10 marti, 1943

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guSin saRamos isev moxda mokle CarTva, sinaTle Caqra, gareT ki sazenito qvemexebi quxdnen. verafriT ver damiZlevia SiSi, romelsac CemSi srola da sahaero Tavdasxma iwvevs. TiTqmis yovel Rame mamis sawolSi mivZvrebi. iqneb, Seni azriT, aseTi saqcieli bavSvobaa, magram aba erTi TviTon gamoscade!

qvemexebis quxilSi sakuTari xmac ki ar gvesmis. qalbatoni van daani, Cveni fatalisti, TiTqmis tiroda da CurCuliT ambobda: `o, ra saSineli srolaa!~ gana ar jobda pirdapir eTqva: `o, rogor meSinia?!~ diliT ise ar meSinia, rogorc Rame, bnelSi. akankalebuli, Cemda uneburad vyvirodi, vemudarebodi mamas sanTeli aenTo, magram mama ulmobeli aRmoCnda da sibneleSi dagvtova. uecrad tyviamfrqvevis kakani atyda, rac sazenito qvemexebis quxilze uaresia. deda sawolidan wamoxta da sanTeli aanTo, pimi Zalian gajavrda. xolo roca sayvedurebze gadavida, dedam mtkiced upasuxa: `ane SensaviT nacadi jariskaci araa!~ amiT gaTavda yvelaferi.

nuTu ar mogiyevi, ra Savi dRe daadga qalbaton van daans? Sen yvelaferi unda icode, rac Cvens TavSesafarSi xdeba. erTxel qalbaton van daans sxvenidan fexis xma moesma, egona qurdebi ariano da ise dafrTxa, rom qmari gaaRviZa. amasobaSi xmauri Sewyda, baton van daans, mxolod fatalistis gulis Zlieri bagabugi esmoda. `ah, puwi!~ (baton van daanis saferebeli saxelia), `albaT, Zexvi da lobio mogvpares. Cveni peteri? peteri cocxalia?~ — `peters aravin moiparavs, nu geSinia, damaZine!~ ris Zili, SeSinebuls mTeli Rame Tvali ar mouxuWavs. ramdenime dRis Semdeg idumalma xmaurma kvlav gamoaRviZa mTeli ojaxi. peterma jibis farani aiRo, sxvenze avida da roca gaanaTa, — frrrr! — virTxebis mTeli jogi daafrTxo. amgvarad gavigeT, vin iyvnen qurdebi da sxvenze muSi davtoveT dasaZineblad. daupatiJebeli stumrebi jerjerobiT ar gamoCenilan, yovel SemTxvevaSi RamRamobiT siwynarea, magram ramdenime dRis winaT SeRamebisas peteri sxvenze avida (rvis naxevari iyo da jer ar bneloda) Zveli gazeTebis Camosatanad. roca ukan brundeboda, liuks moeWida da xeli ise daado ficars, rom arc ki dauxedia... uecrad SiSisa da tkivilisagan kinaRam kibeze dagorda. virTxam magrad ukbina xelze, piJama sisxliT hqonda mosvrili. mitkaliviT gafiTrebuls muxlebi ukankalebda. gasakviri araferia! gulis asarevad isic kmara, rom virTxas mokido xeli da Tu kidec gikbina... ra sazizRrobaa!

ana
paraskevi, 12 marti, 1943

Zvirfaso kiwi!

neba miboZe warmogidgino deda franki, axalgazrdebis qomagi! karaqis damatebiTi ulufa — ai, Tanamedrove axalgazrdobis saWirboroto problema. deda mudam gveqomageba me, margos da peters da xangrZlivi davis Semdeg Tavisi gaaqvs.

gagvifuWda erTi qila dakonservebuli ena. muSis da mofis didebuli sadili eqnebaT. marTla, Sen jer ar icnob mofis. igi aq iyo `iatakqveSelTa~ mosvlamde. cxovrobs kontorasa da sawyobSi, afrTxobs virTxebs. misi politikuri saxelis axsna ar aris Zneli. adre firmas ori kata hyavda, erTi sawyobSi, meore — sxvenze. rogorc ki erTmaneTs Sexvdebodnen, saSineli Cxubi iwyeboda. Cxubis Tavi sawyobis kata iyo, magram gamarjvebuli mudam sxvenis kata gamodioda. saxelebic maTi xasiaTis Sesaferi Searqves. sawyobis kata iyo germaneli, anu mofi, sxvenis kata ki ingliseli, anu tomi. tomi viRacisaTvis uCuqebiaT, mofi ki axlac aq aris da, roca Zirs CavdivarT, gveTamaSeba.

es-esaa mamam gviTxra, rom metismetad SeSfoTebulia. ra sevdiani Tvalebi aqvs, sabralo mama!

ver movwydi ina budier-bakeris wigns `karze dakakuneba~. saojaxo romania, saocrad aqvs aRwerili adamianebis urTierToba. sxva yvelaferi, rasac igi exeba — omi, qalTa sakiTxi, mwerlebi, naklebad momwons da, gulaxdilad rom giTxra, naklebad mainteresebs.

bombdamSenebma saSinlad dabombes germania.

batoni van daani cud gunebazea. mosawevi araferi aqvs. dava imis Sesaxeb, SevWamoT Tu ara axla bostneulis konservebi, Cveni partiis sasargeblod gadawyda. maRali saTxilamuro fexsacmelebis garda, veRarafers vicvam, saxlSi ki ase siaruli Semawuxebelia. erTi wyvili Calis sandlebi erT kviras meyo, mere isev fexSiSveli aRmovCndi. iqneb mipma miSovos rame Sav bazarze. mas Tma aqvs Sesasworebeli. marwmunebs, ise kargad mkreW, sxva parikmaxerTan aRarasodes wavalo. kargi iqneboda, yursac rom ar vaTlide xSirad.

ana
xuTSabaTi, 18 marti, 1943

Zvirfaso kiwi!

TurqeTi omSi Caeba. yvela aRelvebulia. mouTmenlad veliT radiogadacemas.

ana
paraskevi, 19 marti, 1943

Zvirfaso kiwi!

sixaruls imedis gacrueba mohyva, rac Zalze usiamoa! TurqeTi ar Cabmula omSi! iqaur sagareo saqmeTa ministrs mxolod is uTqvams, rom Cvens neitralitets male bolo moeRebao. gazeTis gamyidveli ki damis¹ (¹ moedani mefis sasaxlis win.) moedanze yviroda:

`TurqeTi ingliselebs miemxro!~

ase gaCnda es Wori da Cvenamdec moaRwia.

500 da 1000 guldeniani qaRaldis fuli gaauqmes. didi zarali naxes spekulantebma da `Savi~ fulis mflobelebma; magram dazaraldnen is adamianebic, romlebic imalebian. roca 1000 guldenians axurdaveb, unda daamtkico, saidan gaqvs, Tumca am kviris bolomde SeiZleba maTi gamoyeneba da gadasaxadebis gadaxda.

duselma xelis bormanqana miiRo da male Cems mkurnalobas Seudgeba.

`uklebliv yvela germanelis fiurerma~ daWril jariskacebs sityviT mimarTa, Semdeg ki `esaubra~. maTi saubari Semzaravi mosasmeni iyo. magaliTad:

— hainrix Sepeli gaxlavarT!

— sad daiWeri?

— stalingradTan!

— sad xar daWrili?

— moyinuli maqvs orive fexi, marcxena xelis maja ki motexili!

zustad ase gadmoscems radio marionetebis am sazarel scenas. daWrilebi TiTqos amayoben kidec xeibrobiT. aqao da, rac ufro uaresad grZnob Tavs, miT ukeTesi! erTi kia, roca mas fiurerma CamosarTmevad xeli gauwoda (Tuki xeli saerTod SerCa), ise daibna, rom xmis amoReba ver SeZlo.

ana
xuTSabaTi, 25 marti, 1943

Zvirfaso kiwi!

guSin dedam, mamam, margom da me myudrod movikalaTeT. uceb peteri Semovida da mamasTan CurCuli gaaba. me mxolod amas movkari yuri: `sawyobSi kasria gadayiravebuli~ da `karebTan viRac faTurobda~. es margomac gaigona, magram me damiwyo damSvideba, radgan, mama myisve peters gahyva, me ki usazRvro SiSisagan carciviT gavfiTrebulvar.

visxediT da velodiT, oriode wuTis Semdeg qalbatoni van daani gamocxadda. igi kabinetSi radios usmenda, magram mamas uTxovia, radio gamoerTo da Cumad amosuliyo zeviT. roca Zalian frTxilob, metwilad araferi gamodis. qalbaton van daans egona, mis fexqveS Zveli kibis safexurebi saSinlad Wrialebda. gavida xuTi wuTi... bolos gafiTrebuli mama da peteri dabrundnen da gviambes, rac naxes. jer kibeze Camosxdnen da smenad iqcnen, magram araferi ismoda. uecrad gaigones ori Zlieri dartyma, TiTqos viRacam saxlSi karebi gaijaxuna. pimi fexis erTi dakvriT zeviT amovarda, peteri ki duselTan Sevida. oTaxidan gamosvlamde duselma gulmodgined Caalaga Tavisi bargi-barxana. fexze gavixadeT da yvelani zeviT, van daanebTan avediT. gaciebuli van daani sawolSi iwva. Cven mis sawolTan SevquCdiT da, cxadia, Cveni eWvebi CurCuliT gavuziareT. roca van daani xmamaRla axvelebda, me da misi coli SiSiT vkvdebodiT. viRacas brwyinvale azri daebada, gadavwyviteT, van daanisaTvis kodeini migveca. xvela maSinve Seuwyda.

Cven velodiT, velodiT dausruleblad... da radgan karga xans aRaraferi ismoda, gadavwyviteT, uTuod qurdebma gamoyruebul saxlSi fexis xma gaigones da gaiqcnen. saubedurod, skamebiT garSemortymuli radiomimRebi inglisis radiosadguris talRaze iyo momarTuli da yvelas SeeZlo efiqra, rom oTaxidan es-esaa gavidnen, xolo Tu karebi Semomtvreulia da haersawinaaRmdego dacvis guSagebi SeamCneven, policias Seatyobineben da amas SeiZleba Zalze usiamo Sedegi mohyves. miuxedavad avadmyofobisa, batoni van daani mainc wamodga, tanze Caicva, qudi daixura da mamasTan erTad kibeze daeSva. peteric maT gaedevna da safrTxisagan Tavis dasacavad CaquCiT SeiaraRda. qalbatoni van daani, deda, me da margo sulganabulni velodiT. xuTi wuTis Semdeg kacebi dabrundnen da mogvaxsenes, rom saxifaTo araferia; SevTanxmdiT, onkani ar mogveSva da sapirfareSo ar Cagverecxa. magram SiSisagan yvelas muceli astkivda da SegiZlia warmoidgino, ra suni idga erT adgilas, mas Semdeg, rac yvelam moisaqma.