Ana frankis dRiuri

ar vici, marTla ar vici, rogor vipovo pirveli sityva. raRa qnas peterma, romelsac Cemze ufro uWirs laparaki. neta miwera SemeZlos! maSin imas mainc gaigebda, risi Tqmac minda, da rac ase Zneli gamosaxatavia sityvebiT!

ana
paraskevi, 17 marti, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

TavSesafarma SvebiT amoisunTqa. kraleri gaanTavisufles, eli moeria Tavis surdos da axla Zveleburad Tavs dagvtrialebs. yvelaferi rigzea, mxolod esaa, rom margos da me Cvenma mSoblebma cota Tavi mogvabezres. cudad nu gamigeb, xom ici, zogjer rogor miWirs dedasTan saerTo enis gamonaxva. mama ki, mama winandeburad miyvars. margos erTnairad uyvars orive. magram Cvens asakSi TviTon ginda iyo Seni Tavis ufrosi da dedis kalTas moscilde. Tu zeviT avedi, mkiTxaven, ra gindodao. minda, kerZs marili davayaro, ar SeiZlebao. yovel saRamos zustad cxris naxevarze deda mekiTxeba, gaxdas ratom ar iwyebo. yovel wigns, romlis wakiTxva minda, jer TviTon gadaaTvaliereben. marTali giTxra cenzura maincdamainc mkacri araa da yvelafris wakiTxvis uflebas maZleven, magram kontroli, uamravi SeniSvnebi da miTiTebebi orives mogvbezrda. gansakuTrebiT me maxasiaTebs bevri ram iseTi, rac Cems mSoblebs ar eWaSnikebaT, magram me bavSvi aRara var. ar minda `aq makoce, iq makoce~, arc bavSvis mosaferebeli saxelebi mWirdeba. es yvelaferi metismetad daTafluli meCveneba. ase rom, mcire xniT siamovnebiT gaveclebodi moyvarul, mzrunvel mSoblebs. guSin margom aseTi ram miTxra: `pirdapir sasaciloa, sakmarisia, Tavi xelebze daayrdno, maSinve gekiTxebian: Tavi xom ar gtkiva, cudad xom ara xar~.

Cven orive didad ganvicdiT, roca vxedavT, Tu ra darCa Cveni myudro harmoniuli ojaxisgan. amis mizezi isaa, rom Cveni aqauri urTierToba yovelmxriv arabunebrivia. me imis Tqma minda, rom Cven xSirad ise gveqcevian, rogorc bavSvebs, sinamdvileSi ki Sinaganad bevrad gavuswariT Cvens tolebs. Tumca me mxolod ToTxmeti wlisa var, magram Zalian kargad vici, ra minda, vinaa marTali da vin mtyuani. maqvs sakuTari Tvalsazrisi, sakuTari aRqma, principebi. iqneb mozardis amgvari gancxadeba zedmeti TavdajerebulobiT axsnan, magram me adamianad ufro vgrZnob Cems Tavs, vidre bavSvad. vgrZnob, rom sruliad damoukidebeli var yvelasagan, sul erTia, vinc unda iyos igi.

me vici, rom dedaze ukeTesad SemiZlia kamaTi da sakuTari mosazrebebis damtkiceba, radgan masze ufro obieqturi var da maincdamainc ar miyvars gazviadeba, masze ufro organizebuli, masze ufro marjve... SegiZlia icino, ramdenic ginda! zogjer vgrZnob, rom dedaze bevrad maRla vdgavar. Tu vinme miyvars, upirveles yovlisa, minda aRtacebuli viyo misiT, pativs vcemde! yvelaferi kargad iqneboda, peteri rom Cemi megobari gamxdariyo. igi marTlac iwvevs CemSi aRtacebas, saocrad sayvareli adamiania!

ana
kvira, 19 marti, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!
guSindel dRes didi mniSvneloba hqonda CemTvis. gadavwyvite, sanam sadilad davsxdebodiT, gulaxdilad movlaparakebodi peters da CurCuliT vkiTxe: — saRamos stenografiaSi imecadineb?

— ara, — mipasuxa man.

— salaparako maqvs SenTan.

— Zalian kargi!

WurWeli davrecxe da zrdilobis gamo cota xans kidev vijeqi mSoblebTan. Semdeg peterTan avedi. igi Ria fanjarasTan idga marcxniv. me marjvniv gavCerdi. bevrad ukeTesia naxevradbnelSi saubari, vidre sinaTleze. me mgonia, peteric ase fiqrobs.

Cven imdeni ram vuambeT erTmaneTs, imdeni, rom yvelafris dawera SeuZlebelia. magram ra kargi iyo, ukeTesi saRamo aq gadmosaxlebis Semdeg ar mqonia. zog rames mainc gadmogcem mokled. jer vsaubrobdiT Cvenebis kinklaobaze, rasac me axla sul sxva TvaliT vuyureb, Semdeg mSoblebTan Sinagan gaTiSulobaze. bevri ram vuTxari peters mamaze, dedaze, margoze da sakuTar Tavze. uecrad man mkiTxa: roca erTmaneTs `Rame mSvidobisas~ eubnebiT, aucileblad kocniT erTmaneTs?

— ra Tqma unda, da ara erTxel! Tqvenc, ara?

— ara, me jer TiTqmis arasodes aravisTvis mikocnia.

— arc dabadebis dReze?

— dabadebis dReze ki!

Cven aRvniSneT, rom sruli ndobiT ar vekidebiT mSoblebs. van daanebs Turme didad swadiaT daimsaxuron Svilis ndoba, magram peters Tavi ganze uWiravs. me vTqvi, rom mwuxarebas cremlebiT viqarveb baliSSi TavCarguli, is ki Turme sxvenze adis da ilanZReba. vuTxari, rom me da margom namdvilad mxolod axla gavicaniT erTmaneTi, magram bolomde gulaxdilni mainc ara varT, radgan sul erTad gvixdeba yofna. raze ar vilaparakeT. TiTqmis yvelaferze da is swored iseTi iyo, rogoric warmodgenaSi mesaxeboda.

mere gavixseneT 1942 weli. maSin Cven imdenad sxva adamianebi viyaviT, rom axla TiTqmis veRar vcnobT Cvens Tavs. pirvelad ver vitandiT erTmaneTs. peteri me mousvenar da usiamo arsebad mTvlida. kargs mec verafers vxedavdi masSi. maSin me ar mesmoda, ratom ar mearSiyeboda, magram axla mixaria. miTxra isic, Tu rogor ganudga yvelas. me ki vupasuxe, rom Cems cocxal bunebasa da mis simSvides Soris arc ise didi sxvaobaa, rom zogjer mec Zalian menatreba siCume, magram mxolod Cemi dRiuri maZlevs ganmartoebis saSualebas. Cven gamovutydiT erTmaneTs: mas axarebs, rom Cemi mSoblebi aq Svilebianad gadmosaxldnen, me ki misi aq yofna mgvris siamovnebas. axla me kargad mesmis misi ganmartoebis mizezi, misi damokidebuleba mSoblebTan da siamovnebiT davexmarebi.

— Sen me isedac mexmarebi, — miTxra man.

— mainc riT? — vkiTxe me.

— Seni simxiaruliT!

ukeTess verafers metyoda! saocrad mesiamovna, peterma ukve iswavla Cemi, rogorc kargi amxanagis, dafaseba da jerjerobiT meti araferi minda. sityvebi ar myofnis imis gamosaTqmelad, Tu ra bednieri da madlieri var, magram SenTan bodiSs vixdi kiwi, rom dRes Cemi stili Cveulebrivze uxeiroa.

davwere yvelaferi, rac enaze momadga. axla ki iseTi grZnoba maqvs, TiTqos me da peters saidumlo gvakavSirebs. roca Semomcqeris, micinis an Tvals mikravs, CemSi TiTqos Suqi inTeba. minda yvelaferi aseve darCes, minda bevri, bevri bednieri saaTi gavataroT erTad!

Seni madlieri da bednieri ana.

orSabaTi, 20 marti, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

am diliT peterma mkiTxa, saRamos Tu amoxvalo da Tan dasZina, namdvilad araferSi ar miSli xels, Cems oTaxSi orive Tavisuflad daveteviTo. me ki vupasuxe, rom yovel saRamos masTan asvla ar ivargebs, radgan danarCenebs amdeni stumroba uwesobad miaCniaT. nu miaqcev maT laparaks yuradRebas, mirCia man. davpirdi, SabaTs saRamoTi moval-meTqi da vTxove eTqva, rodis daiwyeba mTvariani Rameebi.

`aucileblad~, mipasuxa man, `Cven dabla CavalT da iqidan davakvirdebiT mTvares~.

magram Cems bednierebas uecrad Crdili moefina. me karga xania vfiqrob, rom peteri margosac SesaniSnav ymawvilad miaCnia. ar vici, uyvars Tu ara, magram me mainc ar msiamovnebs. yovelTvis, roca peterTan var, iseTi grZnoba maqvs, TiTqos margos tkivils vayeneb. margos Tavi SesaniSnavad uWiravs da arafers gvagrZnobinebs. me mis adgilas eWvianobisagan Tavs davkargavdi. margo ki meubneba, nu Semibralebo.

— me mgonia, lamazi araa, roca Sen CvenTan xelisSemSlel, mesame pirad grZnob Tavs.

— me amas SeCveuli var, — mipasuxa man, Tan mis xmaSi mware naRveli igrZnoboda. jer ver vbedav, es ambavi peters vuambo. SeiZleba vuTxra mere, mogvianebiT. axla ki bevri salaparako gvaqvs. guSin dedam Semomkra. es me davimsaxure. miuxedavad mis mimarT gulgrili damokidebulebisa, amdenad mainc ar unda gavkadnierebuliyavi. vecdebi, ukeT daviWiro Tavi, rac unda moxdes, alersianad moveqcevi, aRar mivcem SeniSvnebs, sul erTia, amas araviTari Sedegi ar moaqvs.

pimic nakleb alersiania, cdilobs aRar momeqces ise, rogorc bavSvs da amitom metismetad civia. vnaxoT, rogorc wava saqme!

kmara! aRarafris Tavi ara maqvs. mudam peters Sevcqeri TvalebSi da guli sixaruliT mevseba!

margos sikeTis dadastureba: ai, ra miviRe dRes, 1944 wlis 20 marts: `ane, guSin roca giTxari, ar veWvianob-meTqi, naxevrad marTali viyavi. saqme isaa, rom me arc Senze veWvianob da ar peterze, magram guli mwydeba, rom aqamde ver vipove da, albaT, verc vipovi iseT adamians, romelsac Cems fiqrebsa da grZnobebs gavuziarebdi. mixaria, rom Tqven erTmaneTis ndoba moipoveT. Sen aq isedac bevri ram gaklia iseTi, rac sxvebs aqvT da ver amCneven.

garda amisa, me vici, rom peterTan arasodes ar meqneboda amgvari damokidebuleba, radgan adamianTan, romelsac yvelafers eubnebi, Zalian axlos unda iyo. me unda vigrZno, rom mas usityvod esmis Cemi bolomde, igi sulierad Cemze maRla unda idges, peteri ki aseTi ar aris. magram Seni da peteris megobroba gasagebia. amitom, nu fiqrob TiTqos raRacas marTmev, TiTqos mawyenine, ara, ase araa. Tqven ki Tqveni megobroba bevr sikeTes mogitanT!~
Cemi pasuxi:

`Zvirfaso margo!

Seni werili araCveulebrivad sasiamovnoa, magram me mainc ver davmSviddi da albaT verc davmSviddebi verasodes.

iseT ndobaze, rogorsac Sen gulisxmob, Cemsa da peters Soris laparakic ki ar yofila, magram bnelSi, Ria fanjarasTan ufro advilia saubari, vidre dRisiT mzis sinaTleze. grZnobebis gamoxatvasac ufro CurCuli uxdeba, vidre mTeli qveynis gasagonad yvirili.

me mgoni, peteri Senc giyvars daZmuri siyvaruliT da iseTive didi siamovnebiT daexmarebodi mas, rogorc me. miuxedavad imisa, rom Tqvens Soris ar aris iseTi ndoba, rogorsac Cven vgulisxmobT, SeiZleba odesme daexmaro kidec, ndoba ormxrivi unda iyos. vfiqrob swored esaa imis mizezi, Tu ratom veRar velaparakebi mamas gulaxdilad.

modi nuRar SevexebiT am Temas da gTxov, nuRarafers metyvi amaze. xolo Tu raime kidev gaqvs saTqmeli — momwere. mec werilobiT ufro mexerxeba Cemi azrebis gamoxatva, vidre sityvebiT. Sen ver warmoidgen, ra aRtacebas iwvev CemSi. imedi maqvs, rom odesme odnav mainc dagemgvanebiT Sen da mamas sikeTiT. xolo am mxriv Tqven erTmaneTs gavxarT~.

ana
oTxSabaTi, 22 marti, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

guSin saRamos margosagan es werili miviRe:

`Zvirfaso ane!

mas Semdeg, rac Seni guSindeli werili wavikiTxe, iseTi STabeWdileba Semeqmna, TiTqos roca peterTan adixar samuSaod an salaparakod, sindisis qenjna gawuxebs. magram saamisod araviTari safuZveli ar arsebobs. Cemi ndobis mosapoveblad garkveuli urTierTobaa saWiro, amisTvis ki peteri ar gamodgeba. mis mimarT me swored iseTi grZnoba maqvs, rogoric Sen aRniSne. peters TiTqmis ise vuyureb, rogorc Zmas, magram... umcros Zmas! Cven rqebgamoSveril lokokinebs vgavarT, romlebic SexebiT cdiloben gaarkvion, eyvarebaT Tu ara odesme erTmaneTi daZmuri siyvaruliT, magram jer saqme aqamde ar misula.

amitom ar unda gebralebode. dastkbi im megobrobiT, rac moipove~.

cxovreba ki sul ufro mSvenieri xdeba. ici, kiwi! Cven am TavSesafarSi namdvili didi siyvarulis gancda mogvelis, magram me ar vfiqrob imaze, gavyvebi Tu ara odesme colad, radgan ar vici, rogori iqneba, roca gaizrdeba. arc is vici, Tu gveyvareba erTmaneTi momavalSi ise, rom daqorwineba movisurvoT. Tumca axla darwmunebuli var, rom movwonvar, magram ar vici, rogor, rogorc kargi amxanagi, romelic enatreba, rogorc qali, Tu rogorc dis magieri, amaSi me jer ver gavrkveulvar.

Zalian gamexarda, roca miTxra, rom CemTan erTad ufro iolad itans im ayal-mayals, romelic maTTan xSirad xdeba. Cemi azriT, es ukve win gadadgmuli nabijia Cvens megobrobaSi. guSin vkiTxe, ras izamda, aq rom aTiode ane iyos da wamdauwum amodiodnen masTan. `yvela Tu SenisTana iqneba, rogorme avitandi~, mipasuxa man.

peteri mudam stumarTmoyvarea da me mgoni, Cemi misvla axarebs. bejiTad swavlobs franguls. saRamosac ki, aTi saaTis Semdeg, sawolSi. o, roca SabaTis saRamo magondeba, Cveni saubari, Cveni ganwyobileba, am xnis manZilze mxolod pirvelad var kmayofili sakuTari TaviT. arc erT Cems naTqvam sityvas ar vnanob, rogorc es Cveulebriv xSirad xdeba. roca icinis, lamazia, xolo roca wynaradaa, Zalian sayvareli da kargi. Cemi azriT, pirdapir gancvifrebuli darCa, roca mixvda, rom me ara var amqveynad yvelaze qarafSuta gogo, rom mec masaviT meocnebe arseba var, rom mec iseve ganvicdi yvela siZneles, rogorc igi.
Cemi pasuxi:

`Zvirfaso margo!

yvelafers jobia, davicadoT, vnaxoT, ra moxdeba. ar SeiZleba, didxans gagrZeldes ase, male Cemsa da peters Soris ase Tu ise yvelaferi gairkveva. me ar vici, rogor ganviTardeba movlenebi da odnavadac ar vixedebi win, magram erT rames mainc gavakeTeb ise, rom Sen arc ki gkiTxav: roca me da peteri namdvilad davmegobrdebiT, vetyvi, rom Senc mogwons da Tu saWiro iqna, yvelaferSi daexmarebi. ar vici, ras fiqrobs peteri Senze, magram aucileblad vkiTxav. me mgoni, cudi azrisa ar unda iyos, piriqiT! SegiZlia Tavisuflad moxvide CvenTan zeviT da saerTod yvelgan, sadac Cven viqnebiT. darwmunebuli iyavi, xels ar SegviSli, radgan Cven xmisamouReblad SevTanxmdiT, rom gulaxdili saubari gveqneba mxolod saRamoobiT, bnelSi. guls nu gaitex! mec medgrad vdgavar, iqneb Seni droc movides. da ufro malec, vidre Sen fiqrob!~

ana
xuTSabaTi, 23 marti, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

nel-nela yvelaferi mowesrigda. Cveni `spekulantebi~, sabednierod, cixidan gamouSves! mipi guSindels aqeT kvlav CvenTanaa, elis xvelam gauara, mxolod koophoiss mouwevs kidev didxans saxlSi jdoma. guSin Cvens Tavze TviTmfrinavi Camoagdes, mfrinavebi gadarCnen, TviTmfrinavi ki skolas daeca. sabednierod, bavSvebi skolaSi ar iyvnen, magram cecxli gaCnda da amboben, msxverplic ariso. germanelebi umowyalod esrodnen mfrinavebs, romlebic paraSutiT eSvebodnen. mosaxleoba gaacofa aseTma laCrulma sisastikem. Cven, me vgulisxmob mSiSara qalebs, saSinlad SegveSinda. Cemi azriT, srola saZaglobaa.

axla me xSirad avdivar zeviT peterTan da mis oTaxSi sufTa haeriT vsunTqav. sasiamovnoa mis gverdiT jdoma da fanjaraSi yureba. roca oTaxidan gavdivar, van daansa da dusels ar SeuZliaT, binZuri xumroba ar gamomayolon. `anam meore saxli ipova~, amboben isini, anda: `gana wesia, axalgazrda kacma axalgazrda qali saRamoobiT bnel oTaxSi miiRos?~ am `gonebamaxvilur~ SeniSvnebs peteri saocari gulgrilobiT Rebulobs. dedamissac ainteresebs, raze vlaparakobT, siamovnebiT gamogvkiTxavda, magram gawbilebis eSinia. peteri ambobs, ufrosebs SurT Cveni axalgazrdoba da guli mosdiT, rom yuradRebas ar vaqcevT maT xumrobas. zogjer peteri CvenTan Camodis dabla, cdilobs Tavi Seikavos, magram sircxvilisagan mainc kibosaviT wiTldeba da xmas ver iRebs. albaT, Zalian usiamo grZnobaa!

mama ambobs, vipranWebi, magram marTali araa. me mxolod Zalian pativmoyvare var. aqamde aravis ar uTqvams CemTvis, lamazi xaro, mxolod erTma biWma miTxra skolaSi, roca icini, sasiamovno saxe gaqvso. guSin peterma namdvili komplimenti miTxra da minda, Cveni saubari gadmogce. peteri xSirad meubneba: `aba gaicine!~ es me meniSna da vkiTxe: — ratom mTxov, gavicino?

— imitom rom momwons. loyebze fosoebi giCndeba, netav risgan?

— ara, es ar aris marTali!

— rogor ara, me vici rom lamazi gogo ara var, arasodes ar vyofilvar da arc arasodes viqnebi!

— me srulebiTac ar vfiqrob ase, Cemi azriT, Sen lamazi xar!

— tyuilia!

— raki me vambob, SegiZlia damijero.

me, ra Tqma unda, vupasuxe, rom isic lamazi ymawvilia. yvela Cvens uecar damegobrebaze laparakobs, magram Cven mSoblebis miTqma-moTqmas yuradRebas ar vaqcevT. maTi yoveli SeniSvna uxamsobaa. nuTu Cvens mSoblebs axalgazrdoba gadaaviwydaT? mgoni, marTlac asea! roca Cven vxumrobT, seriozulad gveqcevian, xolo roca raimes seriozulad aRviqvamT, dagvcinian!

ana
orSabaTi, 27 marti, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

`Cveni iatakqveSa cxovrebis istoriaSi~ didi adgili unda daTmoboda politikas, magram me politika maincdamainc ar mainteresebs da uyuradRebod mivatove. amitom minda mTeli werili am sakiTxs davuTmo.

TavisTavad gasagebia, rom am problemis irgvliv sxvadasxva, erTmaneTis sawinaaRmdego azri arsebobs. gasagebia isic, rom am Cvens areul, omianobis droSi gauTaveblad politikaze laparakoben. yvelaferi es logikuria, magram... politikis gamo amdeni Cxubi da dava sisulelea.

dae, sanaZlo dadon, icinon, lanZRon, TaTxon erTmaneTi, rac undaT, is akeTon, ra menaRvleba, kiseric utexiaT! oRond nu iCxubeben, radgan amas mudam cudi Sedegi mosdevs. garedan Semosul adamianebs xSirad araswori ambebi moaqvT. Cvens radios jer tyuili ar uTqvams, magram henki, mipi, koophoisi, kraleri da eli movlenebs sakuTari ganwyobilebis mixedviT afaseben, xolo maTi ganwyobileba metismetad cvalebadia, Tumca yvelaze naklebad mainc henks ecvleba guneba.

Cveni TavSesafris politikuri ganwyobileba mudam erTnairia. gauTavebeli kamaTi gadmosxdomaze, bombardirebaze, ministrebis mier warmoTqmul sityvebze da a. S. amave dros gesmis sxvadasxvagvari Tvalsazrisi: `SeuZlebelia!..~ `RmerTo Cemo, kidec rom daiwyon, rodisRa gaTavdeba?..~ `yvelaferi brwyinvaled mimdinareobs, SesaniSnavad, ukeTess verc isurveb~.

yvela dauRalavad gamoTqvams Tavis azrs, optimistebi, pesimistebi, da rac mTavaria realistebi. da rogorc yovelTvis xdeba, TiToeuli maTgani fiqrobs, rom marTali mxolod TviTonaa. Cveni qalbatoni gagulisebulia, rom misi meuRle didi ndobiT ekideba ingliselebs. misi sayvareli meuRle ki cols ujavrdeba, aqaoda, mis saTayvano ers dascinis da abuCad igdebs.

am dros arc is axsovT, Tu ras hqvia mowyena. me erTi utyuari saSualeba movigone: minaxavs, adamians nemss uCxvleten da wamoxteba. zustad ase moqmedebs Cemi saSualeba. sakmarisia, erTi sityva wamomcdes politikaze da mTeli ojaxi maxeSia gabmuli.

TiTqos ar kmaroda germaniis sardlobis da bi-bi-sis gadacemebi, am bolo dros SemoiRes specialuri gadacema `mdgomareoba haerSi~, rac Zalian sainteresoa, magram xSirad guls gvitexs. ingliselebma TavianTi sahaero Zalebi namdvil konveierad gadaaqcies, mofrinaven dRisiTac da RamiTac (ise rogorc germanelebi tyuian dRec da Ramec). radios dilaadrian vusmenT, mere yovel saaTs: saRamos 9 an 10 saaTamde, zogjer TerTmetamdec, rac imas amtkicebs, rom Tumca ufrosebs moTmineba didi aqvT, magram mosazrebis unari akliaT (aris gamonaklisic, magram ar davasaxeleb). me mgoni, savsebiT sakmarisia, mousmino radios dReSi erTxel an ukidures SemTxvevaSi orjer! isini ki jer gadacemis programas ismenen, Semdeg frank filipss `oranes~ radiosadgurebi, mere usmenen mis udidebulesobas — dedofals. yvela gamodis rigrigobiT da yvelas hyavs yuradRebiani msmenelebi. Tu Cvenebs ar sZinavT da ar Wamen, radiosTan sxedan da saWmelze, Zilze da, rac mTavaria, politikaze laparakoben. o, ra mosawyenia, ase SeiZleba damWknar dedabers daemsgavso!

ai idealuri magaliTi. sityvas ambobs uinston CerCili, romelsac yvelani pativs vcemT.

kvira, saRamos 9 saaTia, Cai mzadaa da xufqveS dgas. Semodian stumrebi da radiomimRebis irgvliv sxdebian. duseli marcxniv, van daani pirdapir, peteri marjvniv, deda van daanis gverdiT, qalbatoni van daani maT ukan, pimi, me da margo magidasTan. mamakacebi ewevian. peters daZabulobisagan Tvalebi exuWeba. muq grZel xalaTSi gamowyobili deda da qalbatoni van daani kankaleben, radgan miuxedavad CerCilis gamosvlisa, TviTmfrinavebi Tamamad mifrinaven Cvens Tavze — ruris olqis mimarTulebiT. mama Cais Seeqceva. me da margo xelixelgadaxveulebi vsxedvarT, radgan orives kalTaSi mZinare muSi gviwevs. margos Tmebi bigudebze dauxvevia. me mokle da viwro piJama macvia, irgvliv sruli siCume, simSvide, ojaxuri simyudrove sufevs. diaxac, am saRamos asea. Tumca me yovelTvis daZabuli velodebi, ra moxdeba. ufrosebs moTmineba ar hyofniT bolomde moisminon sityva, mouTmenlad afratuneben fexebs. eCqarebaT imsjelon imaze, rac CerCilma Tqva, da iqamde kbenen erTmaneTs, sanam Cxubi da dava ayalmayalSi ar gadadis.

ana
samSabaTi, 28 marti, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

SemeZlo meti meambna politikaze, magram dRes bevri ram unda gacnobo. jer erTi, dedam kategoriulad amikrZala zeviT xSirad siaruli, radgan hgonia, rom qalbatoni van daani Cemze eWvianobs. meorec, peterma margos sTxova, CemTan erTad evlo masTan. ar vici, zrdilobis gamo, Tu marTla ase surs. mesame, mamas vkiTxe, unda gavuwio angariSi qalbaton van daanis eWvianobas Tu ara. mama fiqrobs, rom ara. rogor moviqce? deda javrobs da eWvianobs kidec cotaTi. mama kmayofilia Cemi da peteris megobrobiT da uxaria, Cven rom ase kargad veguebiT erTmaneTs. margosac peteri SesaniSnav ymawvilad miaCnia, magram grZnobs, rom samSi ar SeiZleba imaze laparaki, rac mxolod ors exeba. deda fiqrobs, rom peters vuyvarvar. gulaxdilad rom vTqva, me vocnebob kidec amaze, maSin Cven Tanabar mdgomareobaSi viqnebodiT da ufro Tamamad da gulaxdilad visaubrebdiT. deda imasac ambobs, rom peteri Tvals ar macilebs. Tumca es marTalia. marTalia isic, rom Cven xandaxan Tvals vukravT erTmaneTs da rom mas Cems loyebze fosoebis gamoCena ainteresebs! rogor ggonia, ra SemiZlia gavakeTo aseT mdgomareobaSi?

saerTod ki cud dReSi var. deda Cems winaaRmdegaa ganwyobili, me ki mis winaaRmdeg. mamas ar unda dainaxos Cveni usityvo brZola. deda Sewuxebulia, radgan mainc vuyvarvar; me es naklebad mawuxebs, radgan vgrZnob, rom srulebiT ar esmis Cemi. xolo peteri... peters veravis davuTmob. SesaniSnavi ymawvilia, aRtacebas iwvevs CemSi. Cven SeiZleba saucxoo megobrebi gavxdeT. ra undaT am `bebrebs~, ras Crian cxvirs yvelgan? sabednierod, me SeveCvie Cemi Sinagani gancdebis dafarvas da ioladac vaxerxeb, ar SevamCnevino maT, Tu ra Zlier miyvars peteri! nuTu arafers metyvis? nuTu arasodes ar vigrZnob misi loyis Sexebas ise, rogorc maSin sizmarSi, petelTan? peteli da peteri! Tqven CemTvis erTni xarT! maT Cveni ar esmiT. ver gaugiaT, rom Cven imiTac varT kmayofili, roca xmaamouRebliv erTmaneTis gverdiT vsxedvarT, ar esmiT, ra gvizidavs erTmaneTisaken. rodis gadavlaxavT mTel am dabrkolebas? da mainc kargia, rom raRac gvaqvs gadasalaxavi, radgan bolo ufro kargi iqneba! roca peteri xelebze Tavdayrdnobili da TvaldaxuWuli zis — bavSvs hgavs, roca muSis eTamaSeba — Zalze alersiania, roca kartofiliT savse tomrebs an sxva rames ezideba — Ronieri, xolo roca qalaqis dabombvas uyurebs, anda bnelSi dabla Cadis, raTa darwmundes, qurdebi xom ar Semoparulan, guladi. magram me yvelaze metad maSin momwons, roca umweo da mouxerxebelia, maSin iseTi saTnoa. me bevrad ufro msiamovnebs, roca is mixsnis rames, vidre roca me vaswavli. ra Tqma unda, gacilebiT ukeTesi iqneboda, yvelafriT Cemze maRla rom idges.

rac unda is ifiqron Cvenma dedebma! oRond ki rame miTxras!

ana
oTxSabaTi, 29 marti, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

guSin `oranes~ radiosadguriT ministri bolvenstaini laparakobda. omis Semdeg am periodis dRiurebi da wignebi unda gamovceTo. yvela maSinve Cems dRiurs eca. marTlac, ra saintereso iqneba, omis Semdeg rom gamovaqveyno romani `TavSesafari~, Tumca saTaurs rom waikiTxaven, ifiqreben, deteqtiuri romaniao.

ara, seriozulad. gana omis Semdeg, Tundac oci wlis Semdeg, adamianebi daijereben im ambavs, Tu rogor vcxovrobdiT aq ebraelebi, ras vambobdiT, ras vWamdiT. miuxedavad imisa, rom SenTvis bevri ram miambnia, es mainc Cveni cxovrebis umniSvnelo nawilia. magram Sen ar ici, ra Zalian eSiniaT qalebs, roca qalaqs bombaven, rogorc magaliTad kviras, roca inglisis 350-ma TviTmfrinavma naxevari milioni kilogrami dinamiti daayara iumoidens, roca afeTqebis talRa saxlebs azanzarebs, roca gesmis, rogori epidemiebi mZvinvarebs qalaqSi. me mTeli dRe unda vwero, rom yoveli wvrilmani Segatyobino. adamianebs bostneulisa da, saerTod, yvelafris sayidlad grZel rigSi uxdebaT dgoma. eqimi avadmyofTan ver misula, radgan iparaven manqanebsa (Tuki vinmes SerCa) da velosipedebs. yvelgan Zarcvasa da qurdobazea laparaki da me Cems Tavs vekiTxebi: sad gaqra holandielTa saarako patiosneba. rva-TerTmeti wlis mozardebi amtvreven sxvisi binis fanjrebs da miaqvT yvelaferi, rasac moixelTeben. veravin bedavs, Tundac xuTi wuTiT miatovos bina, radgan sakmarisia, mcire xniT moscilde saxls da dabrunebuls aRaraferi dagxvdeba. gazeTebSi yoveldRe beWdaven gancxadebebs, sadac patronebi gasamrjelos pirdebian imaT, vinc daabrunebs moparul sabeWd manqanebs, sparsul xaliCebs, eleqtrosaaTebs, sakabe da sapaltoe naWrebs da a. S. quCebSi did eleqtrosaaTebs xsnian, jixurebidan telefonebi gaaqvT da mavTulsac ki ar toveben.

cxadia, SeuZlebelia, mosaxleobis sulieri ganwyobileba kargi iyos. sakvirao racioniT Sors ver waxval. mokavSireebis gadmosxdomas saSveli ar daadga. mamakacebs germaniaSi ukres Tavi, bavSvebi SimSiloben, avaddebian. yvelas cudad acvia da axuravs. fexsacmlis lanCa `Sav bazarze~ Svidnaxevari guldeni Rirs. mewaReebi SekveTas ar Rebuloben, Tu miiRes, ori Tve unda ucado, sanam SeakeTeben, amasobaSi SeiZleba dagekargos kidec.

Tumca, erTi mxriv, kargicaa: rac ufro cudia kveba, rac ufro mkacria represiebi, miT ufro izrdeba sabotaJi okupantebis winaaRmdeg. sursaT-sanovagis gamanawilebeli dawesebulebebis momsaxure personali xSirad exmareba damalulebs, magram aris gamcemlobis SemTxvevebic da maSin yvelas cixeSi amwyvdeven. sabednierod, mters mxolod niderlandelTa umniSvnelo nawili uWers mxars.