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Acknowledgments
There are too many people who have directly or indirectly contributed
to this work to express my
appreciation to them individually. Dr. Sydney Margolin deserves the credit for having stimulated
the idea of interviewing terminally ill patients in the presence of students as a meaningful learning-
teaching model.
The Department of Psychiatry at the University of Chicago Billings Hospital has supplied the
environment and facilities to make such a seminar technically possible.
Chaplains Herman Cook and Carl Nighswonger have been helpful and stimulating co-interviewers,
who also have assisted in the search for patients at a time when that was immensely difficult.
Wayne Rydberg and the original four students by their interest and curiosity have enabled me to
overcome the initial difficulties. I was also assisted by the support of the Chicago Theological
Seminary staff. Reverend Renford Gaines and his wife Harriet have spent countless hours
reviewing the manuscript and have maintained my faith in the worth of this kind of undertaking. Dr.
C. Knight Aldrich has supported this work over the past three years.
Dr. Edgar Draper and Jane Kennedy reviewed part of the manuscript. Bonita McDaniel, Janet
Reshkin, and Joyce Carlson deserve thanks for the typing of the chapters.
My thanks to the many patients and their families is perhaps best expressed by the publication of
their communications.
There are many authors who have inspired this work, and thanks should be
given finally to all those
who have given thought and attention to the terminally ill.
Thanks is given to Mr. Peter Nevraumont for suggesting the writing of this book as well as to Mr.
Clement Alexandre, of the Macmillan Company, for his patience and understanding while the book
was in preparation.
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Last but not least I wish to thank my husband and my children for their patience and continued
support which enables me to carry on a full-time job in addition to being a wife and mother.
E. K-R.
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Preface
When I was asked if I would be willing to write a book on death and dying, I enthusiastically
accepted the challenge. When I actually sat down and began to wonder what I had got myself into,
it became a different matter. Where do I begin? What do I include? How much can I say to
strangers who are going to read this book, how much can I share from this experience with dying
patients? How many things are communicated nonverbally
and have to be felt, experienced, seen,
and can hardly be translated into words?
I have worked with dying patients for the past two and a half years and this book will tell about the
beginning of this experiment, which turned out to be a meaningful and instructive experience for all
participants. It is not meant to be a textbook on how to manage dying patients, nor is it intended as
a complete study of the psychology of the dying. It is simply an account of a new and challenging
opportunity to refocus on the patient as a human being, to include him in dialogues, to learn from
him the strengths and weaknesses of our hospital management of the patient.
We have asked him to
be our teacher so that we may learn more about the final stages of life with all its anxieties, fears,
and hopes. I am simply telling the stories of my patients who shared their agonies, their
expectations, and their frustrations with us. It is hoped that it will encourage others not to shy away
from the "hopelessly" sick but to get closer to them, as they can help them much during their final
hours. The few who can do this will also discover that it can be a mutually gratifying experience;
they will learn much about the functioning of the human mind, the unique human aspects of our
existence, and will emerge from the experience enriched and perhaps with fewer anxieties about
their own finality.
E. K.-R.
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On the Fear of Death
Let me not pray
to be sheltered from dangers
but to be fearless in facing them.
Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain
but for the heart to conquer it.
Let me not look for allies in life's battlefield
but to my own strength.
Let me not crave in anxious fear to be saved
but hope for the patience to win my freedom.
Grant me that 1 may not be a coward,
feeling your mercy in my success alone;
but let me find the grasp of your hand in my failure.
Rabindranath Tagore, Fruit-Gathering
Epidemics have taken a great toll of lives in past generations. Death in infancy and early childhood
was frequent and there were few families who did not lose a member at an early age. Medicine has
changed greatly in the last decades. Widespread vaccination has practically eradicated many
illnesses, at least in western Europe and the United States. The use of chemotherapy, especially the
antibiotics, has contributed to an ever decreasing number of fatalities in infectious diseases. Better
child care and education have effected a low morbidity and mortality among children. The many
diseases that used to take an impressive toll among the young
and middle-aged have been
conquered. The number of old people is on the rise, and, as a result, there is an increasing number
of people with malignancies and chronic diseases associated particularly with old age.
Paediatricians have less work with acute and life-threatening situations but they see an ever
increasing number of patients suffering from psychosomatic disturbances and from adjustment and
behaviour problems. Physicians have more people in their waiting rooms with emotional problems
than they have ever had before, but they also have more elderly patients who not only try to live
with their decreased physical abilities and their limitations but who also face loneliness and
isolation with all its pains and anguish. The majority of these people are not seen by a psychiatrist.
Their needs have to be elicited and gratified by other professional people, for
instance, chaplains
and social workers. It is for them that I am trying to outline the changes that have taken place in
the last few decades, changes that are ultimately responsible for an increased fear of death through
unfamiliarity, the rising number of emotional problems, and the greater need for understanding of
and coping with the problems of death and dying.
When we look back in time and study former cultures and peoples, we are impressed that death has
always been distasteful to man and will probably always be. To a psychiatrist this is very
understandable and can perhaps best be explained in terms of our understanding of the unconscious
parts of the self;
to the unconscious mind, death is never possible in regard to ourselves. It is
inconceivable for our unconscious to imagine an actual ending of our own life here on earth, and if
this life of ours has to end, the ending is always attributed to a malicious intervention from the
outside by someone else. In simple terms, in our unconscious mind we can only be killed; it is
inconceivable to die of 1 a natural cause or of old age. Therefore death in itself is associated with a
bad act, a frightening happening, something that in itself calls for retribution and punishment.
One is wise to remember these fundamental facts because they are essential in understanding some
of the most important, but otherwise unintelligible, communications of our patients.
The second fact that we have to comprehend is that in our unconscious
mind we cannot distinguish
between a wish and a deed. We can all recall illogical dreams in which two completely opposite
statements occur side by side-very acceptable in our dreams but unthinkable in our waking state.
just as we, in our unconscious minds cannot differentiate between the wish to kill somebody in
anger and the act of killing, so the young child is unable to distinguish between fantasy and reality.
The child who angrily wishes his mother to drop dead for not having gratified his needs will be
traumatized greatly by her actual death-even if this event is not linked closely in time with his
destructive wishes. He will always take part or all the blame for the loss of his mother. He will
always say to himself-rarely to others-"I did it, I am responsible, I was bad, therefore Mommy left
me." It is well to remember that the child will react in the same manner if he loses a parent by