Misha Williams

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direction to the public for many reasons."  And in later years in his final 
letter; "What I know of their plans they probably died near the Tapajos." 
 
There were many hints in Fawcett's letters to Nina from Cuiaba. For 
example concerning his preparation to meet a dangerous tribe called the 
Apiaca (whose land was near the Tapajos). Those on the right track were 
Sir John Ure in his book Trespassers on the Amazon who cites Stefan 
Rattin's encounter with Fawcett, held captive by a tribe in this area. 
Albert de Winton's original planned route from the Madeira River 
towards the Tapajoz was correct but false information from the Royal 
Geographical Society put him on the wrong trail and he died in vain. 
Patrick and Gordon Ullyatt in the early 1930's got the area right. 
It must also be mentioned that a bottle containing a message from the lost 
expedition was found in the Baltic Sea in 1930 giving Fawcett's position 
not far from the banks of the Tapajos. 
 
In Exploration Fawcett Brian lists all the numerous sightings of his father 
as mistaken identity or hoaxes. 
 
But in the Secret Papers Brian and his mother Nina embrace at least three 
as absolutely genuine, the ones North-West of Cuiaba;  
 
1) Two reports of sightings of Fawcett are mentioned in private letters as 
being absolutely genuine. The Swiss trapper called Stefan Rattin said he 
met Fawcett in 1932 and that he was held captive by a tribe North-West 
of Cuiaba on the Rio Bonfin near the Tapajos River. Rattin writes; 
"I went to Barraca do Barreto on the River Juruena a tributary of the 
Tapajos and after crossing the Sao Tome I kept north of the Serra Morena 
then turned south and eventually came to the Iguassu  Ximary River, its 
tributary and it was on the conflux of this river with an unnamed one 
several miles South West of the Teles Pires River that I came upon the 
camp. I think the name of the place was Bocaina."  
 
Fawcett's surviving daughter Joan remembers that Brian accepted Rattin's 
story as completely truthful at the time because Rattin mentioned to the 
authorities certain details that proved the man was Fawcett, e.g. the name 
of Fawcett's close friend Sir Ralph Paget (ex-Ambassador in Rio), and 
rings, a snake-eyed ring especially. "My father never wore rings," wrote 
Brian in Exploration Fawcett. But the bank manager in Cuiaba 
remembers he did and especially the snake-eyed one. 

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Most importantly, the man showed Rattin his dental plate, with two front 
false teeth, for identification. Paget was convinced and urged a rescue 
party to be set up. Though in his secret diary Brian writes "I come to the 
conclusion that Rattin was telling the truth", in Exploration Fawcett Brian 
lists Rattin's sighting along with several others as being completely 
unreliable. He seems to want to put the public off the trail. In the case of 
another sighting by a Frenchman called Courteville, Brain also totally 
accepts it in private but rejects it in Exploration Fawcett. 
 
2) Journalist/explorers Patrick and Gordon Ullyatt were lent a Fawcett 
logbook by Nina who gave full backing for their proposed search area 
The Rivers Roosevelt and Tapajos, North-West of Cuiaba. 
 
3) Brian writes that the Courteville sighting near Diamantino, North West 
of Cuiaba, of an elderly English colonel suffering from fever and delusion 
was his father, though in Exploration Fawcett he says he is sceptical  
about the report. In private he says the very opposite; " That sounds 
exactly like Daddy." 
 
So what is going on here? Obviously, Brian wanted to cover up all trace 
of his father and brother. He does not want them to be found, nor their 
objective discovered or posterity to know anything whatever. 
 
 
"M" decides what should be revealed 
 
When you read the Secret Papers, Brian's behaviour becomes crystal 
clear. It emerges from his diaries that for most of his life Brian was 
influenced by a female earth spirit that he called "M". The psychologist 
Carl Jung had a similar relationship with "Philemon" an elderly bearded 
sage. These earth spirits or elementals have been known in all cultures 
throughout history but have only recently in our "rational" climate been 
dismissed as a delusion. The psychologist Stan Gooch has written a study 
of these creatures and concludes that they represent a shut-off section of 
an individual's brain that develops independently of its owner and creates 
its own "personality" and then starts to communicate with the main 
personality. Although I remain an agnostic when it comes to the 
supernatural, I have to say that I have concluded through evidence that  
 
 

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"M" does have an objective reality and should be treated as a personality 
totally independent of Brian's subjective consciousness. Whatever the  
truth, the fact is that "M" guided Brian in all major things throughout his 
life and particularly in the amount that he was "allowed" to reveal about 
his father.  He writes in his secret diary quoting his mentor "M"; 
 
"This morning "M" said 'You did a splendid job with Exploration 
Fawcett. You gave out the superficial story of your father which was just 
right for the masses, and I promoted it so the work has become the 
textbook about him. That's just as I wanted it. Ordinary people may know 
that much. What I don't want is a revelation of his mystic side. The story 
as now published is a red herring to obscure the other life." 
Brian continues with an account of taking his wife Ruth to a concert: 
 
"At 7.15 we left for the Market Hall for the concert by the City of 
Birmingham Symphony Orchestra. It was an electrifying evening right 
through, starting with Elgar. "M" came with us and in her usual way  
cleared a whole row for our exclusive use while elsewhere people were 
looking for seats! Not only did she clear our row but the row in front as  
well, where she herself sat close in front of me. When she comes to a 
concert she won't have people around her…(in the following day's entry) 
BBC TV in the form of one Warren, rang up to say that they 
contemplated putting on a show about "Fawcett, the Man" and would I be 
willing to furnish information? When I mentioned it to "M" she said she 
knew the BBC call was coming and that she'd work with me in "handling 
it" and furthering the "conventional" Fawcett story".  
 
Unfortunately Brian's reluctance to come out with the facts led to 
fabricated and unfounded "Histories" emerging.  Myths sprang up out of 
mere rumours and began to be accepted as fact. Ironically I have found 
that what Brian conceals in the Secret Papers is far more extraordinary 
than any of the wild theories that can be read on the Internet or can 
possibly be invented in a fictionalised dramatization. 
 
Brian had composed Exploration Fawcett for a 1950's public who were 
conditioned by "The Modern Movement" and "Rationalism" and wanted 
just a good adventure yarn. The real Fawcett that Brian concealed was 
influenced by the famous Helena Blavatski, a Russian aristocrat, who 
founded the Theosophical Movement. She set out to reawaken our 
relationship to Nature and to our ancient instinctive qualities including  

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