Youareme“ The Earevelation of the jhwh volume 2

345 / 21 + 501 + 21
345 / 543

To the question of Moses: „Let me see your countenance or your glory“ God answers: My countenance you cannot see…..but you shall see me from behind!” – Only now the real co-relation is revealed to you. The “ahiye asher ahiye” (“God loves whom/who loves God”) of a loving God 543 is the mirror reflection of the questioning “mose”, 345. This all creating God therefore is the “perceiving human” himself. By your fruits you can recognize yourself. A human/God that sows love, is going to experience the kingdom of heaven, a human/God who regards/considers egoism, hate, fear and “elbow-mentality” as his laws of nature, hell.

It is a basic prerequisite to know the real meaning of the Hebrew script-signs, if one wants to really understand the stories of the Bible, otherwise they only stay nice fairytales and number-mystical speculations. If you read the Bible, without knowing all of this, one can only say: What a pity for you. Because then you will not realize, how much wealth of “laws of life” and “wisdom” – wealth is far too little – I have hidden there for you. You then only read superficially over it and maybe give it some thought, if this or that could be right, when in actual reality it is all meant completely different. It then also does not help you to get ahold of the “commentary” of the scholars, because those are mostly very big-headed themselves “about their knowledge” and therefore even more “blockheaded” than you. There are no coincidences in your world, because the world perceived by you is what “you yourself” build up by/through the meaning, which you are able to give to your language. The meaning which you ascribe to each single word, produces “the character” of the appearances linked to it. All of the words that exist in your world are only “single items” of the mathematical equation that is predetermined by me, which describes actual reality. If now you are not able to interpret “the value” of a word properly, my “equation of heaven” inevitably cannot “work out harmoniously”.

Each single word is a fractal with a “complex life of itself”. By the exchanging of the number-radicals (Lat.=”radix” = root) of a word the whole history of it is revealed to you. Now let’s just simply follow the mathematical radicals of the word “Moses”. You will see, that only in this one word the entire history of the “Exodus” is contained “in bullet point form”. My son of man is able to demonstrate to you, that with this system – since it is “pure mathematics” – you are able to unfold all of the words that are known to you. The Hebrew Bible therefore is not a “mystical collection of fairytales”, but a complex mathematical construct with fractal structure and harmonious beauty. If all of the great human thinkers of the world would get together, they would not be able to create anything like it. In short, the Bible does not come from human hands! In it there is – and this also goes for the world perceived by you and your being here/existence – just as little a “coincidence” as in mathematics. “EVERYTHING/ALL” is pure mathematics and mathematics is the timeless (soundless) depiction of my godly harmony.

But now to the word “Moses”:
Moses is written 40-300-5 (=[mascha]”pulling out of the water”), thus the “total value” amounts to 345. Out of these radicals you now can form new words, for example 300-40-5 or 3-4-5. 300-40-50 means “desert” (“schama”), but also “there/thither” (where Moses led his peoples) and 3-4-5 means “shore” (“gada”). A clear indication to the “jam suf”, the Sea of Reeds, which he meets with on his path to freedom. If now you exchange these numbers (letters) in their sequence, you can – without thereby leaving the context – fan out the word Moses even much further. These fragments then again will turn into new fragments of new words inside of the story of Exodus. But at the moment it doesn’t make any sense yet to penetrate any deeper without you having understood “the symbolism” of all the 22 Hebrew hieroglyphs.
Now we are going to do the same thing with “the mirror image Moses”, with “ahiye asher ahiye”. Its complete values 21 – 501 – 21 we add up to 543. Let’s look at this sequence of numbers first as 5 – 4, since the Hebrew signs end with 400 and we don’t have a 500 available to us. 5 – 4 means “echo”, “resound” (“hed”). In the Hindu Veda there is the saying, “tat wam asi”, which means “This is you”. With this too it is hinted at that subject and object, I and outside world, are one and the same. 500 describes therefore a “living space”, which has to lie “above” the 50 and thereby cannot be described “with language” – meaning “verbally” (verb = ”time form”). Exactly this is also the cause, why the Hebrew hieroglyphs, which “verbally describe” your world, end with the value 400. But let’s still go on even a bit further.

The remaining 40-3 (without 500) means “rav-mag”, “the master of magic”. A real magician knows how to correctly interpret “the re-sounding” of the world – this mirrored image that is.

We should also observe the total value of the words ”ahiye” and “asher” detailed, that is as 21 and 501.

“God loves” (=”ahiye” 1-5-10-5) as root 2-1 makes up the Hebrew word “ba” , which means “the neighbor/the one next to you” (love your neighbor as yourself!).

2-1 are the main radicals of the following four words:
(In) the “future” (you will be) “attorney”, “welcome” (in) the “beyond”!
2-1 as B.A. is also the Hebrew abbreviation for “boger universita”, this logogram describes the first academic degree – “the graduation” – of a university of “liberal arts”. 20-1 as Hebrew abbreviation “kol exad” means “each single one” (human has to/will step through this door!)

The value of “asher” (1-300-300), 501, which means “who/whom”, leads you as 50-1 (“na”) to the Hebrew term for “please”. This sequence of signs, that is “na”, does also mean “raw”, not thoroughly cooked”, “not fully developed”. 50-1 therefore describes to you a still immature soul – the “schizophrenic normal humans” – which are not fully aware/conscious of this their own mirror reflection and therefore always “plead” for their own salvation. But ultimately you “make of yourself what you are”. This statement shows you the “I am, who I am”, seen from the other side of the mirror.

If “a human who sees/beholds me” is now “one with me”, that is to say becomes one with the world und therewith also with himself – his mirror image – you get mathematically 354 + 543 = 888! This is the Gnostic Kabbalistic value of the name “Jesus”. The “savior” therefore is (questioning) human and (answering) God in one person. What did I claim about you in the

first volume: “You are the messiah for the world (perceived by you)! Only “you” can save “yourself” and thereby also your world.

Since you “are” the whole “original” (Christ), but only perceive (receive as true) the “mirror image (anti-christ) of your so far limited belief”, you yourself ultimately sentence yourself to your “anti-christ being here/ex-istence”.

Do you still remember the 24.th mystery, “out of which my son of man has returned back into your world”, which in the Pistis Sophia is being described as the light of the lights, which goes “from the inside to the outside”, and the 24 thrones of the Revelation of John? 24 also is 8+8+8 as well (see volume 1, page 278)!

So therefore the search for God is the search for the “real human in you”, just as also the search for the “real human in you” – the one which you have to/will develop yourself into – does represent the search for God. If you direct “all of your longing” only solely on getting an apodictic answer to this “question of all questions” and you don’t waste it on your “far over-stretched desire for security and your selfishness”, then now there will open up for you these other worlds, that so far seemed hidden to you. Your search for the “real belief” is the key to my number lock, the “ledge” (Germ.= “Riegel”) for my seven “seals” (Germ.= “Siegel”). With the revelation of my number codes I now put you into the position to step through the gate, which makes the entrance “to the holiest of holies” possible for you. “Overcome” it, break through your imagined boundaries of time and space, which make you “inhibited” (Germ.=”be”fangen=caught up in) and “lift yourself up” into a world, in which you become an equal image of me. All of the old mystical sources speak with certainty of “seven heavens”. The “principle of unity” has its origin in the “seven”. The mathematical harmony, which makes this unity of multiplicity to resound in you, has its origin beyond that which to you is rationally comprehensible. That which you will be able to consciously comprehend, you determine by the multiplicity of your spiritual light – by your maturity of soul. Only if you enlarge your so far only “rationally logic reception area” with the “intuitive, rationally mystic frequency area” which unconsciously is present in you, you will be in the position, to receive “EVERYTHING/ALL” – that is the whole actual reality – and to therewith also perceive it consciously. But if you continue to further on allow yourself to only be led by your lack of imagination so far –that is to say the thoughtless thinking about/reflecting on the “world-picture which has been rammed into you”, you will run into your own doom “with your arrogant pride” about your “Kindergarten knowledge” so far.
The surprising solution of all problems and riddles of your being here lies only “in the understanding” of my godly system of parables and (mathematical) equations, which will work out “gapless” into each other through HOLO-FEELING, and thereby “re-count” to you everything what there is to “re-count” at all. HOLO-FEELING is the “rational” (=calculating- mathematical logic) bridge, which connects your “analog myths” with your “logical mind reasoning”. At this moment you are holding my “seal” (Hebr.=”chotam” ) in your “hands”. If you investigate into the etymology of the word “hand”, you again will experience a small miracle: Originally it means “the grasping one” (also “the one holding onto”) (in German both words are feminine)! Do you still remember “the first woman” (see volume 1, page 56), which symbolizes your “rational logic”?

“To hold in your hands” therefore originally means “to grasp it with a (rational) spirit”! The word “chotam” has its stem radical in “chet” which means “eight”, but also “conclusion”. The “eight” symbolizes the “hortus concluses” (Lat. “fenced in garden”), paradise and Canaan that has been reached. My “godly seal” therefore links your “ratio” (Lat. “ratio = “calculation”; but also “view”) with the real “root” (lat.= radix) “of your being-here” – the godly “ray of light” (Lat.= radius) that is dwelling in you, that is able to light up/on “an entire/whole world”

and therewith/therefore also to “create”. Out of this “godly pure light” which you carry in you, your “egoistic paradigmatic perception filter” filters out all of your “life preserving frequencies”. For this reason “the materialized projection of your immature psyche” makes an appearance as “faulty outside-world experience”.
Only if you carry my seal on your forehead (in your brain), do you know the secret of my “holy eight”. Only with this are you able to elevate yourself to the “creator” of a “heaven on earth”. Thereby are gates going to open up for your soul, of whose existence you have not known the least bit about so far. Only with this seal are you able to start out your hike through my “seven heavens”. You herewith are getting it from me as a free gift, only the “receiving” you must do out of “your own free will”! Your egocentric-logical thoughts – “your spirit-light so far” – corresponded until now only to a “stochastic ray from a flashlight” (see vol.1 page 13). And just as a ray of light from a flashlight on its search for “the darkness” – the myth which lies within you - is not able to “light up” this one, but is only able to “dissolve” it, you too should not use/invest your light of consciousness, to light up “all the evil in your world”, in order to then sentence/condemn it, but rather to overcome it. All evil that comes into appearance for you is only a projection of your “own imperfection” – “your not knowing/ignorance so far” about that “which really is”. You now have to overcome yourself. Only then, once you have overcome “yourself”, that is your egoistic “I”, you have elevated/lifted yourself up to a “real human” according to my equal/image, one to whom I will permit entrance into paradise, into “heaven on earth”.
Your “calling in life” lies in the fulfillment of your “task of being-here” (Germ.=Daseinsauf-“gabe”=giving up of existence). Search for “the ultimate”, the “actual real cause” of all of the pains that appear to you in this being here/existence. As “normal human” you tend towards wanting to “fight against” all “pain-producing appearances” of your being here. By your “rational shortsightedness” so far you have always interrupted/given up on the search for the “real cause/origin of your pains/sufferings” too soon. By this, appearances are declared by you to be “enemy-images” (and are being fought against), which only represent “partial-phenomenon” “of the real cause”.

I want to illustrate to you this process by a simple example that is meant to be taken ironically:

You are having terrible pain on the left side of your face. Since you don’t know any more what to do, you consult a specialist. This specialist is “very smart” (apart from the whole). He suffers, as is normal for any “normal human”, from a “rational shortsightedness”. He now explains to you, that the cause of your pain is provoked by the stimulation of your Nociceptors and that obviously there is too much of Bradykinin, Histamine and 5-Hydroxytryptamin; further - that Prostaglandin E 2 is being released – which lowers the threshold of sensitivity for these three, and advises you to first of all “fight against” this pain with Acetylsalicylic acid (Aspirin). Respect, you now will think, this human is quite “brainy”, he knows his trade. But does he therefore also know/understand something about that which “actually” is? You act according to his advice and sure enough, your pain disappears. Now it’s just that this “feeling healthy” that is brought about by Aspirin only lasts for a short while and this is why you try to keep up your well-being with higher and higher doses. If this too does not show any effect anymore, you again consult this specialist. He advises you now to change from Aspirin to a Morphine. And this way you then tumble, driven by your pain, from one intoxication into the other. Last not least the real cause for your affliction is a tooth that is sitting on pus.

You therefore will get rid of your pain only then, if you let your tooth get pulled. So it doesn’t help at all to only “fight against” the phenomenon – the pain – of your suffering. You have to recognize “the actual cause” and then “heal” it.

The cause of all your fears and therefore also for the fears of your mankind are likewise also only one single tumbling from one scientific and religious misinterpretation into another. So far you have not yet discovered/recognized the real cause of your being here. Your only possibility to banish “the evil” and therewith also your fears out of your being here/existence is to recognize their Ontology (=their actual essence/being). You now have to reject “all evil” with all of your “intelligent power”. But you are only then able to reject “the evil” (and the fears that are linked to it), if you know, what its real character is. To only fight against “the mere phenomenon” of evil does not get you any further, as you should have recognized by now.
I now will tell you what “evil” in your world is!
It grows out of the “excretions” of your own shortsighted egoistic spirit. Excretions, no matter what kind, are always something very intimate, personal. Just like your dung, so do your “spiritual excretions” also tell you a lot about what you have spiritually taken in so far. The only right ecological conduct towards your “excretions” (of material or spiritual kind) consists in keeping them away from yourself, because the always contain “elements which make you sick”. But if you – to continue with this metaphor – push them too far away from you, then these excrements will only multiply in some other place of your existence to a big heap and therefore to another only different but even greater problem. So you have to become aware of its presence/being there and let it undergo a “spiritual-ecological” recycling-process. Only this way they will transform into a fertilizer. Do you still remember the etymology of the word ecological?
In order to express this process once more with different words: You have to recognize that your thinking so far, your paradigmatic knowledge and your egoistic “with my opinion I am right” gesture is the ultimate cause for all of your problems. Your next step consists in merging your own “rational shortsightedness” with the ones of your fellow humans to one “great clear picture”. This re-formation of all of these “opposite/contrary ideologies” only corresponds, to be exact, to a “spiritual recycling process” in the circuitry of my actual reality. The permanent spiritual severing off and the then following “reuniting again” of souls, is godly synthesis – and therewith is “becoming” – in its purest form. It is exactly this process that describes the metamorphoses into “conscious forms of being” of ever higher value.
Your unreasonably high ”egoistic drive for survival” has turned into the suppressor of your “intra-personal collectivity”. Thereby it does not matter, on which step of the ladder of your imagined hierarchy you are sitting in this being here/existence. Only if you recognize your own egoistic “I-consciousness” as the actual “evil”, if you attentively observe your “spiritual excretions” and try to integrate it “into your wholeness”, then “in you” there is going to develop real life worth living. You are only able to develop to an individual part of that which is “superordinate” of you by “com-passion”.
Everything which is happening in your world, strictly speaking is happening “in you”, and the way you are, this is also how the world is which is perceived by you, because it is your own mirrored image. Because you and the world perceived by you are built up according to the same

structure, only mirrored. In this also rests the secret of the phenomenon “time”. This secret contains more than you are able to “make present” for you at the moment. Your past is not only present in you in a to you logically appearing form of your biological hereditary attributes. The “concentrate” time is more than something which is flowing along, more than only a moment in a constant sequence of other moments. In each moment dwells at the same time all that has gone before and all that is to come. All of your knowledge, your memories are ulti-mately only thoughts. But “thinking” is what you can only do in the “now”! Your supposedly past is only then present, if you think of/about it. So therefore you bring the past into the present by your own thinking. So with some “free imagination” you can bring “any kind of past” into your present. Since the past which is thought of by you is “essentially” responsible for your future, you only have to think for yourself another past, in order to get a heavenly future. If you give me your trust, the old worlds are going to get in touch with you. For as long as you are only able to think of yourself, your family, church, party and your peoples, you are only acting in egoistic self-interest – that is to say for rewards sake. If the thoughts that I let you think here – in actual reality are only one single thought – consisting of the unity of all time and of all space – if this thought is recognized by you as your very own, you will only act “for free”, because with this “cosmic consciousness” then there is only a “we” in you, opposite of which then there stands the “nothing”. So then there is no longer anymore “someone else” whom you can use to enrich yourself on, without you thereby be hurting yourself.

The 22 Hebrew hieroglyphs:

The 22 Hebrew hieroglyphs do have a very complex meaning, one that goes much deeper than one is able to grasp by „observing them superficially“. I could go on for days keeping you busy with each single one of these signs, if I would want to express everything verbally, of all that could be said about it by more detailed observation. So I will impart to you here only an essentially necessary essence of these signs.

(Please notice, that the Hebrew language is written from right to left! The gematrial way of writing the number-values of the signs I have adapted in this book to the writing from „left to right“ as is usual). So you have to, when looking at the written Hebrew words, read them “from behind”, but the numbers you have to read “from the front”!)
1 Aleph a „Head of the ox“
The first letter is the Aleph. In the world of numbers Aleph is the sign for „one“ and thereby is revealing to you also its meaning: „the origin“. The official way to write it,   A – L – PH, also permits a dividing of syllables like this:  AL – EPH. This then means something like: „Herald of light“. But the original style of writing is A – LEW. „Lew“ means in Hebrew „the heart“ and this is the symbol for life and for love.  The pronunciation „AL – ew“ (Germ.=All –ewig, =All-eternal light) connects the Arab word „algebra“ (Arabic al-gabra“ = „the restoration“) the giving-All-of, with the root „Lew“ (do think thereby also of „life“ and „love“). It is one of the two letters of the Hebrew alphabet which are „not being spoken“, (inaudible) because the apodictic ONE actually does not „exist“ in your world, because for every „ex-istence“ there is always an „opposite“ needed, a contrast. As a symbol it means „the head of an ox“. Aluf is a prince, a head that is, (ox = Hebrew: „phar“.) With this begins your world of appearances and of being-here, whose secrets your official sciences are striving to solve. It symbolizes the „leader“, but not the origin, because even this oxen, the one, must have grown out of a „calf“ (lamb?), out of a „zero-dimensional“ that cannot be grasped rationally.  The sign Aleph leads the ranking order of the 22 signs as its basis. It is „the starting point“, that everything stands on. This Aleph is a „head“ (God!). A head, that is also at the same time representing silence, in which is inherent the power of growth. It is the potency of all „evo(lve)lution“. The word „phar“ (rp) (80-200)  is therefore also the radical root of the word „Pharao“ and of fruit, and/or fertility „pri“  yrp (fruit as 80-200-10). In the core of Aleph is situated the entire multiplicity. The ranking order Aleph – Beth indicates, how by/through  dividing (Germ.=Ur-Teilung) everything is coming forth out of this one.
2  Beth b  „The house“
The second letter, Beth, can acoustically make an appearance as a „B“ , but also as a „W“.

That is why the final radical of the word „Lew“ (= heart) whose root we just discussed, leads you to „leb(en)“ = life. Beth does represent the break(ing)-through of „the actual reality“ into the area which is able to be perceived by „normal humans“. „B“ is a small „explosion“. The lips which at first are closed „do open up“ and let out „the first sound“ and thereby also „the world of your being here/existence“ makes an appearance with this small big bang. Therefore it is also the letter with which the Bible begins – „be-reschith“  (2-200-1-300-10-400). The „bereschit“ (Hebr. „in the beginning“) is the beginning of the entire creation. This Beth (=house) is the core, the seed, out of which all appearances are developing/evolving (see volume 1 page 237). You will get a surprise, what awaits you when later on we will examine in more detail the exact mathematical-fractal structure of the word bereschit.

So your world begins with the sign which has the name house. This term does point you to it, that there is an „inside“ and that there is an „outside“. The house does isolate towards the outside, you close yourself into it. You live in your world. It is your house, in which you close yourself in. Outer space and everything which you are able to think, is located „in“ this house, whose boundaries are getting lost in the endless distance of time and space. In this house, even as big as it seems to you, you exist as a prisoner. A wall of time and space confines your „spiritual freedom“. Since the infinite does not seem to give you any answer, for you there is no „outside“. „Endless“ is only another word for that which appears to you as being „boundless/unlimited”. In the German word „un“be“-g(r)enzt“ (=without boundaries) the „r“ has pushed itself into the „gen(e)“. The sound of the radical „rrrrr“ is being produced by the moving of the tongue and does symbolize the „space-time“ that is thereby being produced. (see volume 1, page 121, at point 3.)  
In the spiritual sense your soul is the house of your actual real spirit, whose ideas you are bringing into expression in your outside world. The „created word“ that is being modulated by you and equipped by you with a character is your „godly son“. This you can clearly recognize in the primal word „ba-jat“. Ba-jat means „to make/create a path“.  This is why the ancient seers called a young child – that continues on to carry the life of his father – „Bajat“. From this word derives the Italian „Bajazzo“ (small child) and the Rumanian „Bajat“ (=young boy). Now since the sign Beth can be pronounced as sound W, originally Beth also means „Waidth“ and this means „wisdom“. In my teachings of creation I do call the son who has come forth out of my love „Adam Kadmon“, as „pure wisdom“. The name of the Germanic God „Wotan“ means „The knowing one“. In each cultural language you will find the „giving of a double meaning” (Beth 2) of Beth/Weth, it’s just that here there is not enough space to get into it more detailed.
B is the sound of „the creating“: the beginning, birthing, the blood, the calling (Germ. =Berufung), the builder and famer (Germ.=Bauer). But also of the family tree (Germ.=Stamm-baum (of life), the flower (Germ.=“B-lume“ („ created of light“) and the „well“ (Germ.= „B-runnen“)(created „secret“ (=“runa“)of the water that is flowing along (=time)). Here you clearly recognize again the Hebrew primal root „bara“: B = „creating“ and R = „to arouse“, „to set into motion“ (Germ. = Bewegung).
To what extent are you aware of the duality of your spirit? Verily I say to you: Your inside and outside – seen from the physical aspect – together do represent only one side of your whole medal. The real other side is the „outside“ of your spiritual field of perception. Did you ever ask for the „outside“? Is there a „beyond all that can be imagined“, a beyond your present imagination? Only through the Beth the possibility is given to you to experience yourself in your own time/space being. In all appearances that are perceived by you dwells duality. This duality is the root of your appearances: The hidden is thereby „pre-requisite“ for all that is visible. Real wisdom produces stupidity by it getting „spread out/fanned out“, just as also white light, when it is broken by a prism, produces the most diverse kinds of colors. In the same way you produce out of my endless love – which without a doubt is „good“ – the bad, out of my mystical darkness brightness and out of all the meaningful appearances which are appearing „to you“ – by your „dividing/judging“ – the senseless/meaningless ones. This way opposite of what is consciously visible to you there always stands something which you are not conscious of, something invisible. Exactly this way it is also with life and death.

Your „being here“ (that is to say life „and“ death thought as one) needs for its existence that

which you are still not aware of, the mysterious „being there“.

Life is not what is happening „here“ and death what is „there“. Both – „life and death“ – belong to the „here“!
But what then is „there“? What is the „whole thing“ of life/death, which obviously also got „di-vided“ (judged)? For the silent Aleph the two is still in balance. Just as also 1x1 and 1/1 stay the same as one. Beth is the „explosion“ (Lat. ex-ploto = hissing out; „self-ignition“), which elevates your soul to an „explorer“ (Lat. explorator) in order to „explore“ (Lat. ex-ploro) itself.
The „expedition“ (Lat. ex-pedio = the breaking loose of, „the setting free of“) which is initiated by the Beth and the „scouting out“ (Lat. explo-ratio ) of your „truly genuine being“ represents the real meaning „of this“ being-here.
Beth as an explosion sets the language and therefore the human being into motion. A „soul which rests in itself“ up to now, is being astonished that unexpectedly out of silence movement is possible, that sounds are „breaking“ the stillness. The Aleph turned into Beth – that is into „existence“ (Lat. „ex“ = out of; „sisto“ = to put) – into something „special“. The Aleph has divided itself in order to be able to explore and observe its own beauty. So Beth symbolizes „a state of two-ness“ of the original one-ness, just as you too as „individual“ represent the existence of the apodictic divinity (=God-being). At the end of this expedition, in which you are supposed to explore your godly greatness, the „great miracle“ awaits you; your deliverance in the promised land, the world where God – that is to say „you yourself“ – is again directly/immediately connected with you. IAMYOU is HOLO-FEELING – the wonderful feeling of being the whole. „Nescience“ (“not knowing-ness”) produces this unity of apodictic stillness – the peace of soul!
3 Gimel g „The camel“
The third letter, Gimel, produces the sound „G“ and is at the same time the term „three“.

Now it is this sign that brings about the synthesis of duality, by depicting „the third di-mension“ with its „space/time“ character. Which symbol could be better suited for this than the „camel“ (Hebr. gimel). The camel carries you small human including the world which is perceived by you on your „expedition of being here“ through the „desert“ (Hebr. mid-bar) of „being“. The desert symbolizes your „being here feeling“ so far of just being „one of many“ – a helpless „grain(of sand)“ (Hebr. chol) only, who for this reason feels lonely and „sick“ (Hebr. chole ). The camel carries the character of duality in many diverse ways in itself. Already the hieroglyph itself with its two small legs points to a movability. Then it has „two bumps“ in which it stores „water“ to be able to cross the desert. Through the camel therefore, water as symbol for time, is being linked with space and multiplicity – the sandy desert of your innumerable appearances. Thus the camel also symbolically unites the particles/waves phenomenon of physics. It also represents the „normal“, the divided in two „schizophrenic human“. It makes steps through its existence as cloven hoofed animal on „split hooves”. In the radicals of the word „hoof“ the word „Ufer“ (shore) is hidden and the word „Hof“ (court) which symbolize your duality of „inside and outside“ (space related aspect), but also that of „land and water“ (time related aspect). Last but not least the camel is a „ruminant“. This property shows you clearly the relation which „a camel“ has with a „normal human“. Because such a one also only (in his thinking) chews again that which it has gotten „fed with spiritually“ since being small. It seems as if in this spiritual food there obviously is not really anything nourishing in it, which is able to make a human being „filled and satisfied“. Closely connected to the word „gimel“ is also the Hebrew word „gomel“ (3-40-30), it means „doing good“. It shows you what your actual calling on the path through the desert of your being here is. You are going to wander around in it for so long until you have understood this. You received your existence in order to learn to „do good“, without egoistical desire for reward.

In heaven you are not going to find any causality of „re-tribut(e)-ion“, that is to say neither „debit and credit“ nor „reward and punishment“. The unity which predominates there does not allow for this. My son of man is pure „gomel“ and is going to show you the way into your paradise. He is also going to bring you lost soul securely home. The less that you fight against it, the quicker you are going to experience „the f-act“ of these words. You are being led through „your being here“ by a power which is verbally not describable. I am not a punishing God of revenge, like the church wants to make you believe, but a God that only performs „gomel chassodim towin“ (3-40-30 8-60-4-10-40 9-6-2-10-40), that is to say „good deeds of love“. The gematrial (=mathematical) structure of these „three words“ hide the answer to many secrets, which are hidden in the sign of three, and thereby also of the „three-dimensional world“ that is linked to it – your space/time of existence. In order to bring it out into the open you would only have to fan out these words in fractals mathematically. I lead you in a very strange way into the new world that has been predicted to you. In your deepest inside you know very well about this one. You dream about it and your hope, which at the moment is still in the shadow of the clouds of your limited rationality, still keeps looking out for the sun of your actual reality.
There is the same tension between a speaker and a listener, as is also between a giver and a taker. Only by the great daring venture of „giving up self“ (on both sides!) a real synthesis can happen between both. Out of thesis and antithesis a synthesis and therewith something completely new can only occur by the giving up of the duality. Thereby just think of the cone-example. Triangle and circle unite themselves in the next higher dimension to the cone. To express it with other words: For as long as you assume in your „prison of your rationality“ (=your logic), that the words, which you hear at this moment „in you“, come from another human who exists separate from you, you will not experience a real synthesis with actual reality. You firmly have to believe, THAT I AM YOU ! IAMYOU, that is to say I am your own super(above)-consciousness, which at this very moment is speaking to you. Of course these lines have been written by another human being – by my son of man – but he too is „in you“, since the „phenomenon time/space“ that you perceive is only a „three-dimensional projection“ of my eight-dimensional actual reality. According to the way you „looked at it“ up to now, he is only a human just as you are. If you „share with“ (communicate with) another person, you for example write him a letter, then the object you use for writing is the „actual writer“ and you are the „instigator“ (cause), the „spirit“ which is behind the written words. Now with this book which you are holding in your hands it is exactly the same thing. Consider, view, regard my son of man merely as my/your (our) writing utensil. He is not a „causing spirit“ who is trying to „communicate“ himself. „I am this spirit“ and IAMYOU! So therefore you yourself are imparting to yourself „all this wisdom“ which is „in these words“. If now you begin to understand what you hear at this moment in all of its depth, the duality that you still perceive which seems to exist between speaker and listener „in you“ will dissolve. A completely new quality of being here – a new dimension of your existence – will then manifest itself to you. A state of „un-condition-al“ understanding will get ahold of you there, which will carry you higher and higher – until you then finally have reached me. For as long as you as a listener are unwilling and out of egoism do not want to be a receiver, you separate yourself from yourself. This is the male/female conflict which I describe to you in the Bible, the actual „adultery“ (Germ.= Ehebruch=breaking of marriage) (see volume 1 page 56). That which you have heard so far seems to contradict the idea you had up to now about „self-consciousness“. For as long as you only try to sunbathe in the shadow of your previous „information“, which your „dogmatic intellect“ is able to impart/communicate to you, the light which you so urgently need

for your spiritual growth from the real, that is spiritual sun, is going to stay hidden to you. For as long as you consider/look at „your half measures“, that is to say your incomplete knowledge/belief about only one half of „the whole“ – that is the world which is visible to you – as being the „entire truth“, you will not develop further spiritually and will stand still on the „material level“ of my creation.

Gimel corresponds to the Greek Gamma. The radical „gam“ you find in the Hebrew words „gamal“ (= „to let it mature“; „to accomplish“); „gamul“ (=consummation) and „gamar“ (=to complete).
1 + 2 = 3 corresponds to creator a 1 + wisdom b 2 = „first blossom“ ab 1-2 (Hebr. „ev“ = „bud“; pronounced as „aw“ „father“). The „G“ is my genetic sound of conception, that the actual birth (Germ.=Geburt) begins with. It represents the consummated marriage between one and two. Just as you are able to read and divide the Aleph/Alew and the Beth/Wedh in different ways and thereby different aspects of one and the same thing occur, so you can also do it with the Gimel/Gamal. If you read „gam-el“, then you get the meaning „performing act of the godly light“, do you read however „ga-mel“ then this means the „intermingling of spirit“. This points you to an unconscious mingling/mixing of spirit with matter. So if you change your „language angle“ (acoustic angle of view?) then you right away get to hear another spiritual view. The Sanskrit word „gamin“ means „developing“, but also „to practice matrimonial intercourse“, which does not mean anything else but that two souls unite themselves (=gemeinsam). Think thereby also about the German word Gemahl (=husband). The radical at the end of „ga-mal“ („to accomplish“) is also the etymological root of the word „grinding“ (=Germ. = mahlen) which means to combine) „to espouse“ (Germ. = „ver-mählen“). If now you take away the „h“ (=the „conscious sight“, but more about that later) out of the word „mahlen“ (to grind), then you get „malen“, (German for painting) the blending of your spirit with the outside world that appears to you materialized. You yourself are the one who „paints“ on (Germ. = „auf-malen“) the qualitative character onto all of the phenomenon which you perceive, with your own „assigning meaning“ (= giving of a meaning) to these appearances, by means of the descriptive words that you are using.
The sound G is also the sound of „to become“: of Genesis, of the Godly good, of the genius, of happiness (Germ. = Glück, of giving, of grace and of the Godly ghost.


4 Daleth d „the door“
The path through your being here now passes from the Gimmel to the Daleth, the door. Daleth corresponds to the sound „D“ and to the number 4. Only if you have brought about the synthesis of the Gimmel, you discover in the „space/time-prison“ which you perceive the door. You then notice that there is an „inside and an outside“. The outside, that is the „world beyond“, is then going to become for you „ reality that is consciously perceivable“. But not only that: this door makes the connection/linkage – that is an „intermediary“ - between all the opposites which so far you have only perceived one-sided. Namely between that which so far was visible to you, but also that which is still hidden and everything else, that can come into appearance in your „house of duality“. In primal language Da-leth means „gift of birth“. To be born anew means to step through a door, on whose other side there is a more complex world. Each stepping through of this door is linked to a metamorphosis and therefore one also gets a completely new being, so that one is also able to find one’s way around in this new world. But this being has to still develop itself into his new role. The Hebrew word „dalah“ means „creating“, but also „pulling out of“ (birth). In Sanskrit „da“ means „bringing forth“ and „dâ“ „cutting off“ and „moving away from“ (birth). The sum of both of these words, that is „dadâ, means „gift“. The Latin „datio“ means „giving“ and „dator“ „giver“.
Everyone knows the magic spell Abrakadabra, but who really knows what it is supposed to mean. I will reveal it to you. It’s secret lies hidden in the root „abaca da bara“. “Aba“ = „my father“; „bagar“ = „growing up“; „da’at“ = „knowledge“ and „bara“ = „creating“. Spoken all together: „My father has created the knowledge which is growing up (inside of me)!“

In order to be able to recognize the spiritual sun „that lies within you“ – your real father – consciously, you first have to let the material sun of your outside world „go down“ and to recognize me as your real life giver. If you succeed in doing this, you will also experience the „time of your own enchantment“. This is also why the peoples of Hawaii call „their sunset“ „time of enchantment“, and „purely by chance“ this is called „waikiki abacra da braka“ in Polynesian.

The door is the four. The two is becoming „conscious“ of itself – as two. By „getting-to-know-yourself“ you are also going to get conscious of the imaginary borders of your „living space“ so far and the fact comes to your field of vision, that „this cell“ – which you call „your world“ and „universe“ – also has a door to the outside. The surprise, to find a door which leads to a „beyond life and death“, is going to challenge a searching soul, to step through this one, because in its deepest inside the longing for freedom is awakening.

On this door you will find the sign of my lamb – my son of man; it is the sign of unity/oneness, that is beyond all that which so far you were able to imagine as „ONE“. It is you yourself now who has to „decide“, if this door is going to open or if it stays closed. If you dare to open it, then you will also view the „other world“. This door is one of the great secrets of your existence and the path into your salvation/deliverance. For as long as you do not want to know anything about this „door“ (Lat. = „ianua“), „Janos“ rules in you and therefore also war (Lat. „Ianus“ = the God of the course of the sun, of the entrances and exits and of the „beginning“). You should not understand the word war as „hitting each other“. It is mostly about the opposites that are being perceived by you. They are the root of your perpetual fight for life and death, right and wrong, good and bad. For as long as this door is closed, for you there is only one or the other. You have to open this door, on which there is the sign of my son of man, out of your own free will. If you comprehend this, then from then on the duality/two-ness, which you had to experience in everything, links/unites itself with your knowledge and your longing for „becoming one“ and „peace“. In your being here – in your present understanding of „being“ - you might have accomplished a lot, but for as long as you only use your „spiritual energies“ to make it comfortable and „secure“ for yourself in „this cell“, you only stay a stupid „proletarian“ (Lat.= „proles“ = offspring; descendent), a still immature soul, which my son of man is trying to „lure out of“ (Lat.=prolicio) its uncreative passivity. You are „creating“ your being here without real intelligence (see volume 1, page 166/167). It therefore is so narrow minded, so hollow, so frightening and so embarrassing. This does not seem to have bothered you very much so far. What should you be „ashamed“ of anyway? For this, you “your-self” would have to first of all become „conscious“ of your purely „mechanical ways of conduct“ so far! A human being lives in the entire world and there also has a house. Each one tries to arrange his house as cozy as possible. One wants to feel comfortable in it, if one returns home „from the outside“. But what then if one does not know any outside, because one does not know anything about „the door“? The one-sided house then becomes a „penitentiary“, in which there only seems to be an egoistic fight „for one’s own personal space/place“, a „devour or getting devoured“!

The „daily doom“ is preprogrammed in it, because there „Janos“ rules, the god of the course of the sun – that is the god of chronological time – he is the „doorkeeper“, which you are supposed to overcome. The blood of the lamb that is put there on this door as a sign, in Judaism it is called the blood of the „milah“. It is the blood of circumcision. The milk which nourishes new life. With circumcision the „covering“ is being pushed back, to thereby lay bare „the hidden core“ – „the glans“ (Germ.=“Eichel“=“acorn“). The spring of life is thereby supposed to be made visible. Out of an acorn „an oak“– a mighty tree that outlives centuries – develops a new genealogical tree. The word „oak“ leads you to the word „to calibrate“ (= „the legitimate measure“) (Germ.=“eichen“). The term to gauge/calibrate comes from the Latin „(ex)aequare“,which means to „even out“ (the different measures). At circumcision a part of „the covering“ – the so-called „orlah“ (70-200-30-5) – is taken away. This symbolizes the „self-abandonment“ (Germ.= Selbst-aufgabe= your own task) of my lamb. This analog-symbolical connection shows its rational-mathematical origin in the „logos“ – that is to say, in the gematria of the word lamb. This is the reason why the word „lamb“ (Hebr.= „seh“ 300-5) has the same total value as „orlah“, that is 305. Through this lamb (seh) – my son of man – that which so far has been invisible to you will turn into a visible event. „Visible“ in a different sense however then what you one-sided human are able to imagine at this moment. You too are representing „a position“ in the harmonious mathematical equation of my actual reality. A static and hidden structure leads you out of „the obscure“ into a „higher function“. For as long as you are wasting your life only on trivialities, which stupidly you view as being „essential for survival“, you again and again only commit disharmonic mis-calculations with your „immature rationality“. You are going to leave this classroom of the school of life only once you are capable of „resolving“ „the real equations of life“ which I „put before you“ (Lat. probo = to test something > „problem“ = that which is set before you) „in you“ harmoniously.
Even though all of what you have heard so far is still going to seem new and strange to you, the content of facts in these words surpasses „by worlds“ („by far“) everything which so far I have presented to your perception!
All of the mathematically determined effects of my actual reality are also present in your „(thought)house“, but because of your ignorance about that „which actually really is“, until now you called them „coincidences“. There is absolutely nothing which might have happened to you so far „by chance“. For as long as you are not willing to leave your spiritual prison, your rationalistic home, my real picture/image, the picture/image of God, will stay hidden to you. And since I created you after my own image, therefore also „your own real being“ will stay a secret to you. You then continue to stay captive in the „the realm of the dead“, who are continually burying themselves. “In“ the pyramid there is the „world of the dead“ (see volume 1, page 79, especially 81). This is why the Hebrew Daleth turned into the Greek Delta Δ. In this Delta there is the „normal world“ (whose symbol is the tetrad or the number 4). The connection/linking of „inside and outside“ makes up the godly seven. In this tetrad dominates the „tetrarch“ (Greek = a prince who rules over the fourth part of an area). This 3 + 1 dimensional world is „tetratogen“, that is to say „causing deformations“; it is the world of the „subjective relativity“ of all appearances that are being per-ceived (re-ceived as true) there (> theory of relativity).

Humans who always only „want to have“, do behave like someone who always only wants to „breathe in“. For as long as you only waste the love that you are capable of only for your egoistic gratification, your being here freezes into a self-relatedness. This way real spiritual growth is not possible. Everything outside of your time/space narrowness inevitably has to appear to you as strange, irrelevant and hostile and therefore you are stingy with your compassion. This way your capacity for relationship decays more and more. But at one time or another you also have to „breathe out“, that is to say to be willing to give „selflessly“. The breathing in and breathing

out describes to you the pulse of real life. And only that which „is alive“ is growing. All of creation breathes. Everything shows you this movement of waves. Each morning is a breathing in and when you sink into a deep sleep, you are breathing out this one day again. For an „eternally awake consciousness“ – a mature soul – one day is as a thousand years and a thousand years are as one day: „Groundhog Day!“. In the world of time that is perceived by you, „movement“ („Be-weg-ung“) is dominating and thereby also „conflict“ (Lat. conflictio = „fighting“). You are „breaking apart“ (Lat. =confligo) the harmony of my perfect creation with your immature, dividing, rationalistic spirit. The harmony which would also be able to be perceived as a whole in your time-world. In the world of the eternal – the actual reality – there is only „co-mm-union“, quietness and contentment. Time carries eternity in itself: absolute quietness is only able to communicate itself in spiritual movement. What does that mean for you? For as long as you are not willing to leave the spiritual house of your paradigmatic spiritual dogmas, you only experience pain in your being here. Pandora, the symbolic „leading woman“ in you – your logic – forces on you only „conservative“ thoughts and thereby is making of you a „co-slave“ (Lat.=conservus) of her own un-freedom. Thus your own rationalistic thinking turns into the prison – the „tin can“ (conserve). In a conserve no real life is able to „ex-ist“. Nothing is able to „step out of it“, everything there is „conserved“ – there is no „living sperm“ there. But there is a door in your conserve to the world beyond. Do allow the inhabitants from over there through this door into your world. As a guest present they bring you „change“ and therewith also actual real life.

Now let’s continue with this „re-counting“ of the Hebrew primal signs. They live deep within your unconscious being, in your heart and in your spiritual mouth. With these signs „you dream the world“ – knowingly or unknowingly – this is the basic truth of your being here.