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in order to cheer Diana up, Prince Charles moved them out of the castle into Craigowan Lodge, one
of the guest houses located on the Balmoral estate, which at least allowed Diana to run her own
house. In doing this, Prince Charles was trying to be solicitous of his wife, even though he refused
to take her back to London where she wanted to go. Prince Charles saw Balmoral as basic royal rigor
and because Diana was now a member of the Royal Family it was essential that she learned to
handle it. In addition, Balmoral was Prince Charles’s favourite place, and he could not believe that
she would not come to love it too, especially since she had seemed to like Balmoral before the
engagement. However, despite all this, Prince Charles did not modify his routines at all for Diana.
He spent the mornings shooting and the afternoons fishing, and Diana refused to join the shooting
parties for lunch (p. 180).
Diana wanted Prince Charles’s undivided attention and misread his preoccupation as rejection
(Smith, 2007, p. 119). Diana’s marriage to Prince Charles had acted as a catalyst for all the painful
feelings from her childhood to re-emerge, namely her insecurity and her feelings of betrayal and
isolation, and his apparent disregard for her emotions appeared to make such feelings more intense
and at times overwhelming to her (Snell, 2013, p. 25). Diana was still suffering from bulimia and her
weight continued to fall drastically (Morton, 2010, p. 131). The shadow of Camilla continued to
linger on the couple even at Balmoral (Bradford, 2007, p. 95) as Diana dreamed of her at night
(Brown, 2008, p. 184) and constantly suspected Prince Charles of ringing her up to ask her advice
about his marriage (Bradford, 2007, p. 96). Despite Prince Charles’s repeated assurances that
Camilla was no longer a part of his life, Diana refused to accept his word (Smith, 2007, p. 120).
Camilla was an obsession for Diana (Bradford, 2007, p. 96). Prince Charles remained mystified by
Diana’s mercurial moods, but he blamed post-wedding nerves and assumed her misery would
recede over time (Smith, 2007, p. 119).
Perplexed and worried, Prince Charles did what he could to
placate Diana, and even invited her former flatmates up to stay (Bradford, 2007, p. 99).
In October 1981, Prince Charles finally persuaded Diana to go to London for professional help, which
was a significant step, given his family’s discomfort with mental illness (Smith, 2007, p. 124). It was
a clear indication of how desperately worried he had become (Brown, 2008, p. 184). At Buckingham
Palace, Diana saw several doctors and psychologists, and they prescribed her various tranquilizers