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Shouts from the open window startling evening in the
quadrangle. A deaf gardener, aproned, masked with
Matthew Arnold’s face, pushes his mower on the sombre
lawn watching narrowly the dancing motes of grasshalms.
To ourselves ... new paganism ... omphalos.
—Let him stay, Stephen said. There’s nothing wrong
with him except at night.
—Then what is it? Buck Mulligan asked impatiently.
Cough it up. I’m quite frank with you. What have you
against me now?
They halted, looking towards the blunt cape of Bray
Head that lay on the water like the snout of a sleeping
whale. Stephen freed his arm quietly.
—Do you wish me to tell you? he asked.
—Yes, what is it? Buck Mulligan answered. I don’t
remember anything.
He looked in Stephen’s face as he spoke. A light wind
passed his brow, fanning softly his fair uncombed hair and
stirring silver points of anxiety in his eyes.
Stephen, depressed by his own voice, said:
—Do you remember the first day I went to your house
after my mother’s death?
Buck Mulligan frowned quickly and said:
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—What? Where? I can’t remember anything. I
remember only ideas and sensations. Why? What
happened in the name of God?
—You were making tea, Stephen said, and went across
the landing to get more hot water. Your mother and some
visitor came out of the drawingroom. She asked you who
was in your room.
—Yes? Buck Mulligan said. What did I say? I forget.
—You said, Stephen answered, O, it’s only Dedalus
whose mother is beastly dead.
A flush which made him seem younger and more
engaging rose to Buck Mulligan’s cheek.
—Did I say that? he asked. Well? What harm is that?
He shook his constraint from him nervously.
—And what is death, he asked, your mother’s or yours
or my own? You saw only your mother die. I see them
pop off every day in the Mater and Richmond and cut up
into tripes in the dissectingroom. It’s a beastly thing and
nothing else. It simply doesn’t matter. You wouldn’t kneel
down to pray for your mother on her deathbed when she
asked you. Why? Because you have the cursed jesuit strain
in you, only it’s injected the wrong way. To me it’s all a
mockery and beastly. Her cerebral lobes are not
functioning. She calls the doctor sir Peter Teazle and picks
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buttercups off the quilt. Humour her till it’s over. You
crossed her last wish in death and yet you sulk with me
because I don’t whinge like some hired mute from
Lalouette’s. Absurd! I suppose I did say it. I didn’t mean to
offend the memory of your mother.
He had spoken himself into boldness. Stephen,
shielding the gaping wounds which the words had left in
his heart, said very coldly:
—I am not thinking of the offence to my mother.
—Of what then? Buck Mulligan asked.
—Of the offence to me, Stephen answered.
Buck Mulligan swung round on his heel.
—O, an impossible person! he exclaimed.
He walked off quickly round the parapet. Stephen
stood at his post, gazing over the calm sea towards the
headland. Sea and headland now grew dim. Pulses were
beating in his eyes, veiling their sight, and he felt the fever
of his cheeks.
A voice within the tower called loudly:
—Are you up there, Mulligan?
—I’m coming, Buck Mulligan answered.
He turned towards Stephen and said:
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—Look at the sea. What does it care about offences?
Chuck Loyola, Kinch, and come on down. The Sassenach
wants his morning rashers.
His head halted again for a moment at the top of the
staircase, level with the roof:
—Don’t mope over it all day, he said. I’m
inconsequent. Give up the moody brooding.
His head vanished but the drone of his descending
voice boomed out of the stairhead:
And no more turn aside and brood
Upon love’s bitter mystery
For Fergus rules the brazen cars.
Woodshadows floated silently by through the morning
peace from the stairhead seaward where he gazed. Inshore
and farther out the mirror of water whitened, spurned by
lightshod hurrying feet. White breast of the dim sea. The
twining stresses, two by two. A hand plucking the
harpstrings, merging their twining chords. Wavewhite
wedded words shimmering on the dim tide.
A cloud began to cover the sun slowly, wholly,
shadowing the bay in deeper green. It lay beneath him, a
bowl of bitter waters. Fergus’ song: I sang it alone in the
house, holding down the long dark chords. Her door was
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open: she wanted to hear my music. Silent with awe and
pity I went to her bedside. She was crying in her wretched
bed. For those words, Stephen: love’s bitter mystery.
Where now?
Her secrets: old featherfans, tasselled dancecards,
powdered with musk, a gaud of amber beads in her locked
drawer. A birdcage hung in the sunny window of her
house when she was a girl. She heard old Royce sing in
the pantomime of Turko the Terrible and laughed with
others when he sang:
I am the boy
That can enjoy
Invisibility.
Phantasmal mirth, folded away: muskperfumed.
And no more turn aside and brood.
Folded away in the memory of nature with her toys.
Memories beset his brooding brain. Her glass of water
from the kitchen tap when she had approached the
sacrament. A cored apple, filled with brown sugar, roasting
for her at the hob on a dark autumn evening. Her shapely
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