Ana frankis dRiuri

ana
xuTSabaTi, 2 marti, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

dRes me da margo sxvenze avediT. magram masTan erTad zeviT yofna iseT siamovnebas ara mgvris, rogorc Cems warmodgenaSi mesaxeboda, Tumca vici, rom margo metwilad iseve grZnobs yvelafers, rogorc me.

dRes eli dedas da qalbaton van daans WurWlis recxvaSi exmareboda da ugunebobas uCioda. ici, rogor anugeSes orivem? dedam aseTi rCeva misca: ifiqros yvelaze, vinc dRes mTel msoflioSi iRupeba. magram ras giSvelis sxvis ubedurebaze fiqri, roca TviTon xar sasowarkveTili? es azri me xmamaRla gamovTqvi da aseTi pasuxi miviRe: `nu laparakob iseT rameze, rac ar gesmis~.

ufrosebi xom briyvebi da gonebaClungebi arian. TiTqosda margo, peteri, eli da me maTsaviT ar vgrZnobT yvelafers. aseT mdgomareobaSi mxolod namdvili dedis, anu uaxloesi megobris siyvaruli Tu giSvelis. magram Cvens dedebs sruliad ar esmis Cveni, dedaCems kidev ufro naklebad, vidre qalbaton van daans. ra siamovnebiT vetyodi sabralo elis ramdenime Tbil sityvas, iseT rames, rac sakuTari gamocdilebiT vici, rom nugeSis momgvrelia. magram am dros mama movida da me zedmeti aRmovCndi. marTlac, ra sulelia yvela! Cven ufleba ara gvaqvs, sakuTari azri viqonioT! da amave dros TavianTi Tavi ultraTanamedrove adamianebad miaCniaT. ar gqondes sakuTari azri! SeiZleba uTxra sxvas, gaCumdi! magram azrovneba aukrZalo, ara, ar SeiZleba. aravis ara aqvs ufleba, aukrZalos vinmes azrovneba, Tundac igi Zalze axalgazrda iyos. elis, peters, margos da me gviSvelis, siyvaruli, romelic oTxives gvaklia. aravis ar esmis Cveni, gansakuTrebiT ki Cvens mozrdil idiotebs, radgan Cven bevrad ufro mgrZnobiareni varT da bevrad ufro daxvewili azrovneba gvaqvs, vidre maT warmoudgeniaT.

dedam isev usamarTlod misayvedura. etyoba, eWvianobs, radgan am bolo dros qalbaton van daans ufro xSirad velaparakebi, vidre mas.

dRes nasadilevs, rogorc iqna, gamoviWire peteri. sul cota, sami meoTxedi saaTi mainc visaubreT. peters uWirs sakuTar Tavze laparaki, magram bolos mainc amoidga ena. miTxra, rom misi mSoblebi xSirad Cxuboben politikis, sigaretis da yovelgvari umniSvnelo wvrilmanis gamo. roca amas ambobda, Tavs uxerxulad grZnobda. axla me daviwye laparaki Cems mSoblebze. peteri aRtacebulia mamaCemiT, `yoCaRi~ uwoda. vilaparakeT rogorc `zemourebze~, aseve `qvemourebze~. peters gaukvirda, roca gaigo, rom Cven maincdamainc ar gviyvars misi mSoblebi.

— mismine peter, — daviwye me, — Sen ici, rom me gulaxdili adamiani var, ratom ar unda giTxra yvelaferi. Cven xom viciT, ra nakli aqvT maT. — Semdeg ki aseTi ram vuTxari:

— peter, Zalian minda dagexmaro, maZlev uflebas? Sen aq adgils ver poulob da vici, rarig giWirs, Tumca amaze arafers geubnebi.

— keTili, me mudam madlieri viqnebi daxmarebisaTvis.

— iqneb jobda mamas moelaparako. mama arasodes ar gagcems. SegiZlia daufaravad uTxra yvelaferi.

— marTali xar, mamaSeni namdvili adamiania.

— Sen xom kargad xar misdami ganwyobili? — man Tavi damiqnia da me ganvagrZe: — isic Sendami, peter!

peteri yurebamde gawiTlda. Cemma sityvebma ise gaaxara, rom guli amiCuyda.

— Sen ase fiqrob? — mkiTxa man.

— ra Tqma unda, — vupasuxe, — es araerTxel msmenia misgan!

peteri yoCaRia, mamaCemiviT yoCaRi!

ana
paraskevi, 3 marti, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

am saRamos sanTlebi¹ (¹ paraskevs saRamos ebraelTa ojaxebSi sanTlebs anTeben.) aanTes. me isev gavmxiaruldi da davmSviddi. sanTlebis Suqze bebia davinaxe, romelic mmfarvelobs da CemTvis mudam sixaruli moaqvs.

magram... Cemi fiqrebi sxvaganaa, peterTan. dRes roca zemodan kartofili Camomqonda, man mkiTxa: `ras akeTebdi nasadilevs?~

kibeze Camovjeqi da saubari gavabiT. mxolod eqvsis TxuTmet wuTze Cavedi dabla (kartofilis aRebidan zustad erTi saaTis Semdeg).

peters mSoblebze sityva ar dauZravs. Cven mxolod wignebsa da warsulze vlaparakobdiT. SesaniSnavi biWia! kidev cota da albaT Semiyvardeba. saRamos TviTon Seexo am Temas. roca kartofilis gafcqvna movaTave, masTan avedi. Zalian Tbiloda da me vTqvi:

`me da margo temperaturis sazomad gamovdgebiT: roca civa, fermkrTalni varT, roca Tbila, loyebwiTela~.

— Seyvarebuli xar? — mkiTxa man.

— ratom unda viyo Seyvarebuli, — vupasuxe me. Cemi xma sruliad udardelad JRerda.

— ratom ar unda iyo, — miTxra man, — magram am dros vaxSamze dagviZaxes. neta ra undoda amiT eTqva? dRes, rogorc iqna, movaxerxe mekiTxa misTvis, Tavi xom ar movabezre laqlaqiT? man mokled momiWra: `piriqiT, Zalian msiamovnebs!~ ar vici, iqneb uxerxulobis grZnobam aTqmevina es. verafers vityvi.

kiwi, me namdvili SeyvarebuliviT viqcevi, romelsac, satrfos garda, araferi axsovs. magram peteri marTlac oqroa! rodis momecema SemTxveva vuTxra es? ra Tqma unda, mxolod im SemTxvevaSi, Tu misTvisac ramed vRirvar. me xom iseTi knuti ara var, romelsac SeiZleba Sen nebaze moeqce. me es kargad vici. mas ki imdenad uyvars martooba, rom arc ki vici, movwonvar Tu ara.

yovel SemTxvevaSi, Cven nel-nela vecnobiT erTmaneTs. magram Cemi survilia, ufro gulaxdilni viyoT. vin icis, iqneb es dro ufro Cqara dadges, vidre me vfiqrob. yoveldRe ramdenjerme Semomxedavs SeTqmuliviT, mec Tvals vukrav da orive kmayofilni varT! Tumca sisulelea imis Tqma, rom peteri CemsaviT bednieria, magram ratomRac mgonia, rom isic CemsaviT fiqrobs!

ana
SabaTi, 4 marti, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

amdeni Tvis manZilze dRes pirveli SabaTia, roca arc mowyenili var, arc naRvliani da arc guldamZimebuli. amis mizezi ki peteria.

dRes, roca sxvenze winsafris gasafenad avedi, mama iq damxvda (peters amecadinebs yoveldRe) da mkiTxa, xom ar msurs maTTan erTad frangulSi mecadineoba. Txovnis ganmeoreba ar dasWirvebia. jer frangulad vilaparakeT, peters zogi ram avuxseni, Semdeg ki inglisurze gadavediT. mamam xmamaRla wagvikiTxa nawyvetebi dikensis nawarmoebebidan da me araCveulebrivad bednieri viyavi, radgan peteris gverdiT vijeqi, mamis skamze.

11 saaTze qveviT Camovedi, xolo Tormetis naxevarze roca kvlav zeviT avedi, igi ukve kibeze idga da me meloda. Cven pirvel saaTamde visaubreT. Tu yvelaferi rigzea da yuradRebas aravin gvaqcevs, nasadilevs, roca oTaxidan gavdivar, meubneba: `jerjerobiT ane, Sexvedramde!~

ah, rogor mixaria! neta, Tu mogwonvar? yovel SemTxvevaSi, SesaniSnavi ymawvilia da me vfiqrob, Cven mSvenivrad gavugebT erTmaneTs. qalbaton van daans uxaria, roca me da peteri erTad varT. dRes ki gasaxeleblad mkiTxa: — Tu SeiZleba gendoT adamiani, roca iq, zeviT, martoni xarT?

— ra Tqma unda, — aRvSfoTdi me, — Tqven me SeuracxmyofT!

dilidan saRamomde marto is maxarebs, rom peters vnaxav.

ana
orSabaTi, 6 marti, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

peters saxeze vamCnev, rom isic iseve bevrs fiqrobs Cemze, rogorc me masze. guSin saRamos, roca dedamisma xumrobiT `moazrovne~ uwoda, saSinlad gavbrazdi, peters Sercxva da gawiTlda, me ki mzad viyavi saxeSi vcemodi!

ratom ver aCereben adamianebi enas? ver warmoidgen, ra Znelia, roca xedav mis martoobas da verafers Sveli. me ise cxadad vgrZnob, ra sasowarkveTilia, roca xedavs am kinklaobas, am sicarieles, TiTqos Tavad ganvicdi. sabralo peter, ra Zlier gWirdeba siyvaruli!

guli mtkiva, roca misgan mesmis, rom araviTari megobari ar sWirdeba. cxadia, cdeba! SeiZleba arc fiqrobs ase, magram CasWidebia moCvenebiT gulgrilobas da aRar unda moeSvas arCeul rols, daanaxos vinmes Tavisi namdvili grZnobebi. peter, sanamde unda gagrZeldes ase? iqneb am zeadamianur daZabulobas saSineli afeTqeba mohyves?

o, peter, ufleba rom mqondes dagexmaro! orive erTad rogorme davZlevdiT Cvens martoobas. me bevrs vfiqrob, magram yvelafers ar vambob. mixaria, roca mas vxedav, gansakuTrebiT ki Tu am dros mzec anaTebs.

guSin Tavs vibandi da erT ambavSi viyavi. vicodi, rom is gverdiT oTaxSia. ra gaewyoba, rac ufro wynari da seriozuli var Sinaganad, miT ufro vyoyoCob. vin gaigebs amas sxvebze adre, vin Seamsxvrevs javSans. kidev kargi van daanebs vaJi hyavT da ara qaliSvili! megobroba arasodes ar iqneboda ase Zneli mosapovebeli, aseTi mSvenieri da gamabednierebeli, sqesTa urTierTmiziduloba rom ar arsebobdes.

Sen ici, rom gulaxdilad gwer yvelafers. amitom unda gamogityde: vsuldgmulob mxolod Sexvedridan Sexvedramde. neta vicode, isic Tu ase melodeba! guls miCuyebs misi uxerxuli cda, rac SeiZleba SeumCnevlad momiaxlovdes. masac CemsaviT unda gadauSalos vinmes guli, albaT, warmodgena ara aqvs, rom me swored misi umweoba mizidavs.

ana
samSabaTi, 7 marti, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

roca Cems 1942 wlis cxovrebas vigoneb, yvelaferi ararealuri meCveneba. im cxovrebiT TiTqos sxva ane cxovrobda da ara is, romelic aq ase daWkvianda. diax, SesaniSnavi cxovreba iyo! uamravi Tayvanismcemlebi, ociode megobari gogona da nacnobebi. TiTqmis yvela maswavlebels vuyvardi, mSoblebi manebivrebdnen, fuli sakmarisi mqonda, meti raRa ginda?

albaT ikiTxav, rogor movaxerxe amdeni adamianis gulis monadireba. roca peteri ambobs rom es `charme~¹-iTaa (¹ momxibvleloba (frang.)) gamowveuli, mTlad marTali araa. maswavleblebs moswondaT da arTobdaT Cemi moswrebuli pasuxebi, sasacilo SeniSvnebi, mocinare saxe da kritikuli Tvali. es Tvisebebi sainteresod da sasiamovnod miaCndaT da es asec iyo. saSineli arSiyi viyavi, kekluci da mxiaruli, magram amasTan erTad dadebiTi Tvisebebic mqonda, romelTa wyalobiT TiTqmis yvelas movwondi, saxeldobr, muyaiToba, gulaxdiloba da gulkeTiloba. aravisTvis damiSlia, gadaewera Cemgan, arasodes ar mqonia didi warmodgena Cems Tavze, yvelas guluxvad vurigebdi tkbileuls. iqneb am sayovelTao aRtacebas qedmaRali gavexade? iqneb jobia, rom Sua zeimidan gamomiyvanes da erTferovan, yoveldRiur cxovrebaSi gadamisroles. magram erT weliwadze meti dro damWirda SevCveodi im azrs, rom CemiT aRaravinaa aRtacebuli.

ras meZaxdnen skolaSi? yvela oinisa da eSmakobis `moTaves~. yvelgan pirveli viyavi, arasodes ar vwuwunebdi da ar viRrinebodi. gasakviric araa, rom yvelas siamovnebas hgvrida gavecilebine skolamde da Cems mimarT yuradRebiani yofiliyo. uwindeli ane SesaniSnavi gogo iyo, oRond odnav qarafSuta, dRes ki aRaraferi aqvs CemTan saerTo. peterma Zalian marTebulad SeniSna:

`adre, roca quCaSi gxvdebodi, yovelTvis ori an sami biWi, anda gogoebis mTeli jogi gaxlda, mudam icinodi, celqobdi da yuradRebis centrSi iyavi~. raRa darCa uwindeli anesagan? sicils da moswrebul pasuxebs jer ar gadaveCvie. iseve kargad, SeiZleba ukeTesadac verkvevi adamianebSi, miyvars keklucoba... cxadia, roca survili maqvs. minda kidev erTxel, Tundac erTi saRamo, ramdenime dRe, erTi kvira vicxovro maSindeli udardeli da mxiaruli cxovrebiT. magram vici, rom erT kviraSi yvelaferi imdenad mombezrdeboda, rom pirvelive Semxvedris madlieri viqnebodi, oRond seriozulad damlaparakeboda. arafrad mWirdeba Tayvanismcemlebi, me ufro megobrebi mWirdeba, nu gamoiwvevs aRtacebas Cemi momxibvleli Rimili, oRond daafason Cemi Sinagani buneba da xasiaTi. vici, rom megobarTa wre daviwrovdeba, magram eg araferia, Tuki ramdenime namdvili, gulwrfeli megobari SemrCeba.

Tumca arc im dros viyavi uSfoTvelad bednieri. xSirad martoobasac vgrZnobdi, magram radgan dilidan saRamomde dakavebuli viyavi, amaze fiqrisaTvis ar mecala da rac SemeZlo verTobodi. Segnebulad Tu Seugneblad, vcdilobdi xumrobiT Semevso sicariele. axla minda, Cems uwindel cxovrebas gadavxedo da muSaobas Sevudge. cxovrebis erTi monakveTi aSkarad dasrulebulia: aRar damibrundeba skolis udardeli, uzrunveli wlebi. magram me arc menatreba is dro, aRar Semefereba. mas Semdeg gavizarde. axla aRar SemiZlia, mxolod udardelad vimxiarulo. Cemi erTi nawili xom mudam inarCunebs seriozulobas.

Cems arsebobas 1944 wlamde ise vxedav, TiTqos gamadidebeli SuSiT vuyurebde.

saxlSi — mziT savse cxovreba, Semdeg 1942 weli, aq gadmosaxleba, mkveTri cvlilebebi, Cxubi, braldebebi. me ar SemeZlo swrafad Sevguebodi amgvar gardatexas, sayrdeni gamomecala da mxolod kadnierebiT vcdilobdi winaaRmdegobis gawevas.

1943 wlis pirveli naxevari: cremli ar SemSrobia Tvalze, martooba, TandaTan vxvdebi Cems Secdomebs da naklovanebebs, romlebic mniSvnelovania, magram me kidev ufro mniSvnelovani meCveneboda. vcdilobdi yvelaferi amexsna, pimi Cems mxareze gadmomebirebina, magram araferi gamomivida, marto aRmovCndi rTuli amocanis winaSe: mindoda ise gadavkeTebuliyavi, rom aRar damWireboda maTi rCeva-darigeba, rasac sasowarkveTilebamde mivyavdi.

amave wlis meore naxevari ukeTesi iyo: wamovizarde, ufro moridebiT meqceodnen. mets vfiqrobdi, daviwye moTxrobebis wera da im daskvnamde mivedi, rom sxvas araviTari ufleba ara aqvs, burTiviT aqeT-iqiT gadagisrolos. gadavwyvite sakuTari nebiT, Cemive daxmarebiT Camovyalibebuliyavi. bolos im Segnebamde mivedi, rom mama yvelaferSi ver iqneba Cemi mesaidumle. aravis ar vendobi ufro metad, vidre sakuTar Tavs. axali wlis Semdeg daiwyo meore didi cvlileba... gaxsovs, Cemi sizmari, mas Semdeg mivxvdi, rom megobari mWirdeba, magram ara qali, aramed vaJi. mas Semdeg CemSi bedniereba aRmovaCine, mivxvdi, rom Cemi Tavqarianoba, mxiaruleba mxolod javSania. Semdeg TandaTan davmSviddi da sikeTisa da silamazisken ltolva vigrZeni.

saRamos loginSi locvas aseTi sityvebiT vamTavreb:

`o, RmerTo, madlobeli var yvelafrisaTvis, rac qveynad kargia da SesaniSnavi, madlobeli var siyvarulisaTvis~. am dros CemSi yvelaferi zeimobs. vfiqrob, ra aris `kargi~? kargia, rom Cven gadavrCiT, me rom gamovjanmrTeldi: `siyvaruli~? siyvaruli peteria da is, rac CvenSi jer imdenad nazi da mgrZnobiarea, rom Sexebasac ver vbedavT, is, rac odesme mova — siyvaruli, momavali, bedniereba. `SesaniSnavi~? SesaniSnavia samyaro — buneba, xelovneba, silamaze, yvelaferi, rac diadia da mSvenieri.

am dros vfiqrob im saswaulebriv mSvenierebaze, rac TavisTavad arsebobs da ara ubedurebaze. ai, raSia ZiriTadi gansxvaveba Cemsa da dedas Soris. damwuxrebul adamians deda ase arigebs: `gaxsovdes, ramdeni ubedureba trialebs qveyanaze da madlobeli iyavi, rom Senc am dReSi ara xar~. me ki vetyodi: `gadi gareT, sufTa haerze, gadi da eZebe bedniereba Sens sakuTar TavSi da RmerTSi. ifiqre, ramdeni mSvenieri ram xdeba Sens sulSi, Sens irgvliv da iyavi bednieri!~

Cemi azriT, dedis rCeva swori ar unda iyos, aba ra unda qna im SemTxvevaSi, roca Senc gewveva ubedureba? maSin xom sul daiRupe. me ki sawinaaRmdego azrisa var. rac unda ubeduri viyo, qveynad mainc arsebobs raRac mSvenieri: buneba, mze, Tavisufleba da yvelaferi is, rac SenSia. amas unda CaeWido da maSin sakuTar Tavsac ipovi, RmerTsac da wonasworobasac SeinarCuneb.

xolo bedniers sxvisi gabednierebac SeuZlia. visac vaJkacoba da rwmena aqvs, ubedurebaSi ar daiRupeba.

ana
kvira, 12 marti, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

am bolo dros erT adgilze ver vCerdebi. siamovnebiT vesaubrebi peters, magram mudam imis SiSi maqvs, Tavi ar movabezro. melaparakeba warsulze, mSoblebze, sakuTar Tavze. me ki mainc yvelaferi mecotaveba.

mere Cems Tavs vekiTxebi — ra ufleba maqvs meti moviTxovo. adre peteri ver mitanda, verc me vitandi. axla me masze azri Semecvala, niSnavs ki es imas, rom masac unda Secvloda Cemze azri?

me ase mgonia, Tumca es jer kidev imas ar niSnavs, rom Cven ganuyreli megobrebi varT. me CemdaTavad mirCevnia, ase iyos, maSin ukeT avitandi karCaketilobas. ar minda, zedmetad gaviRiziano Tavi. isedac bevrs vfiqrob peterze, Sen raRad unda mogaxvio Tavs Cemi sevdiani fiqrebi.

SabaTs imdenad gamanadgura garedan Semotanilma cudma ambebma, rom nasadilevs dasaZineblad wamovweqi. Zili, Zili, rom araferze vifiqro. 4 saaTamde meZina, mere mSoblebs mivakiTxe. verc dedas vupasuxe da verc mamas avuxseni, ratom wamovweqi. bolos Tavis tkivili movimizeze. tyuili ar miTqvams, Tavi marTlac mtkioda, mtkioda... sadRac SigniT, Rrmad!

normaluri adamianebi, Cemi toli normaluri qaliSvilebi ifiqreben, cota Seqanebulia da imitom Civis amdenso, magram saqme isaa, rom yvelafers, rac gulSi maqvs, Sen geubnebi, Semdeg ki mTeli dRe kadnieri, mxiaruli da sakuTar TavSi darwmunebuli var, vcdilob Tavi avarido yovelgvar SekiTxvebs, — arc sxvebi Sevawuxo da arc sakuTari Tavi.

margo Zalian alersiania da did yuradRebas iCens Cemdami. albaT, cdilobs Cemi gulis mesaidumle gaxdes, magram me ar SemiZlia yvelaferi gavando mas. igi sayvareli, keTili da lamazia, magram cota akademiuri. seriozul sakiTxebze saubrisaTvis ki ubraloebaa saWiro. me seriozulad meqceva, Zalze seriozulad da albaT, bevrs fiqrobs Tavis Tavqarian daikoze. rac unda vTqva, gamomcdel mzeras momapyrobs da fiqrobs:

`TvalTmaqcobs Tu marTla am azrisaa?~ Cven aq viwrod vcxovrobT, erTmaneTs mudam fexebSi vedebiT, me ki mirCevnia, Cemi mesaidumle Sors iyos Cemgan.

rodis davaRwev Tavs azrTa am qaoss? rodis daisadgurebs CemSi kvlav simSvide da myudroeba?

ana
samSabaTi, 14 marti, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

me ukve karga xania momwyinda amaze laparaki, magram iqneb Sen gainteresebs, ra vWameT dRes. am wuTSi van daanebTan vzivar (qveviT damlagebeli muSaobs) muSambagadafarebul magidasTan da cxvirTan nelsacxebliT napkuri cxvirsaxoci miWiravs. surneleba cxvirsaxocs saxlidan gamohyva. me mgoni, es mikibul-mokibuli ambavi ufro dagabnevs, amitom Tavidan daviwyeb. vinc Cven sasursaTo baraTebiT da sxva saWiro ramiT gvamaragebda, daiWires. axla aRarc sasursaTo baraTebi gvaqvs da aRarc cximi. mipi da koophoisi avad arian. eli ki ver iclis da savaWrod ver midis. ase rom, ganwyobileba cudia, aseve saWmelic. xvalisTvis erTi naWeri qonic ki aRar gvaqvs, xolo karaqze da margarinze laparakic zedmetia. sauzmeze Semwvari kartofilis nacvlad (Cven amiT puris ekonomias veweodiT) fafa mogvarTves da radgan qalbatons eSinia, SimSiliT ar davixocoT, Sav bazarze mouxdeli rZe ayidina. dRes sadilad gvaqvs kasridan amoRebuli lobio!! amitomac mivide cxvirze cxvirsaxoci, rogorc sifrTxilis RonisZieba. lobio mTeli weli kasrSi ido da raRac warmoudgenlad yars. oTaxSi erTmaneTSi areuli dampali qliavis, sakonservo sunelis da laye kvercxis mkveTri suni trialebs. fu, roca gavifiqreb, rom es saZagloba unda SevWamo, guli mereva. garda amisa, Cvens kartofils raRac daavadeba gauCnda da `pomme de terre~¹-is (¹ kartofili (frang.).) kalaTidan naxevars sanagve yuTSi vyriT. roca kartofils vfcqvniT, daavadebis diagnozis dadgenas vcdilobT da verTobiT. bolos davadgineT, yvelaze metad gavrcelebulia kibo, Savi yvavili da wiTela. arc ise advilia iatakqveS cxovreba omis meoTxe wels. male mainc moeRos bolo am ubedurebas. aq rom sxvamxriv cota ukeTesi pirobebi iyos, sakvebis uqonloba amis naxevradac ar Semawuxebda. magram ZaRlis Tavi swored aqaa damarxuli. am erTferovanma cxovrebam yvelas tvini Segviryia. ai, ras ambobs Cveni TavSesafris xuTive ufrosi wevri Cvens cxovrebaze:

qalbatoni van daani: `didi xania mombezrda samzareulos ferias roli. roca saqme araferi maqvs, mwyindeba, amitomac vamzadeb kerZs. magram kerZis damzadeba ucximod SeuZlebelia! cudi suni guls mirevs. vSromob, madlobis magier ki ukmayofileba da sayveduri mesmis. yvelasaTvis me var TeTri yvavi, yvela me madanaSaulebs. garda amisa, darwmunebuli var, rom oms bolo ar moeReba, SeiZleba germanelebma moigon kidec omi. saSinlad maSinebs is, rom SimSiliT davixocebiT. ra gasakviria, Tu mudam karg xasiaTze ara var~.

batoni vand daani:

`minda movwio, movwio da kidev erTxel movwio. maSin yvelaferi asatania: politikac, sakvebic da kerlis Wirveulobac. xolo roca mosawevi ara maqvs, xorci mainc unda mqondes sadilad. Tu ara da cxovreba autanelia, yvelafers viwuneb da yvelasTan vCxubob, kerli ki saocrad suleli qali mgonia.

qalbatoni franki: `sakvebi ar aris mTavari, magram saSinlad mSia da erTi naWeri Wvavis puri menatreba. me rom qalbaton van daanis adgilze viyo, didi xania gadavaCvevdi Cems qmars amdeni papirosis wevas, magram axla momeci, geTayva, erTi sigareti, iqneb nervebi davimSvido... ingliselebs bevri Secdoma mosdiT, magram frontze saqme mainc kargad midis. marTals Tu maTqmevinebT, mixaria, rom poloneTSi ara var~.

batoni franki: `yvelaferi rigzea, me araferi ar minda. mTavaria simSvide. dro jer wina gvaqvs. Tu kartofils maWmevT, savsebiT kmayofili viqnebi, oRond Cemi ulufidan cota elis gadaunaxeT~.

batoni duseli: `droze unda davamTavro Cemi disertacia. politika? didebulia! Cven aq aRmogvaCenen? SeuZlebelia!~ me, me, me...

ana
oTxSabaTi, 15 marti, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

uh... oh... oh... mTeli dRe mxolod es ismis: `Tu esa da es moxda, namdvili gaWirveba maSin naxeT... xolo Tu isic avad gaxda, qveyanaze momxedavi aRar gveyoleba... da Tu kidev...~, erTi sityviT, gagrZeleba SegiZlia TviTon warmoidgino. me mgonia, Sen am xnis ganmavlobaSi kargad gaicani yvela `iatakqveSeli~ da ar gagiWirdeba mixvde, vin ras ambobs.

am `Tu, Tu~-s mizezi isaa, rom batoni kraleri Sromis begaris mosaxdelad gaiwvies, eli gacivda, mips jerac ar mouxdia gripi, xolo baton koophioss mZime sisxlis dena daewyo kuWidan da xandaxan guli uwuxdeba. saSineli ambavia.

sawyobis mosamsaxureebi xval isveneben da Tu eli Sin darCa, Cven karis gaRebas ver movaxerxebT. TagvebiviT gasusulebi unda visxdeT, rom mezoblebma araferi gaigonon. pirvel saaTze henki mova, rom daxedos mitovebulebs da ase vTqvaT, zooparkis darajis roli Seasrulos... dRes zogi ram gviambo garesamyaroze. didi xania ar gvsmenia, ra xdeba am kedlebs iqiT; rom genaxa, ra xarbad vusmendiT. aris aseTi suraTi `bebias zRaprebi~, imas vgavdiT.

jer erTi ambavi ar hqonda moTavebuli da meoreze gadadioda, cxadia, sakvebzec vilaparakeT, bolos mipis mkurnal eqimze SeCerda:

`eqimi? eqimze nurafers mkiTxavT! am diliT davureke, rogorc iqna, telefonTan asistenti movida. gripiani avadmyofisaTvis recepti vTxove da iciT, ra mipasuxa: rvidan cxris naxevramde gamoiareT da waiReTo. Tu gripi mZime formaSi gaqvs, telefonTan, albaT, TviTon eqimi modis da geubneba: aba, gamoyaviT ena... TqviT a-aaa... yvelaferi gasagebia, yeli gaqvT gawiTlebuli, recepts afTiaqs gadavugzavni, midiT da wamali wamoiReT. naxvamdis! wertili dasmulia. rogor mogwonT amgvari mkurnaloba? momsaxureba telefonis saSualebiT!~

Tumca didad ver vusayvedureb eqimebs, bolos da bolos TiToeuls mxolod ori xeli aqvs, axla ki, samwuxarod, pacientebis ricxvi maqsimums aRwevs, eqimebisa ki minimums. magram Cven mainc TavSeukaveblad vxarxarebdiT, roca henkma eqimTan telefoniT saubari gadmogvca. advili warmosadgenia, rogor gamoiyureba axla eqimis mosacdeli oTaxi. ufaso pacientebs axla zed aravin uyurebs, xolo im adamianebs, romelTac seriozuli araferi sWirT da mxolod wuwuni uyvarT, dRes, albaT, aseT rames eubnebian: `ra dagrCenia aq, dadeqi boloSi, jer is unda gauSva, vinc marTla avadaa!~

ana
xuTSabaTi, 16 marti, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

SesaniSnavi amindia, axlave aval sxvenze.

axla ki vici, ratom var peterze ufro mousvenari, mas sakuTari oTaxi aqvs, sadac ocnebobs, fiqrobs da sZinavs. me ki oTaxidan magdeben. Cems oTaxSi duseli cxovrobs, amitom verasodes ver vrCebi marto, Tumca marto darCena saocrad minda. esaa erT-erTi mizezi imisa, rom mudam zeviT gavrbivar. mxolod iq, zeviT, da SenTan saubarSi vpoulob kvlav sakuTar Tavs, kiwi! magram ase ar unda moveSva, piriqiT meti mxneoba unda gamoviCino. sabednierod, veravin amCnevs Cems gancdebs, mxolod esaa, rom dedis mimarT ufro gulcivi gavxdi, aRarc mamas veqcevi Zveleburad, nazad, margos ki gulaxdilad aRarafers veubnebi. Cems TavSi Cavikete, magram garegnuli TavdaWera aucileblad unda SevinarCuno. aravin ar unda icodes, ra brZola mimdinareobs CemSi, Cems gonebasa da Cems survilebs Soris. aqamde mudam goneba imarjvebda, magram iqneb odesme mimtyunos. zogjer meSinia amis, zogjer ki vnatrob!

Zalian minda velaparako amaze peters, magram vici, rom pirvelad man unda daiwyos. ra Znelia, roca saubars sizmarSi daiwyeb da gamofxizlebisas gagrZelebis saSualeba ara gaqvs. ra samwuxaroa, rom sizmarSi gancdili sinamdviled ar iqceva. diax, kiwi! Seni ane cotaTi Seqanda! magram me xom aranormalur droSi da aranormalur garemoSi vcxovrob! sixaruls mxolod is maniWebs, rom Cemi fiqrebisa da grZnobebis gadmocema SemiZlia, Torem sul davixrCobodi.

neta peteri ras fiqrobs yovelive amaze? me mainc mjera, rom male am sakiTxze gveqneba saubari. albaT bevr rames xvdeba kidec, radgan ane, romelsac aqamde icnobda, ar moewoneboda. rogor SeiZleba, simSvidisa da siwynaris moyvaruls Cemi daudegari, mousvenari xasiaTi moswondes! nuTu igi erTaderTi kacia, romelmac Cemi qvis niRbis qveS pirvelma Seixeda? nuTu dainaxa, ra imaleba mis ukan? marTals ambobs Zveli WeSmariteba: siyvaruls xSirad TanagrZnoba iwvevs, xolo bolos orive erTmaneTs erwymiso. mec aseve momdis? xSirad peteri iseve mecodeba rogorc sakuTari Tavi.