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ana
xuTSabaTi, 3 Tebervali, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

uaxloes droSi mokavSireebis gadmosxdomas elodebian. Sen rom aq yofiliyavi, albaT, Senzedac did STabeWdilebas moaxdenda es ambavi; magram SeiZleba, masxradac agegdeT, radgan jer araferi momxdara, Cven ki Cvens Wkuaze aRar varT. yvela gazeTi amaze wers da, roca kiTxulob, SeiZleba marTlac SeiSalo:

`Tu ingliselebi holandiaSi gadmosxdebian, germaniis sardloba holandiis dasacavad yovel Rones mimarTavs da Tu gaWirda, datboravs kidec~. gazeTebi aqveyneben holandiis rukebs, sadac moxazulia is raionebi, romelTac datborva elis. da radgan amsterdamis didi nawilic moxazulia, bunebrivia, CvenTan aseTi kiTxva daisva: ra unda vqnaT, quCebSi rom wyalma erTi metriT aiwios? aqve gaismis pasuxebi, yvela Taviseburad fiqrobs: fexiT an velosipediT siaruli SeuZlebeli iqneba, amitom, rogorc ki wylis dineba Sewydeba, foni unda movnaxoT.

— ara, curviT unda gavideT. sabanao kostiumebiT da sayvinTi qudiT SegviZlia didxans gavZloT wyalSi. veravin SeamCnevs, rom Cven ebraelebi varT.

— ra sisulelea! warmomidgenia, rogor icuraveben Cveni qalebi, roca virTxebi fexebSi swvdebian! (cxadia, romeliRac mamakacma ioxunja, magram vnaxoT, vin ufro adre abRavldeba).

— Cven verc ki movaswrebT saxlidan gamosvlas, sardafi imdenad dampalia, rom wylis pirveli mowolisTanave saxli Tavze Camogvengreva.

— xumrobis dro ar aris. vcadoT, iqneb sadme navi viSovoT.

— ra saWiroa. TiToeulma aiRos sawyobidan Saqris didi yuTi, Cajdes Sig, xolo niCbad CamCa gamoiyenos.

— me oCofexebiT vivli, axalgazrdobaSi Cempioni viyavi.

— henk van santens oCofexebi ar dasWirdeba, cols zurgze Seisvams da mipi ukve oCofexebze iqneba.

ai, kiwi, mTeli Cveni saubari! xumroba advilia, sinamdvileSi ki yvelaferi es sxvanairad moxdeba.

ar unda daviviwyoT kidev erTi sakiTxi, romelic agreTve gadmosxmasTanaa dakavSirebuli. ra unda vqnaT, germanelebma rom amsterdamis evakuacia daiwyon.

— SeumCnevlad gavyveT sxvebs.

— araviTar SemTxvevaSi. aq unda davrCeT. germanelebi xalxs win gairekaven da manamde ar moeSvebian, sanam yvela ar daiRupeba germaniaSi!

— cxadia, aq davrCebiT. yvelaze saimedo adgilia. koophoisi unda daviyolioT, rom ojaxianad aq gadmovides. tomrebs burbuSelaTi gavteniT da maSin iatakzec SeiZleba daZineba. kargi iqneba, mipma da koophoisma winaswar gadmoitanon aq sabnebi. 60 girvanqa fqvils cotas kidev davumatebT. henkma sadme unda iSovos cercvi. axla saxlSi 30 kilogrami lobio da 10 klogrami cercvi gvaqvs. garda amisa, 50 qila bostneulis konservi.

— deda, aba CamoTvale sxva produqtebi!

— 10 qila Tevzi, 40 qila rZe, 10 kilogrami rZis fxvnili, 3 boTli zeTi, 4 qila karaqi, 4 qila xorcis konservi, 4 boTli marwyvis da 2 boTli xilis wveni, 20 boTli tomati, 5 kilo Svriis burRuli, 8 girvanqa brinji, sul esaa!..

— marags ara uSavs, magram Tu imasac gaviTvaliswinebT, rom stumrebi gveyoleba Sesanaxi, xolo marags yovel kvira akldeba, maSin arc ise bevria.

— naxSiri da sawvavi gveyofa, aseve sanTlebic. yvelam unda SevikeroT gulze dasakidi toprakebi fulis Sesanaxad.

— unda CamovweroT gaqcevis SemTxvevaSi aucilebeli nivTebis sia da axlave CavalagoT zurgCanTebSi.

radgan saqme iqamde mivida, urigo ar iqneba, SevqmnaT sameTvalyureo punqtebi, erTi sxvenze, meore — saxlis Semosasvlel karTan.

— ra unda movuxerxoT mTel Cvens sursaT-sanovages, Tu uwylod, ugazod da usinaTlod dagvtoveben.

— sadils Rumelze movxarSavT. wyals gavfiltravT da avaduRebT. unda gavrecxoT ramdenime dawnuli boca da wyali movimaragoT.

ai, aseTi saubari mesmis mTeli dRis ganmavlobaSi. gadmosxdebian, Tu ar gadmosxdebian, kamaToben, msjeloben SimSilze, sikvdilze bombebze, sanTebelze, saZile tomrebze, ebraelTa gadasaxlebaze, sawamlav gazebze da ase usasrulod.

Tu ginda icode, ra awuxebT Cvenebs TavSesafarSi, gadmogcem maT saubars henkTan:

Cvenebi: — Cven gveSinia, rom germanelebi ukan daxevis dros amsterdamis mosaxleobas Tan waiyvanen.

henki: — SeuZlebelia: sada aqvT amdeni transporti.

Cvenebi: — transporti? nuTu Tqven ggoniaT, mosaxleobas matarebliT gaamgzavreben? arc ifiqroT. fexiTac kargad ivlian. (per pedes apostolorom¹, (¹ viTarca mociqulni fexiT (laT.).) ambobs duseli aseT SemTxvevaSi).

henki: — SeuZlebelia, Tqven yvelafers Sav ferebSi xedavT, risTvis unda aTrion amdeni xalxi?

Cvenebi: — gana ar iciT, ra Tqva gebelsma: Tu ukan daxeva mogvixda, okupirebul teritoriaze arafers davtovebTo.

henki: — magaT laparaks ra fasi aqvs!

Cvenebi: — Tqven ra, fiqrobT, rom germanelebi metismetad keTilSobili da humanuri xalxia da amas ar gaakeTeben? roca gauWirdebaT, ecdebian yvela CaiTrion, vinc maTi gavlenis qveS imyofeba.

henki: — rac gindaT is TqviT, magram me mainc ar mjera!

Cvenebi: — Zveli simReraa. moaxloebul safrTxes aravin xedavs, sanam piradad mas ar Seexeba.

henki: — danamdvilebiT Tqvenc araferi iciT, es yvelaferi mxolod Tqveni varaudia.

Cvenebi: — Cven yvelaferi Cvens tyavze ganvicadeT, jer germaniaSi, mere aq. gana ar iciT, ras sCadian ruseTSi?

henki: — ebraelebze me arafers vambob. danamdvilebiT aravin icis, ra xdeba ruseTSi. iqneb ingliselebisa da rusebis propaganda iseve gazviadebulia rogorc germanelebis.

Cvenebi: — ara xarT marTali. inglisis radio mudam simarTles gadmoscems. davuSvaT, rom bevri ram gazviadebulia, magram faqtebi xom Semzaravia. Tqven rao, uaryofT imas, rom poloneTsa da ruseTSi milionobiT udanaSaulo adamiani gaziT amoaxrCves da mospes!

sxva saubrebis gadmocemiT aRar Segawuxeb. me mSvidad var da vcdilob, rac SeiZleba cota ram gavigono. bolo dros im mdgomareobamde mivedi, rom CemTvis ukve sul erTia, movkvdebi Tu cocxali davrCebi. qveyana uCemodac iarsebebs, xolo istoriis gaCereba aravis SeuZlia. mosaxdeni mainc moxdeba, manamde ki vimuSaveb, viswavli da imedi meqneba, rom yvelaferi bednierad dasruldeba.

ana
SabaTi, 12 Tebervali 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

mze anaTebs, ca uZiro lurjia, sasiamovno sio qris. me ki... isev sevda mipyrobs... yvelaferi menatreba... Tavisufleba, megobrebi... martooba. minda laparakiT guli vijero, erTxel mainc momeces SesaZlebloba, Cems nebaze vitiro! vici, tiriliT guls movioxebdi da Svebas vigrZnobdi, magram ar SeiZleba. adgils ver vpoulob, davborialob mTel saxlSi, vCerdebi daxurul fanjarasTan da vcdilob, CarCos WuWrutanebidan Semosuli sufTa haeri SevisunTqo. vgrZnob sakuTar guliscemas, TiTqos meubneba: `bolos da bolos gamiqarve sevda~.

albaT, gazafxulis bralia, vgrZnob, rogor iRviZebs gazafxuli, iRviZebs Cems sxeulSi, Cems sulSi. rogorme unda davimSvido Tavi, sruliad moviSale, aRarc kiTxva SemiZlia, aRarc wera da arc arafris gakeTeba. mxolod is vici, rom sevdam Semipyro...

ana
kvira, 13 Tebervali, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

guSindels aqeT CemTvis bevri ram Seicvala. da ai rogor: danaRvlianebuli viyavi, me axlac naRvliani var, magram raRac mainc Seicvala... swored am diliT SevniSne, — da gulaxdilad geubnebi, am ambavma didad gamaxara, — rom peteri Tvals ar maSorebda, ise ki ar miyurebda, rogorc sxva dros, aramed rogorRac ucnaurad. ar vici rogor, ver agiwer. adre megona, peters margo uyvars, magram uecrad vigrZeni, rom saqme sxvanairadaa. mTeli dRis ganmavlobaSi gangeb varidebdi Tavs, radgan Tu Sevxedavdi, isic SemomaCerdeboda da maSin iseTi saamo grZnoba meufleboda, rom ar mindoda xSiri ganmeorebiT daClungebuliyo.

o, rogor minda marto darCena, mama CemSi raRac cvlilebas amCnevs, magram me ar SemiZlia yvelaferi vuambo. minda yvelas vuyviro: `momasveneT, marto damtoveT~. vin icis, iqneb odesme ufro metad vigrZno simartove, vidre es sasurvelia.

ane
orSabaTi, 14 Tebervali, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

kvira saRamos, Cemsa da pimis garda, yvelam radiosTan moiyara Tavi. germaneli kompozitorebis ukvdav nawarmoebebs ismendnen. duseli waramara atrialebda aparats. peteri brazobda, brazobdnen sxvebic. naxevari saaTis Semdeg peteri aenTo da gulmosulma dusels sTxova, moSveboda aparats. duselma Cveuli sigoroziT upasuxa: `me vici, rasac vakeTeb!~

peteri gabrazda, wamovarda, mamamisma mxari dauWira da duseli daTmobaze wavida. sul es iyo. TavisTavad TiTqos wvrilmania, magram, Cans, peters Zalian moxvda gulze. am diliT, roca sxvenze wignebis yuTSi viqeqebodi, peteri movida da mTeli es istoria miambo, me amis Sesaxeb araferi vicodi da, roca peterma SeniSna, yuradRebiT vusmen, Tamamad alaparakda.

— gesmis, — daiwyo man, — erTbaSad ver miTqvams yvelaferi, radgan winaswar vici, rom azris sworad gadmocema miWirs, ena mebmeba, vwiTldebi da xSirad sul sxva rames vambob da ara imas, risi Tqmac minda. bolos vCumdebi, radgan sityvebi ar myofnis, guSinac ase momivida. mindoda raRac meTqva, is iyo daviwye laparaki, magram uecrad avenTe. es ki yovelTvis cudia. uwin Zalian uxeiro Cveuleba mqonda, romelsac zogjer axlac siamovnebiT gamoviyenebdi. roca vinmes veCxubebodi, nacvlad imisa, rom sityvebiT mimemarTa, muStebiT vumaspinZldebodi. vici, rom am gziT bevrs verafers miaRwev da amitom aRtacebuli var SeniT. Sen kargi laparaki ici, pirdapir eubnebi xalxs, risi Tqmac ginda da arasodes ar ibnevi.

— Zalian cdebi, — vupasuxe me. — umetes SemTxvevaSi imas ver vambob, risi Tqmac mindoda Tavdapirvelad, garda amisa, bevr sityvas vxmarob, bevrs vlaparakob, es ki cudia!

gulSi Cems Tavze mecineboda, magram mas ar SevamCnevine, ramdenad gaxarebuli var. mindoda meti elaparaka sakuTar Tavze, amitom iatakze baliSi davagde, muxlebmokecilma zed myudrod movikalaTe da smenad viqeci.

me didad maxarebs is garemoeba, rom Cvens saxlSi aris kidev erTi adamiani, romelic zogjer CemsaviT gacofebulia. peters aSkarad siamovnebda CemTan saubari, SeeZlo sakadrisi sityvebiT Seemko duseli da arc imis SiSi hqonoda, rom gauwyrebodnen. mec SesaniSnavad vgrZnobdi Tavs, radgan amxanagi vipove. aseTi ram adre mxolod megobar gogonebTan urTierTobaSi ganmicdia.

ana
oTxSabaTi, 16 Tebervali, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

dRes margos dabadebis dRea. pirvelis naxevarze peteri saCuqrebis sanaxavad movida da karga xans darCa CvenTan, rac adre arasodes ar gaukeTebia. sadilisaTvis yava movaduReT da Semdeg kartofilis mosatanad gaviqeci. mindoda, weliwadSi erTxel mainc gamenebivrebina margo. roca peteris oTaxSi gaviare, man maSinve akrifa kibeze dayrili qaRaldebi da gza damiTmo. vkiTxe, sxvenze rom aval, liuki xom ar davxuro-meTqi.

— ra Tqma unda, — mipasuxa man, — oRond roca ukan gamobrundebi, damikakune da maSinve gagiReb. — me madloba gadavuxade da zeviT avedi. aTiode wuTi vafaTurebdi xelebs did kasrSi, wvril kartofils veZebdi, da manamde ar gamovbrunebulvar ukan, sanam moxrils weli ar metkina da ar Semcivda. cxadia, ar damikakunebia, liuki TviTonve gavaRe, magram peteri Semomegeba da Tavazianad CamomarTva didi qvabi.

— didxans veZebe, magram ufro wvrili ver amovarCie, — vTqvi me.

— did kasrSi Tu Caixede?

— rogor ara, saTiTaod gadavarCie yvela.

me dabla videqi kibeze, is ki kritikulad dascqeroda qvabs, romelic xelSi eWira. — Zalian didi kartofilia, — miTxra, roca qvabi gadmomca, Tanac dasZina `SesaniSnavi!~ amave dros ise Tbilad da nazad Semomxeda, rom gulis siRrmeSi raRac siTbo da sinaze vigrZeni. mivxvdi, rom undoda riTime esiamovnebina CemTvis, magram saWiro sityvebi ver monaxa da Tavisi fiqrebi mzeraSi Caaqsova.

me SesaniSnavad mesmoda yvelaferi da didad madlieri viyavi. axlac sixaruls mgvris peteris sityvebi da gamoxedva, roca vigoneb.

Cavedi Tu ara qveviT, dedam miTxra, kartofili vaxSmisTvisac dagvWirdebao. maSinve siamovnebiT avedi kidev erTxel zeviT.

peterTan Sevedi da bodiSi movuxade, rom xels vuSli. igi wamodga, kedelsa da kibes Sua dadga da undoda ZaliT SeveCerebine.

— me aval, — miTxra man. — ara, saWiro araa, axla wvrili kartofilis amorCeva aRar momixdeba, — vupasuxe me. Cemi naTqvami sarwmunod miiCnia da xeli gamiSva. roca ukan vbrundebodi, liuki gamiRo da qvabi gamomarTva. sanam oTaxidan gavidodi, vkiTxe:

— sainteresoa, ras akeTeb?

— franguls vswavlob, — mipasuxa man.

— SeiZleba vnaxo Seni davalebebi? — vkiTxe me, xelebi gaviwminde da mis pirdapir taxtze Camovjeqi.

jer ramdenime sityvis mniSvneloba avuxseni, Semdeg ki saubari gavabiT. miTxra, vest-indoeTSi vapireb wasvlas plantaciebSi samuSaodo. momiyva, rogor cxovrobda saxlSi, melaparaka spekulaciaze, miTxra, arafris maqnisi varo. me vupasuxe, rom Zalze ganviTarebuli aqvs arasrulfasovnebis grZnoba. uecrad ebraelebze daiwyo laparaki — ramdenad ukeTesi iqneboda, qristiani rom vyofiliyavi an omis Semdeg mainc SemeZlos gaqristianebao. davinteresdi, omis Semdeg monaTvlas xom ar apirebda, magram arc es undoda. — omis Semdeg aravis ecodineba, qristiani var Tu ebraeli, — miTxra peterma. gulSi raRacam miCxvlita, samwuxaroa, rom mas aqamde SemorCa upatiosnobis raRac nasaxi.

Semdeg mamaze, adamianebis cnobis unarze da kidev bevr rameze vilaparakeT. mxolod xuTis naxevarze wamovedi misgan.

saRamos isev sasiamovno ram miTxra. Cven erT-erT kinovarskvlavze vlaparakobdiT, romlis suraTic odesRac vaCuqe da ager ukve weliwad-naxevaria kedelze ukidia. peterma Tqva, rom suraTi Zalian moswons. me sxva kinovarskvlavebis suraTebi SevTavaze.

— ara, ara, jobs ase darCes. Sen naCuqar suraTs me yoveldRe vuyureb da is Cemi megobari gaxda.

axla ki mesmis, ratom daaTrevs yvelgan muSis da efereba. masac enatreba alersi. marTla, damaviwyda momewera, ai, kidev ra Tqva:

— SiSiT me arafris ar meSinia, magram roca rame mtkiva, vnervulob, Tumca amasac gadaveCvevi.

peters arasrulfasovnebis grZnoba saSinlad aqvs ganviTarebuli. magaliTad, igi fiqrobs, rom Cven Zalian Wkvianebi varT, TviTon ki Zalze suleli. roca frangulSi vexmarebi, aTasjer mixdis madlobas. male aucileblad vetyvi: `Tavs nu isuleleb, samagierod, inglisursa da geografiaSi Sen Cemze Zlieri xar~.

ana
paraskevi, 18 Tebervali, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

roca zeviT avdivar, cxadia, mxolod erTi ganzraxva maqvs. `is~, vnaxo. Cemi aqauri cxovreba bevrad ufro saintereso gaxda, raRac azri moeca, sixaruli Seemata.

Cemi megobruli grZnobis `sagani~ mudam saxlSia da metoqeebis ar meSinia (margos garda). ar ifiqro, Seyvarebuli var, ara, es ase ar aris, magram mtkiced mwams, rom Cemsa da peters Soris lamazi grZnoba ganviTardeba, rac dagvamegobrebs da erTmaneTis ndobas mogvipovebs. rogorc ki SesaZlebloba momecema, maSinve masTan gavrbivar. axla aRar iqceva uwindeburad, roca ar icoda, rogor Semoevlo CemTvis. piriqiT, maSinac ki laparakobs, roca TiTqmis gasuli var oTaxidan. dedas maincdamainc ar moswons, me rom ase xSirad avdivar zeviT. meubneba: — nu awuxeb peters da moasveneo. nuTu ar esmis, rom es Cemi Sinagani gancdebia? yovelTvis, roca peterTan avdivar, deda ucnauri TvaliT miyurebs, roca iqidan CamovdivarT, mekiTxeba, sad iyavio. sazizRari Cveulebaa, ver vitan.

ana
SabaTi, 19 Tebervali, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

isev SabaTia da amiT TiTqmis yvelaferia naTqvami. dilam mSvidobianad Caiara. cotaxans `zemourebs~ vexmarebodi, `mas~ ki mxolod gakvriT gavexmiane. samis naxevarze sabani aviRe da qveviT kabinetSi Cavedi, mindoda magidasTan davmjdariyavi da Tavisuflad mekiTxa da memuSava. mcire xnis Semdeg `momiara~, xelebSi TavCarguli magidaze davemxe da mwared avtirdi. cremlebi Rvarad Camomdioda. Tavs Zalze ubedurad vgrZnobdi. ah, neta movidodes `is~ da manugeSebdes. oTx saaTze isev zeviT avedi. kartofili mqonda Camosatani da vimedovnebdi, rom `mas~ iq Sevxvdebodi, magram sanam `saabazanoSi~ Tmas vivarcxnidi, gavigone, rogor Cairbina sawyobSi mofisTan. cremlebi veRar Sevikave, jibis sarkes xeli davavle da sapirfareSoSi Cavikete. gulmokluli vijeqi da Cemi wiTeli winsafari Camodenili cremlebis muqi laqebiT daifara.

`ase verasodes ver movipoveb peteris ndobas~ — gavifiqre me, `iqneb arafrad magdebs. iqneb ar sWirdeba Cemi megobroba, iqneb mxolod sxvaTa Soris, fiqrobs Cemze? kvlavac marto davrCebi umegobrod, upeterod. iqneb male yvelaferi gamomecalos: imedic, nugeSic da molodinic!~

erTxel mainc momeces SesaZlebloba davayrdno Tavi mis mxars, iqneb gamiqarwyldes uimedobisa da martoobis grZnoba. SeiZleba misTvis sruliad arafers ar warmovadgen da yvelas ase alersianad uyurebs. SeiZleba Cemi warmosaxvis nayofia, TiTqos misi mzera me mekuTvnis. o, peter, rom SegeZlos daminaxo an momismino. magram me ver avitan simarTles, Tu mxolod gamawbilebs. Tumca cremli jer kidev mdioda, magram imedi momeca da lodinis unari damibrunda.

ana
kvira, 20 Tebervali, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

rasac sxvebi mTeli kviris ganmavlobaSi akeTeben, CvenTan, TavSesafarSi kvira dRes xdeba. roca sxvebi koxtad Cacmulni saseirnod midian, Cven mTeli saxlis dalagebas viwyebT.

rva saaTi: duseli angariSs ar uwevs imaT, visac Zili uyvars. zustad rva saaTze fexzea, jer `saabazanoSi~ Sedis, mere qveviT Cadis, male isev zeviT amodis, Semdeg kvlav `saabazanos~ ubrundeba da iqaurobas wmends da fxeks. am saqmes mTeli saaTi undeba.

aTis naxevari: SuqsaniRbavi fardebi ixsneba, inTeba Rumeli, van daanebi dasabanad midian.

TerTmetis TxuTmeti wuTi: van daanebi gvikakuneben, `saabazano~ Tavisufalia. Cvenma Zilisgudebma mxolod axla wamoswies Tavi baliSidan. magram axla ukve saqme swrafad midis: erTi, ori, sami, margo, me, da deda rigrigobiT vrecxavT `did sarecxs~. Zalian civa da Cven gvixaria, rom grZeli Sarvlebi gvacvia. Cvens Semdeg mamas rigia.

Tormetis naxevari: vsauzmobT. amis Sesaxeb arafers mogwer. CvenTan isedac bevrs laparakoben Wamaze.

pirvelis TxuTmeti wuTi: yvela Tavis saqmes akeTebs. kombinezonSi gamowyobili, muxlebze daCoqili mama ise gulmodgined wmends xaliCas, rom oTaxSi mtvris korianteli dgeba. duseli sakuTar logins bertyavs da beThovenis saviolino koncerts ustvens. deda sxvenze dadis, sarecxs fens, van daani quds ixuravs da dabla Cadis. ukan Cveulebriv peteri mihyveba muSis TanxlebiT. qalbatoni van daani irTveba: Salis Sav jemprs icvams, win grZel winsafars ifarebs, Tavs Tbili wiTeli TavsafriT ikravs, xelSi sarecxis fuTas iRebs, fexebs kaloSebSi hyofs da mrecxavi qalis kargad daswavlili kniqseniT midis. me da margo WurWels vrecxavT da oTaxebs valagebT.

ane
oTxSabaTi, 23 Tebervali, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

guSindels aqeT SesaniSnavi daria da me Cems Tavs ar vekuTvni. yovel diliT avdivar sxvenze. minda, sufTa haeri visunTqo. aqve mecadineobs peteric. amoCemebuli adgilidan vxedav lurji cis naWers, gaZarcul wablis xeebs, romelTa totebze momcro cvris wveTebi brwyinavs. vxedav Toliebs, romlebic moxdenilad navardoben da vercxlis feri gadahkravT.

peteri Zelze Tavmoyrdnobili idga, me iqve vijeqi, visunTqavdiT sufTa haers, quCaSi vixedebodiT da vgrZnobdiT, rom Cvens Soris raRaca iseTi xdeba, rac sityviT ar unda daafrTxo. didxans, didxans viyurebodiT quCaSi, xolo, roca igi SeSis dasapobad koSkze adioda, me ukve yvelaferi vicodi, vicodi, ra SesaniSnavi adamiania. peteri viwro kibes ahyva. mec gavyevi. meoTxedi saaTis ganmavlobaSi, sanam muSaobda, xma ar amogviRia. vakvirdebodi, rogor mondomebiT cdilobda kargad gaekeTebina saqme da CemTvis sakuTari Zala daenaxvebina, da amave dros Ria fanjridan gavcqerodi amsterdamis zRva saxuravebs, gaWimuls horizontamde, romelic ise CaZiruliyo cis laJvard sivrceSi, rom mkafio xazs ver gaavlebdi: `sanam yovelive es arsebobs, sanam sxivmfen mzes da mowmendil cas vxedav da vgrZnob, ufleba ara maqvs mwuxarebas mivece~, gavifiqre me.

Tu adamiani sruliad marto, ubeduri an mwuxarea, yvelafers jobia, gavides gareT, wavides sadme iseT adgilas, sadac igi marto iqneba cis, bunebisa da RmerTis anabara. maSin, mxolod maSin igrZnobs, rom yvelaferi isea mowyobili, rogorc saWiroa, rom RmerTs surs, adamiani bednieri ixilos ubralo, mSvenieri bunebis wiaRSi. sanam es asea, — da uTuod mudam ase iqneba, — me mjera, rom yovelgvar viTarebaSi yvela ubedurebas eSveleba da mtkiced mwams, rom bunebas bevri dardis gaqarveba ZaluZs.

Cemi fiqrebi: Cven aq bevri ram gvaklia da kidev didxans gagrZeldeba ase. es mec iseve vici, rogorc Sen. me ar vlaparakob materialur xelmokleobaze, Cven aq sakmarisi gvaqvs yvelaferi, marto isa maqvs mxedvelobaSi, rac sulier simSvides gvirRvevs. mec SensaviT mwyuria Tavisufleba da haeri, magram axla mwams, rom rac dagvaklda, askecad agvinazRaurdeba. yovelive es am diliT gavige uecrad, roca fanjarasTan vijeqi da Sinagan gancdebze vfiqrobdi. avxede zecas, vigrZeni RmerTis siaxlove da bednieri, WeSmaritad bednieri viyavi. o, peter, sanam CvenSi bedniereba suldgmulobs, bunebis xilvis, janmrTelobis da bevri sxva ramis SegrZnebis bedniereba, sanam yovelive amas Sens TavSi atareb, mudam, mudam bednieri iqnebi! yvelaferi SeiZleba dakargo: simdidre, saxeli, gulSi Casaxuli bedniereba ki mcire xans Sesustdeba, magram Semdeg kvlav aRdgeba da mTeli sicocxlis manZilze gagyveba. sanam SegiZlia, uSiSrad axedo cas, sanam guli wminda gaqvs, bedniereba mudam SenTanaa.

ana
kvira, 27 Tebervali 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

gaTenebidan daRamebamde mxolod peterze vfiqrob. viZineb da Tvalwin midgas, ZilSi mesizmreba, xolo roca viRviZeb, vgrZnob, rogor Semomcqeris TvalebSi. me mgoni, me da peteri arc ise ganvsxvavdebiT erTmaneTisagan, rogorc erTi SexedviT Cans da minda agixsna ratom: me da peters namdvili deda gvaklia. dedamisi qarafSutaa, arSiyoba uyvars da misTvis, misi Sinagani gancdebisaTvis maincdamainc Tavs ar iwuxebs. marTalia, dedaCemi did interess iCens Cemdami, magram dedis gumani da mixvedriloba aklia.

orive vebrZviT Cvens grZnobebs. Cven jer gaubedavni, metismetad moridebulni da mokrZalebulni varT imisaTvis, rom ufleba mivceT vinmes, Cvens Sinagan samyaroSi SemoiWras. xolo roca amgvari ram mainc xdeba, Cemi upirvelesi survilia `Tavis gamoxsna~. magram radgan SeuZlebelia, me Cems grZnobebs vmalav da vcdilob, ise uxamsad moviqce, rom yvelam inatros: neta male mocildebodes aqaurobaso.

peteri ki piriqiT, Tavis TavSi imaleba, TiTqmis arafers ambobs, wynaradaa, ocnebobs da SeSinebuli gaurbis yvelas.

magram rodis da sad unda vipovoT erTmaneTi bolos da bolos? me ar vici, ramden xans SeZlebs gonebiT Tavisi grZnobebis daokebas.

ana
orSabaTi, 28 Tebervali, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

ar vici, ra momdis, mudam mis gverdiT varT da ar SemiZlia mivuaxlovde. Tavi ise miWiravs, rom veraferi SemniSnos, vcdilob mxiaruli, Tavisufali viyo, maSinac ki, roca sulis siRrmeSi yovelgvari imedi iwureba.

peter veseli da peter van daani erT peterad gadaiqca, alersian, sayvarel peterad, romliskenac Zlier mimiwevs guli. deda autanelia, mama alersiania da amis gamo kidev ufro autaneli, margo ki yvelaze autaneli, radgan ginda Tu ara, gamicineo. me ki minda Tavi damanebos yvelam.

amas winaT sxvenze avedi. peteri ar movida CemTan. ratomRac gareT gavida da raRacis keTebas Seudga. CaquCis yoveli dartyma mxneobis raRac nawils maclida da ufro metad davnaRvliandi. sadRac kurantebi rekavdnen: `Tavi maRla! guli gaimagre!~

vici, rom santimentaluri var, isic vici, rom saso warmekveTa da goniereba davkarge.

damexmare! damexmare!

ana
oTxSabaTi, 1 marti, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

erTma garemoebam piradi mwuxareba gadamaviwya. kvlav Semoamtvries karebi da gagvqurdes. amdeni gaqurdva mosabezrebelia, magram ras izam, qurdebs aseT did siamovnebas hgvris Tavisi stumrobiT pativi dasdon `kolen da kompaniis~ firmas. es gaqurdva ufro seriozuli aRmoCnda, vidre 1943 wlis 14 ivliss. guSin diliT rvis naxevarze batoni van daani Cveulebisamebr dabla Cavida. kraleris kabinetis Sua (minis) kari da kontoraSi Sesasvleli karebi Ria daxvda. gakvirvebulma kontoraSi Seixeda da gaocda. yvelaferi areul-dareuli iyo.

`aq uTuod qurdebi iyvnen~, gaifiqra man da kibe Cairbina. quCaSi gasasvleli kari da avtomaturi klite xeluxlebeli iyo.

`etyoba, peterma da elim guSin saRamos daudevroba gamoiCines~, gaifiqra man. erTxans kraleris kabinetSi ijda, Semdeg sinaTle Caaqro, zeviT amovida da aRar ufiqria imaze, Tu ratom daxvda kari Ria da ratom iyo kontoraSi yvelaferi areul-dareuli.

diliT adre peterma CvenTan daakakuna da arasasiamovno ambavi gvacnoba: quCis kari yurTamde Riaa, xolo kedlis karadidan saproeqcio aparati da kraleris axali portfeli gaqrao.. peters daavales, quCaSi gasasvleli kari daeketa. batonma van daanma gviambo, rac guSin naxa. Cven Zalian SevwuxdiT. es garemoeba mxolod ase SeiZleba aixsnas: vinaidan karebi Semomtvreuli ar iyo, qurds, albaT, Tavisi gasaRebi hqonda. etyoba, saRamos adre Semoipara, kari daketa da raki batonma van daanma xeli SeuSala, miimala. roca van daani wavida, qurdi Tavisi nadavliT gaiqca da ise Cqarobda, rom karis daketva ver moaswro. magram vis SeiZleba hqondes Cveni gasaRebi? ratom sawyobSi ar Sevida qurdi? iqneb qurdi sawyobis erT-erTi muSaa da axla SeuZlia gagvces. cxadia, van daanis fexis xmas gaigonebda da SeiZleba dainaxa kidec. SiSma Segvipyro, radgan ar viciT, apirebs Tu ara qurdi kidev erTxel Cveni karis gaRebas da Tu apirebs rodis? iqneb kacis danaxvam ise daafrTxo, rom aRar mogvekaros?