Ana frankis dRiuri

ana
xuTSabaTi, 6 ianvari, 1943

Zvirfaso kiwi!

udidesi survili mqonda vinmesTan mesaubra, da ar vici ratom, avirCie maincdamainc peteri. zeviT, peterTan mudam vpoulobdi myudroebas, magram igi imdenad morcxvia, rom xelis SemSlelsac ki ver daiTxovs oTaxidan. amitom adre ver vbedavdi didxans davrCeniliyavi masTan, megona moswyindeboda Cems gverdiT yofna.

axla ki SeumCnevlad vcdilob, rac SeiZleba didxans davrCe masTan da saubari gavaba. guSin kargi sababi momeca. am bolo dros peteri krosvordebis maniiTaa Sepyrobili da mTeli dRis ganmavlobaSi mets arafers akeTebs. gadavwyvite, davxmarebodi. da ai, Cven vsxedvarT magidasTan erTmaneTis pirispir, peteri skamze, me ki divanze. yovelTvis, roca muq lurj TvalebSi Cavxedav da vakvirdebi, rogor dasTamaSebs pirze Rimili, guli saocrad mekumSeba. ase mgonia, mis suls vwvdebi da vkiTxulob. saxeze meryeoba, umweoba da amave dros Tavisi mamakacuri Zalis Segneba aweria. misi morcxvoba ise maTvinierebs, rom mudam mis Tvalebs veZeb. Zalian minda vTxovo: `nu geSinia, miambe yvelaferi, rac SenSi xdeba~. saRamo miiwura, Cvens Soris ki araferi momxdara. me mas mxolod sis haisteris statia gavacani, vuambe, ratom wiTldebian adamianebi, Tumca ara ise, rogorc Sen mogwere. yovelive amas imitom vambobdi, rom mindoda odnav gaTamamebuliyo.

saRamos sawolSi Cavufiqrdi yvelafers da ar mesiamovna, peteris keTilganwyobilebas rom aseT did mniSvnelobas vaniWeb. sakvirvelia, ras ar gaakeTebs adamiani, oRond Tavisas miaRwios. nimuSad SegiZlia me gamomiyeno. gadavwyvite, xSirad mivakiTxo peters da vaiZulo, guli gadamixsnas. ar gegonos, Seyvarebuli viyo, amaze laparakic zedmetia. van daanebs rom vaJis nacvlad qaliSvili hyolodaT, me albaT masac davumegobrdebodi.

am diliT adre gameRviZa, Svidi saaTic ar iqneboda. im wamsve cxadad aRdga Cems SegnebaSi wuxandeli sizmari. me vzivar magidasTan, Cems pirdapir zis peteri... peter veseli. Cven ilustrirebul wigns vaTvalierebT. sizmari imdenad cxadi iyo, rom suraTebic ki maxsovs. magram sizmari amiT ar gaTavebula. Cveni mzera erTmaneTs Sexvda da me didxans vixedebodi mis mSvenier Taflisfer, xaverdovan TvalebSi. bolos peterma Zlivs gasagonad miTxra: `es rom mcodnoda, aqamde movidodi SenTan!~

am sityvebma ise amaRelva, rom maSinve piri vibrune. uecrad loyaze peteris loya vigrZeni da raRac saocrad sasiamovno grZnoba dameufla. mis loyas gaRviZebis Semdegac vgrZnobdi da ase megona misma mSvenierma Tvalebma Rrmad Camxeda gulSi da amoikiTxa, ra Zlier miyvarda da miyvars. magram roca momagonda, ra Sors iyo Cemgan, Tvalze cremli momadga da guli naRveliT amevso, Tumca sixarulic mewvia, radgan vigrZeni, rom peteri mTeli guliT miyvars. saocaria, ra cxadi sizmrebi maqvs aq. pirvelad sizmarSi bebia (mamis deda) vnaxe da ise cxadad, rom mis saxeze naoWebs vamCnevdi. mere momevlina meore bebia (dedis deda) mfarveli angelozis saxiT, Semdeg ki lisi, romelic mTeli im ubedurebis simboloa, rac Cems megobar gogonebs da ebraelebs Tavs daatydaT. roca misTvis vloculob, vloculob yvela ebraelisa da yvela devnili da ubeduri adamianisaTvis.

axla ki myavs peteri, Cemi sayvareli peteri, ase cxadad me igi arasodes daminaxavs, arafrad mWirdeba fotosuraTi. igi Cems mexsierebaSia aRbeWdili da Zalian miyvars.

ana
paraskevi, 7 ianvari, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

ra suleli var! aqamde azradac ar momsvlia, meambna SenTvis Cemi gatacebisa da Cemi Tayvanismcemlebis ambavi.

jer kidev sul patara viyavi, mgoni sabavSvo baRSi davdiodi, roca karl samsoni momewona. mas mama ar hyavda da dedasTan erTad deidasTan cxovrobda. misi deidaSvili bibi, Wkviani, tanadi, Savgvremani biWuna, gacilebiT metad moswonda yvelas, vidre Casuqebuli da sasacilo karli. garegnobas me yuradRebas ar vaqcevdi da wlebis manZilze vmegobrobdi masTan. Cven didxans viyaviT namdvili, kargi amxanagebi. Semdeg peters Sevxvdi da pirvelma bavSvurma siyvarulma mTlianad damipyro. me axlac cxadad vxedav, rogor davdiodiT quCaSi xelCakidebulni. peters tilos kostiumi ecva, me — sazafxulo kaba.

male igi realur saswavlebelSi gadavida, me ki ufros mosamzadebel klasSi Sevedi. xan is gamomivlida skolaSi, xan me gavuvlidi. peteri lamazi, maRali, tanadi, warmosadegi ymawvili iyoკ da mSvidi, seriozuli, Wkviani saxe hqonda. muqi Tma, RaJRaJa, mzemokidebuli loyebi, mSvenieri Taflisferi Tvalebi da Txeli cxviri xatavda. gansakuTrebiT miyvarda misi sicili. am dros bavSvuri gamometyveleba hqonda.

zafxulis ardadegebze qalaqidan gavediT. roca davbrundi, peteri sxva binaSi gadasuliyo da masze bevrad ufrosi ymawvilis mezoblad cxovrobda. miuxedavad amisa, isini ganuyreli megobrebi gaxdnen. etyoba im biWma uTxra peters, rom jer kidev lifsita var da peterma Tavi damaneba. me ise miyvarda peteri, rom didxans ar mjeroda es ambavi, magram bolos vifiqre, devna rom davuwyo `mususs~ damiZaxeben-meTqi da moveSvi.

gadioda wlebi. peteri mxolod Tavis tol amxanagebTan megobrobda, me arc ki mesalmeboda, magram mainc ver viviwyebdi. roca ebraelTa liceumSi gadavedi, bevr Cems Tanaklasel biWs Sevuyvardi. me, cxadia, nasiamovnebi, kmayofili viyavi, magram maTi yuradReba guls ar ekareboda.

mere TavdaviwyebiT Sevuyvardi haris, magram rogorc giTxari, me aRaravin Semyvarebia.

amboben: `dro kargi mkurnaliao!~ mec ase megona. TiTqos daviviwye peteri, guli avicrue masze, magram Cems qvecnobierebaSi mtkiced aRbeWdiliyo sayvareli saxe da simarTles versad gaveqeci: ise veWvianobdi peteris yvela nacnob gogonaze, rom mis Rirsebas gangeb vakninebdi da vcdilobdi gulidan amomegdo.

am diliT ki isev davrwmundi, rom araferi Secvlila. piriqiT, rac ufro memateboda xani da mowifuloba, miT ufro izrdeboda Cemi siyvarulic. axla mesmis, rom peteri bavSvad mTvlida, magram mainc guli mtkiva, rom ase swrafad damiviwya. me ise cxadad vxedav mas, rom vici: ase veRaravin daepatroneba Cems fiqrebs.

sizmarma Tavgza amiria. am diliT, roca mamam makoca, kinaRam xmamaRla viyvire: `ratom peteri ara xar!” mTeli dRe vimeoreb CemTvis: `o, petel, Cemo sayvarelo petel~!

vis SeuZlia damexmaros. minda kvlavac vicocxlo da RmerTs Sevevedro, roca aqedan gaval, peteri mapovninos. igi Cems TvalebSi amoikiTxavs ra Zlier miyvars da metyvis: `o, ane, rom mcodnoda, aqamde movidodi SenTan!~

erTxel, roca seqsualur sakiTxze vsaubrobdiT, mamam miTxra: `jer Sen ver gaigeb, ras hqvia moTxovnileba~. me es maSinac vicodi, axla ki CemTvis yvelaferi cxadia!

sarkeSi Cavixede da Cems Tavs davakvirdi. sul sxvanairad gamoviyurebi. Tvalebs siRrme da naTeli moemata, Rawvebi ise Semefakla, rogorc karga xania ar mqonia, piris moxazulobac ufro nazia. bednieri gamometyveleba maqvs, magram Cems mzeraSi sevdaa Caqsovili da tuCebze Rimils miqrobs. me ar SemiZlia bednieri viyo, radgan vici, rom peteri Cemze ar fiqrobs. Tumca isev da isev vgrZnob Cemsken mopyrobil mSvenier Tvalebs da Cems loyaze mis gril, rbil loyas.

o, petel, petel, rogor daviviwyo Seni saxe! gana vinc Sens adgils daiWers, sacodavi ar iqneba? me Sen ise Zlier miyvarxar, rom siyvaruli gulSi aRar meteva, cdilobs gadmoiRvaros, da mTeli siZlieriT Tvalwin gadameSalos.

erTi kviris win, ara, guSinac rom vinmes ekiTxa, visze ginda gaTxovebao, vityodi: `ar vici!~ axla ki mzad var viyviro: `peterze, mxolod peterze, romelic mTeli guliT da suliT uangarod miyvars. magram zedmeti Jinianoba ar unda gamoiCinos, me mas nebas vaZlev mxolod loyaze Semexos~.

dRes sxvenze avedi, fanjarasTan Camovjeqi da masze vfiqrobdi. mcire xans visaubreT, Semdeg ki orive avtirdiT da me xelaxla vigrZeni misi tuCebi, misi loyis uaRresad nazi Sexeba.

`o, peter, ifiqre Cemze da modi CemTan, Cemo sayvarelo, Cemo sanatrelo peter!~

ana
oTxSabaTi, 12 ianvari, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

ToTxmeti dRea, rac eli CvenTanaa. mipi da henki ori dRea ar gamoCenilan, orives kuWi aqvs aSlili.

axali ambavi. gamitaca cekvam da baletma. saRamoobiT bevrs vvarjiSob. cisferi maqmaniani qvedatanisagan dedam Semikera supermodernuli sacekvao kaba, zeviT naoWayrili, mkerdTan SesakraviT, qvemoT ki didi bafTa aqvs mokerebuli, magram Cemi sportuli fexsacmelebisagan sabaleto sandlebis gakeTeba verafriT movaxerxe.

Cemi modunebuli saxsrebis gasaSlelad ukeTess verafers movigonebdi. male iseTive moqnili viqnebi, rogoric adre viyavi. ai, erTi kargi varjiSi: iatakze damjdari orive xeliT terfebs veWidebi da swrafad vwev fexebs zeviT. magram Cemi sacodavi kudusuni rom metismetad ar gailaxos, qveS baliSs videb.

ufrosebi kiTxuloben wigns: `uRrublo dila~. dedas Zalian moswons. wigni Tanamedrove axalgazrdobis problemebs exeba. me ironiulad gavifiqre: `umjobesia, dainteresde im axalgazrdebiT, romlebTanac erT WerqveS cxovrob~.

me mgonia, deda fiqrobs, rom ukeTesi urTierToba, vidre me da margos gvaqvs mSoblebTan, saerTod ar arsebobs da masze ufro aravin ar eloliaveba sakuTar Svilebs. simarTle rom iTqvas, es mxolod margos exeba. Cemi azriT, margos arc awuxebs is sakiTxebi da fiqrebi, romlebic me ar masveneben. me arc vecdebi mivaxvedro deda, rom misi erT-erTi naSieri sul sxvanairia, vidre mas warmoudgenia. mas mxolod sadardebeli moemateba, me ki minda, mwuxareba avarido. amiT mainc araferi Seicvleba. deda grZnobs, rom margo ufro axloa masTan, vidre me, magram amave dros darwmunebulia, adre Tu gvian yvelaferi mogvardeba. Tumca am bolo dros Zalian yuradRebiania Cem mimarT, sul sxvanairi, vidre aqamde iyo. qedmaRloba daiviwya, namdvili megobrebi gavxdiT. axla aRar mivaCnivar im umniSvnelo arsebad, romelTanac seriozuli urTierToba SeuZlebelia.

sakvirvelia, Cems Tavs zogjer ise vakvirdebi, TiTqos sxvisi TvaliT vuyurebde. aseT SemTxvevaSi mSvidad vaTvaliereb anas da Cemi cxovrebis wigns ise vfurclav, TiTqos sxvis mier ganvlili gza iyos. adre, roca Cvens saxlSi vcxovrobdiT da amdeni fiqris Tavi ar mqonda, ase megona, dedasTan, margosTan da mamasTan saerTo araferi maqvs, am ojaxis RviZli Svili ara var-meTqi. zogjer Cems Tavs obol bavSvad warmovidgendi da manamde verTobodi amiT, sanam cxadi ar gaxdeboda, rom sisulelea, Sens Tavs ubedur adamianad Tvlide, roca ase kargad cxovrob. amgvari azrebis Semdeg mqonda iseTi periodi, roca vcdilobdi keTili da alersiani vyofiliyavi. yovel diliT, roca vinme amodioda kibeze, me vocnebobdi, rom es deda yofiliyo, Semosuliyo Cvens oTaxSi da `dila mSvidobisa~ eTqva. maSin dedas tkbilad vesalmebodi, mixaroda, rom nazad micqerda. magram zogjer ama Tu im mizeziT nakleb alersiani iyo da im dRes gunebawamxdari mivdiodi skolaSi, xolo roca skolidan vbrundebodi, vcdilobdi gamemarTlebina. masac xom bevri sazrunavi aqvs, vfiqrobdi me da saxlSi mxiaruli da kmayofili Sevdiodi. dRis manZilze gancdili gulSi ar meteoda, da mindoda yvelasaTvis meambna... Semdeg yvelaferi Tavidan iwyeboda da me isev naRvliani da dafiqrebuli mivdiodi skolaSi. zogjer gadavwyvetdi gamomemJRavnebina, rarig gamicruvda imedi, meTqva, rogor gamityda guli, magram saxlSi dabrunebisas imdeni saambobi mqonda, rom ganzraxva maviwydeboda da undoda Tu ara, dedas mainc yuri unda daegdo CemTvis.

Semdeg iseTi dro dadga, roca aRar mainteresebda, ismis Tu ara kibeze fexis xma, martoobas vgrZnobdi da baliSSi TavCarguli cxare cremlebiT vtirodi. TavSesafarSi es grZnoba kidev ufro gamZafrda, Sen es ici. axla RmerTma gaWirvebaSi myofs manugeSeblad peteri gamomigzavna! viReb medalions, romelsac mudam Tan vatareb, nazad vkocni da vfiqrob: `ra saqme maqvs mTel am aliaqoTTan? me myavs Cemi peteli da es aravin icis?!~

amaze fiqriT bevr rames gavumklavdebi. aravin icis, ra xdeba qaliSvilis gulSi!?

ana
SabaTi, 15 ianvari, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

azri ara aqvs, dawvrilebiT agiwero aqauri kinklaoba da Cxubi. sakmarisia gacnobo, rom erTmaneTs gamoveyaviT. calke vinaxavT xorcs, karaqs, cxims da CvenTvis viwvavT kartofils. am bolo dros mTeli dRis ulufas erTi naWeri puric davumateT, radgan oTx saaTze ise gvSioda, rom kuWi gvewoda da verafriT vaSoSminebdiT. axlovdeba dedaCemis dabadebis dRe. kralerma cotaodeni Saqari moutana stumrebis gasamaspinZleblad, qalbatoni van daani ki SuriT gaskda, radgan dabadebis dReze araferi aCuqes. arc ise sasiamovnoa, ismende yoveldRe mis bRavilsa da autanel Rrials. unda gamogityde, kiwi, rom misi mezobloba yelSi amogvivida.

dedam ganuxorcielebeli survili gamoTqva: netav or kviras mainc mamyofa uvandaanebodo. me Cems Tavs vekiTxebi: nuTu yvela adamianTan mogiva Cxubi, Tu erT WerqveS cxovrobT, an iqneb Cven bedi ar gvwyalobs? nuTu adamianTa umetesoba egoisti da xarbia? uTuod kargia, me rom aq adamianis buneba ukeT gavicani, magram kmara! omi jer isev grZeldeba da aravis ar ainteresebs Cveni Cxubi, Cveni miswrafeba sufTa haerisa da Tavisuflebisaken. amitom unda vecadoT `to make the best of it~.¹ (¹ yvelaferSi kargi mxare veZioT (ingl.).)

kacma rom Tqvas, ra maqaqanebs? Tu didxans gagrZelda ase, lobios gamxmar sars davemgvanebi, me ki gacilebiT mirCevnia, namdvili, cocxali gogona viyo!

ana
SabaTi, 22 ianvari, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

iqneb amixsna, ratom xdeba, rom adamianTa umravlesobas eSinia Tavisi Sinagani bunebis gamomJRavnebisa, ratom xdeba, rom sazogadoebaSi sul sxvanairad iqcevi, vidre saWiroa? vici, rom amis mizezebi uTuod arsebobs, magram mainc gaugebrad mimaCnia, radgan uaxloes adamiansac ki ver endobi bolomde.

me iseTi grZnoba maqvs, TiTqos im sizmris Semdeg gavizarde, ufro metic, `pirovneba~ gavxdi. albaT, gagikvirdeba, magram axla van daanebzec vmsjelob da maTTan davas da Setakebebs uwindeburad tuCabzekiT aRar vuyureb. ratom Sevicvale ase?

ici, me bevrs vfiqrob amaze da mgonia, rom Cveni urTierToba sul sxvagvari iqneboda, deda rom namdvili idealuri `dediko~ iyos. cxadia, qalbaton van daanze ver ityvi, zrdilobiani adamianiao, magram deda rom urTierTobaSi damyoli iyos da saubris gamwvaveba ar uyvardes, SeiZleboda usiamovnebis naxevari mainc agvecilebina Tavidan. qalbaton van daansac aqvs dadebiTi Tvisebebi, masTan molaparakeba SeiZleba. miuxedavad imisa, rom egoistia da buzRuna, Tu ar gaaRiziane da ar SeuCiCxine, iolad daiyolieb. marTalia, es `Tviniereba~ didxans ar gahyveba, magram Tu moTminebas gamoiCen, SeiZleba Seewyo. kargi iyo, gulRiad da megobrulad gvemsjela masTan erTad Cveni aRzrdis, ganebivrebis, kvebis da mraval sxva sakiTxze. maSin avcdebodiT im ukiduresobas, roca erTmaneTSi mxolod uaryofiT Tvisebebs xedaven.

vici, kiwi, kargad vici, rasac metyvi.

`ana, nuTu es Seni azrebia? nuTu Sen ambob amas, Sen, romelzedac amdeni cudi ram uTqvamT `zemourebs?~ Sen, romelsac amdeni usamarTloba ginaxavs maTgan?~ diax, amas me vambob. minda me TviTon Cavwvde yvelafers, ar msurs vicxovro Zveli naTqvamis mixedviT: `rogorc mama-papas sCveoda~... minda davakvirde van daanebs da gamovarkvio, ra aris marTali da ra gadaWarbebuli. xolo Tu imedebi gamicruvda, mec Cems mSoblebs mivemxrobi. magram SeiZleba col-qmari ukeTesi aRmoCndes, vidre yvelas hgonia. maSin Sevecdebi Ziri gamovuTxaro Cemi mSoblebis araswor warmodgenas maTze da Tu ver movaxerxe, Cemi Sexeduleba da Tvalsazrisi mainc meqneba. yvela saSualebas gamoviyeneb, qalbaton van daans sxvadasxva sakiTxze gavesaubrebi da vecdebi miukerZoeblad gamovTqva Cemi azri. tyuilad xom ar meZaxian `froilain¹ (¹ qaliSvili; germaniaSi ase mimarTaven gauTxovar qals.). yovlismcodnes~.

me sruliad ar vapireb Cveni ojaxis winaaRmdeg galaSqrebas, magram amieridan Worebs aRar avyvebi. aqamde mtkiced viyavi darwmunebuli, rom yvelaferSi van daanebi iyvnen damnaSave, magram nawilobriv, albaT, Cvenc migviZRvis brali. SeiZleba principSi Cven yovelTvis marTali varT, magram gonier adamianebs, — da Cven xom aseTebad migvaCnia Tavi, — moeTxovebaT, rom yvela juris adamianebs Seeguon. raki aseTi keTilgonieri gavxdi, imedi maqvs, momecema SesaZlebloba naTqvami cxovrebaSi ganvaxorcielo.

ana
orSabaTi, 24 ianvari, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

saocari ambavi SememTxva. aqamde Cvens saxlSi sqesobriv sakiTxebze idumali gamometyvelebiT laparakobdnen, skolaSi ki uxamsad da sazizRrad. gogoebi mudam CurCulebdnen da Tu rames ver gaigebdi, masxrad agigdebdnen. am sakiTxisadmi aseTi damokidebuleba ucnauri meCveneboda da vfiqrobdi:

`ratom laparakoben am Temaze ase farulad, anda sazizRrad?~ da radganac arafris Secvla ar SemeZlo, gaCumebuli viyavi da am sakiTxze Zalian axlobel megobars Tu davelaparakebodi zogjer. mere, roca TiTqmis yvelaferi gavige da zogi ram mSoblebmac amixsnes, dedam miTxra: `ane, minda kargi rCeva mogce, nurasodes nu elaparakebi biWebs am Temaze, xolo Tu TviTon dagelaparakebian, maSinve Seawyvetine~.

Cemi pasuxi axlac kargad maxsovs: `ara, deda, cxadia ara, rogor SeiZleba!~ da amiT gaTavda Cveni saubari.

pirvel xanebSi, roca aq gadmovsaxldiT, mama xSirad melaparakeboda iseT sakiTxebze, rac merCia dedas aexsna. danarCeni wignebidan da saubrebidan gavige. peter van daani am mxriv Zalian TavSekavebulia, mxolod erTxel Tqva raRac amdagvari, isic ara im mizniT, rom pasuxi gamoetyuebina CemTvis.

qalbatonma van daanma erTxel ganacxada, rom peterTan am Temaze arc mas ulaparakia da arc mis qmars. man arc ki icoda, ramdenad iyo peteri gaTviTcnobierebuli.

guSin, roca margo, me da peteri kartofils vfcqvnidiT, saubari Camovarda Cvens kataze, mofize:

— Cven aqamde ar viciT, mofi mamalia Tu dedali, — vTqvi me.

— rogor Tu ar viciT, mamalia, — ganacxada peterma.

— raRa mamalia Tuki dRe-dReze knutebs elis, — gamecina me. am ramdenime kviris win TviTon peterma gvamcno, mofi imitomaa aseTi msuqani, rom male knutebi eyolebao. magram mofi, etyoba, naqurdaliT gasuqda da muceli gamoebera, radgan knutebi jerac ar Canda. peterma gadawyvita Tavi gaemarTlebina.

— SegiZlia wamoxvide da naxo, — miTxra man, — amas winaT veTamaSebodi da Cemi TvaliT davinaxe, rom mamalia.

cnobismoyvareoba ver davZlie. peters sawyobSi Cavyevi. magram mofis miRebis saaTebi ar hqonda da versad aRmovaCineT. cota xans velodeT da radganac cioda, isev zeviT amovediT. saRamos gavigone, rom peteri qveviT Cadioda. gambedaoba movikribe, carieli saxli gavirbine da sawyobSi Cavedi. peteri mofis SesafuT magidaze eTamaSeboda, Semdeg sasworze dasva da undoda aewona.

— halo, ginda naxo? — peters sruliad ar moridebia, marjved swvda mofis TavSi, meore xeliT TaTebi SeuboWa, gadaabruna da daiwyo leqcia — ai, sasqeso organo, aq Tma aqvs, aq ki ukana gasavali!

uecrad mofi naxevrad Semobrunda da isev TeTr TaTebze dadga. vinme sxva biWs rom ase eCvenebina CemTvis `mamakacis sasqeso organo~, TvalSi veRar Sevxedavdi. magram peteri ise ubralod laparakobda am saCoTiro Temaze, rom bolos mec momeCvena, — aq gansakuTrebuli araferia-meTqi. Cven mofis veTamaSebodiT, Tavs virTobdiT, uamrav sakiTxze vsaubrobdiT, mere ki auCqareblad gaviareT didi sawyobi da zeviT amovediT.

— xSirad SemTxveviT wignSi wavawydebi imas, rac Zalian minda vicode, Senc ase mogdis? — vkiTxe me.

— ratom, me mSoblebs vekiTxebi, mamam bevri ram icis, ganaTlebuli kacia!

Cven kibeze videqiT da xmas ar viRebdiT. gogo rom yofiliyo, ase ubralod ver davelaparakebodi am Temaze. albaT amas gulisxmobda deda, roca mafrTxilebda, biWebTan aseT saubars erideo. roca sawyobSi gamarTul saubars vixsenebdi, mTeli dRe rogorRac ucnaurad meRimeboda. Tumca imasac mivxvdi, rom Seni xnis mopirdapire sqesis warmomadgenelsac SeiZleba elaparako gonivrulad, yovelgvari suleluri xumrobis gareSe.

nuTu peteri marTla elaparakeba bevr rameze mSoblebs? nuTu marTlac iseTia, rogoric guSin momeCvena.

ah, saidan unda vicode!

ana
xuTSabaTi, 27 ianvari, 1944

Zvirfaso kiwi!

am bolo dros didad gamitaca gvirgvinosanTa ojaxebis sagvareulo genealogiam. roca kvlevas iwyeb, sul ufro metad eflobi warsulSi da bolos friad saintereso ambebs awydebi.

yvela saganSi gulmodgined vmecadineob. axla ukve SemiZlia movismino inglisis radiosadguris gadacema ingliselebisaTvis. kviraobiT Cemi kinovarskvlavebis koleqciis gadarCevas da daxarisxebas vundebi. koleqcia sakmaod gaizarda. batoni kraleri yovel orSabaTs maxarebs da CemTvis kinoJurnali moaqvs. Cveni arcTu ise maRali sazogadoebis warmomadgeneli mezoblebi amas fulis tyuilubralod flangvas eZaxian da gaocebulni arian, rogor maxsovs gasul wels nanaxi filmis gmirebi. Tavisufal dReebSi eli xSirad dadis kinoSi Tavis megobrebTan erTad, SabaTs meubneba, romeli filmis naxvas apirebs da me maSinve CamovuTvli xolme yvela gmiris saxels da movaxseneb, ra azrisaa kritika. amas winaT dedam Tqva, rom kinoSi siaruli aRar damWirdeba, radgan winaswar vici filmis Sinaarsi, vin dadga da vin TamaSobs.

roca oTaxSi myofT sxvagvarad Tmadavarcxnili movevlinebi, yvela gakvirvebiT miyurebs da mekiTxebian, romel kinovarskvlavs vbaZav. Cemi mogonilia, vacxadeb me, magram aravis sjera. amgvari siamovneba naxevar saaTze mets ar grZeldeba, me saabazanoSi gavrbivar da isev Cveulebrivad, sadad vivarcxni Tmas.

ana
paraskevi, 28 ianvari, 1944
Zvirfaso kiwi!

am diliT Cems Tavs vkiTxe: xom ar veqcevi kiwis ise, rogorc Zroxas, romelsac Zveli ambebis ReWvas aZaleben da am erTferovani sakvebiT Tavmobezrebuli xmamaRla amTqnarebs da ocnebobs: iqneb anam raime axali miambos. diax, kiwi, samwuxarod, mec vici, rarig mosabezrebelia Zveli ambebi, warmoidgine, ukve mec mirevs guls. Tu sufrasTan politikaze an gemriel saWmelze ar laparakoben, deda da qalbatoni van daani axalgazrdobis wlebs igoneben, duseli ki raRacas mied-moedeba: xan Tavisi colis saucxoo tansacmelze laparakobs, xan doRze, xan navebze, romlebSic wyali Sedis, xan vunderkindebze, romlebmac ukve oTxi wlis asakSi icodnen curva, xan kunTebis krunCxvaze, da xanac nervul pacientebze. saqme iqamde mivida, rom sakmarisia romelime Cvenganma raRacis moyola daiwyos, meore maSinve CamoarTmevs sityvas da ambavs ganagrZobs. Cven winaswar viciT, riT Tavdeba anekdoti da mTxrobelis garda aRaravis ecineba. aTasjer gavaqiaqeT Cveni yofili diasaxlisebi, mommarageblebi, yasbebi, vaWrebi, mepureebi da me aRar vici, ra SeiZleba iTqvas Cvens TavSesafarSi axali. yvela ambavi grZelwveriania! amas rogorme avitandiT, magram ufrosebs cudi Cveva gamoumuSavdaT: koophoisis, mipisa da henkis monayols aTjer mainc gaimeoreben sxvadasxva sityvebiT da sakuTari gamonagoniT Seavseben. aseT SemTxvevaSi magidis qveS Cems Tavs vCqmet, rom gatacebiT molaparakes sityva ar Sevawyvetino. Cemi xnis bavSvebs araviTar SemTxvevaSi ara aqvT ufleba ufrosebs xma gaakmendinon. maSinac ki, roca usircxvilod tyuian da yovelgvar zRaprebs igoneben.

koophoisi da henki yovelTvis gvatyobineben, vin daimala an vin gaiqca. maT ician, ra axlo migvaqvs gulTan amgvari ambebi, rogor ganvicdiT da vitanjebiT im adamianebTan erTad, romelTac miagnes da rogor gvixaria imaTTan erTad, vinc daWeras gadaurCa.

iatakqveS cxovreba da damalva axla iseTive yoveldRiuri movlenaa, rogorc uwin mamis saSinao Custebi, zamTarSi rom RumelTan daxvdeboda.

iseTi organizaciebi, rogoricaa `Tavisufali niderlandebi~, yalb mowmobebs amzadeben, saimedo TavSesafars pouloben da TavianT wevrebs fuliTa da sursaT-sanovagiT amarageben, xolo qristiani axalgazrdebisaTvis, romlebic `iatakqveS~ iwyeben cxovrebas, sando mewarmeebisagan samuSaos Souloben, an sawarmoSi awyoben. saocaria, ramden rames akeTeben keTilSobili uangaro adamianebi, romlebic sakuTar sicocxles safrTxeSi agdeben, sxvebs ki exmarebian da bevric gadaarCines. amis saukeTeso magaliTia Cveni mfarvelebi, romlebic aqamde gvexmarebian da imedia, keTilad migviyvanen bolomde. winaaRmdeg SemTxvevaSi maT im adamianebis bedi unda gaiziaron, romlebic ebraelebs mfarveloben. maT sityviTac ki ar ugrZnobinebiaT CvenTvis, Tu ra mZime tvirTad vawevarT mxrebze — da es marTlac asea! — arc erT maTgans ar wamoscdenia sayveduri imis gamo, rom Cveni gulisTvis amdeni davidarabis gadatana uxdeba. yoveldRe amodian zeviT, mamakacebs politikaze da saqmeebze esaubrebian, qalebs imaze, Tu rogor gaZnelda sursaT-sanovagis Sovna da ojaxis gaZRola, Cven wignebsa da gazeTebze. gamometyveleba metad mxiaruli aqvT, dabadebis dReze da sadResaswaulod yvavilebi da saCuqrebi moaqvT. da yovelTvis mzad arian daxmareba gagviwion. Tumca omSi da mCagvrelTa winaaRmdeg brZolaSi gmirebs ra gamolevs, magram Cven arasodes dagvaviwydeba Cveni megobrebis Tavdadeba, megobrobisa da siyvarulis yoveldRiuri dadastureba!

ras ar gaigoneb, lamis Wkuaze Sevcde da, rac mTavaria, monayoli metwilad marTalia. koophoisma gviambo, gelderlandSi gaumarTavT fexburTis matCi, sadac erT gundSi mxolod `iatakqveSelebi~ TamaSobdnen, meoreSi ki — adgilobrivi policielebi!

hilverzumSi axali sasursaTo baraTebi daurigebiaT. `iatakqveSelebi~ rom usursaTod ar darCeniliyvnen, adgilobrivma moxeleebma daniSnul droze maTi `mfarvelebi~ gamoiZaxes da baraTebi dauriges. magram amgvari sagmiro oinebi `mofebis~¹ (¹ germanelebis damcinavi saxelia.) yuramde rom ar mivides, didi sifrTxilea saWiro.